Red Ways
Disclaimer: A little 'what if?' scene from 'Red' where Clark decides to be somewhat truthful with Lana at the end of the episode.
Clark thought about his options after Lana had told him it was either him or it wasn't, clearly not willing to let him slide by this time. And considering how he'd basically hurt her while wearing the red meteor ring, he honestly couldn't blame her. He could lie to her but at the same time, it would do him no good and Lana wouldn't be happy with him. But when he really thought about it, he could tell her a partial truth. Whether or not she'd be willing to believe him… Well, that was another matter entirely. Letting out a sigh as he looked at her, Clark spoke. "You know how there's the green meteor rocks all over Smallville?"
"Vividly. And please, don't try to change the subject, Clark."
"I'm not, I promise. It turns out that there's also a red version." He told her seriously.
Making her eyebrows go up at that. "Are you serious?"
"Unfortunately. You'd have to get the details from Chloe as she knows more about it then me. But uhh… You know about the whole ID, Ego, and Super-Ego concept right?"
"Umm… Not necessarily." Lana replied a little shortly, wanting him to get on with things.
He winced at her tone and hurried on. "Well… ID is basically the part of us that is… Wild, so to speak. But is largely balanced out by the Ego and Super-Ego. But when I put on a class ring that had a red meteor rock in it… It, it basically stripped me of the Ego and Super-Ego and left me with nothing but the ID."
"And it turned you into a care free, do what you please jerk?" Lana asked and watched as he looked down in shame.
"Yeah. My dad thinks that parts of it were things I've repressed when it comes to certain feelings I have and the red meteor let me act and say how I felt. I just wish it hadn't taken that for me to express myself."
God knew he was gonna be feeling guilty for a long while over this. "I wish it hadn't either, Clark. Because that really hurt me." She told him with anger and hurt easily heard in her voice and making him wince again.
"I know, Lana, God I know and I am so sorry for it. Hurting you is the absolute last thing I ever wanted to do."
"Part of me wants to believe you, Clark… But right now, I'm not sure I can. But maybe with some time I'll be able too."
And perhaps she could ask Chloe about the red meteor rocks and even Clark's parents… Clark could only stare at her with a saddened look on his face as she turned away from him on her Horse and rode off. Not allowing him to see the tears that wanted to burst free as she rode on while feeling Clark's forlorn gaze on her as she left. Clark himself would stay where he was for a good long while until he finally walked away with his head hung low and hating the red variant of the meteors even more.
Author's Notes: I had originally wanted this to be a happy ending kind of thing but realized it wouldn't work.
