Author's Note: I wouldn't really call this a sequel to "Alex Remembers Everthing" but it is in the same universe. I mention some of the things that happened in that story and Alex knows that Kara is Supergirl. You don't really need to read that one to follow this one but if want to know more and don't want to read that story just PM me and I'll give you the basics.

This one is primarily a Sanvers story because I still love that pairing. It's currently a 4-shot but I'll probably add an epilogue at some point. FYI, the four chapters are all written they just need to be reviewed for grammar, etc. I hope to post a chapter every day or two.

Trigger warning: For mentions of rape but no graphic descriptions and a very brief mention of suicidal thoughts.

For those of you waiting for the next chapter of "Would It Ruin Everything?", I apologize, again. I keep asking my muse for updates to that story and she keeps sending my Supergirl stories! I have not and will not give up on that story.

I don't own Supergirl and I'm not making any money off of this story. Of course if they ever decide to sell the rights…I still won't own Supergirl because I don't have that much money! Fun to think about though isn't it.


The DEO/NCPD joint strike team was cleaning up after a particularly nasty operation in the warehouse district of National City. Alex had decided to go along on this one to run things from the field. It was rare for her to be out in the field since adopting her son but, because of the size of the organization they were taking down and the complexity of the operation they had planned, she felt the need to be on-site keeping an eye on the situation.

In defiance of Col Haley's standing order banning Supergirl from all DEO operations, Alex had asked Brainy to call her in. She simply wasn't willing to needlessly risk her life now that she had someone at home who depended on her completely.

Fortunately, Col Haley had not attempted to use the alien Truth Seeker on her, or anyone else at the DEO, again. She had faith in J'onn's plan to avoid being forced to submit to the creature but she'd just as soon not have to put it into action.

Supergirl landed next to her as she surveyed the prisoners being loaded into trucks for transport to the DEO's desert base where they would be interrogated regarding their operation. Alex was fairly certain that this was not the entirety of their operation. Word was that the head of the organization kept herself well hidden.

"Looks like we're done here," Supergirl said. "I'd better get going before Col Haley decides to stop by and sees us acting all chummy. Wouldn't want to arouse her suspicions again."

"Definitely not. Thanks for coming though. I felt like I needed to be here but ever since I …"

"Alex, you don't have to explain. Do you think I'd let anything happen to the mother of the best nephew on the planet? Where is he right now by the way? Maybe I'll stop in and see him before I head back to CatCo."

Alex looked chagrined, "I don't think that's a great idea. He's in daycare at DEO Headquarters."

"The DEO has a daycare center?" Supergirl asked, surprised she didn't already know that.

"It does now" Alex replied. When her sister just smirked at her she said "What? There ought to be some perks to being in charge. Col Haley wasn't too happy about it but it's been well received by the agent's and other DEO employees who have small children."

"Aren't you worried that it might not be safe?" Kara wanted to know.

"Well we set it up in the annex so it's not anywhere near the operations center, labs, or holding cells. Plus, I've instituted a policy where all the most dangerous prisoners are immediately transported to the desert base. That's where this bunch is headed."

"That makes sense. It's certainly safer for the citizens of National City if one of the prisoners happens to escape. But I guess that means I don't get my baby snuggle fix before I head back to work." The superhero pouted and Alex laughed at her.

"Why don't you come by tonight. You can help me feed him and get him ready for bed and then we can have a sister's night. We haven't done that since I adopted him."

Kara's face lit up. "That sounds great! I'll see you around six?" Alex nodded. Supergirl turned to take off and suddenly turned back. Alex looked at her questioningly. "I've really missed this, working together I mean."

"Me too," Alex responded. "I know that sounds weird since, after the mind wipe, I didn't really remember working with you as my sister but still, part of me knew something was missing." Glancing around to make sure no one was paying attention to them she gave Kara's hand a squeeze and with that Supergirl took to the air, zooming back in the direction of CatCo.

Alex was about to hop into her standard issue DEO black SUV when she saw Detective Jack Johnson from the NCPD Science Division, Maggie's old partner. It bothered her a bit how the sight of him caused an ache in her chest. It had been over a year since she broke things off with Maggie and just the thought of her still hurt.

Knowing she really shouldn't but unable to help herself, she went over to him and struck up a conversation, a very awkward conversation. "Detective Johnson, it's good to see you," she began, not sure if she was still welcome to call him Jack like she did when she and Maggie were still together. "It's been a while since I've seen you. I don't get out in the field much anymore. How have you been."

He looked around when he heard her call his name and something flashed across his face. Was it anger, disappointment, discomfort? She couldn't tell. "Oh, hey Director Danvers," so clearly he'd heard about her promotion. "I'm good, still keeping the city safe from rogue aliens and humans alike. How about you?" His response was polite but he definitely seemed uncomfortable.

"I'm good," Alex answered. "Busy, seems like as soon as we take down one organization like this another pops up in its place."

"Ain't that the truth," he replied with a forced smile. "Look, I've got to get..."

Alex saw her chance to ask what she really wanted to know slipping away so she interrupted. "Have...have you heard from Maggie recently? Is she still in Gotham? When's she due back?"

Roughly two months after their breakup Alex had run into Maggie during a joint DEO/NCPD operation. It was the fourth time it had happened since they'd decided to call it quits. Maggie had approached her as she was getting ready to leave looking extremely uncomfortable. "Look Alex, I uh, I just wanted to let you know, I've taken a temporary assignment in Gotham as a liaison to the Gotham PD. It's too hard, seeing you all the time like this. I think a little distance will do us both some good, help us to move on ya know."

She had walked away before Alex had been able to form a coherent response. She knew Maggie was right but the thought of Maggie being all the way across the country made her heart hurt.

Detective Johnson, seemed to be studying her, as if he was trying to decide whether he should answer her questions or just walk away. "You still love her don't you Alex?"

Alex didn't even consider denying it. "I do, I think I always will."

Jack nodded the decision made. "Right then, I really shouldn't tell you what I'm about to tell you. No doubt if Maggie finds out I did she will take me out to the desert and shoot me. But I think you should know. I mean maybe you can help her some how."

Alex nodded encouraging him to continue even though she suddenly had a knot the approximate size and weight of a bowling ball in her stomach.

"Something happened in Gotham Alex, something bad, real bad." He paused, trying to find the right words. "Maggie was undercover with a mixed gang of aliens and humans that were suspected of all sorts of bad dealings; drugs, human and alien trafficking, prostitution, illegal gambling, You name it they were into it. Anyway, she got made. They beat her, sexually assaulted her and left her for dead. Not long after that she came back to National City. I guess the bad memories there were worse than the bad memories here. She's been back for a few months now but on medical leave. She just came back to work about a month ago. She hasn't been out in the field yet."

He stopped, realizing Alex wasn't listening to him anymore. Everything he said after Maggie had been beaten and sexually assaulted was just buzzing in her ears. Suddenly her knees buckled and she fell to her hands and knees and threw up. Jack knelt beside her awkwardly rubbing her back until she'd emptied the contents of her stomach right there beside her DEO issued SUV.

"I'm sorry, maybe I shouldn't have told you. I just..." he started then seemed at a loss for how to finish the sentence.

She let him help her up and she squeezed his hand once then released it. "No, I'm glad you told me. I get why Maggie didn't or couldn't tell me herself but it's something I want to know. Like you said I still love her. Just because we're not together doesn't mean I don't want to help her if I can."

"The problem is getting her to let you help her." Jack replied. "Like I said she's been back a month and she's hasn't talked about what happened to me or anyone else that I know of except maybe the department shrink and I'm pretty sure she only went to him because they wouldn't let her come back to work until she did." Jack looked worried and exasperated all at once.

"No she's not the type to ask for help or accept it when it's offered." Alex agreed. "At least now I know about it. If I can I'll find a way to help her."


Alex returned to the DEO and tried to write a report on the operation in the warehouse district but her mind kept returning to Maggie and what had happened to her in Gotham. Finally, she gave up, letting her second in command know she was taking the rest of the day off she went and picked up her son from the daycare center and headed home.

Just holding him in her arms calmed and centered her. When she got him home she sat holding him in the rocking chair she had bought for the nursery. While they rocked, she considered her options. What she wanted to do was head straight over to Maggie's place, take her in her arms and give her a safe place to fall apart but, even if she knew where Maggie lived now, which she didn't, she knew that wouldn't be fair to Maggie. She didn't want Maggie to feel like it was an ambush. No, she needed to give Maggie space and the right to refuse her help or to even talk to her if that was her choice. For that reason a phone call wouldn't work either

In the end she decided on an e-mail. It allowed her to carefully consider what she wanted to say rather than winging it in a spur of the moment conversation. It also allowed Maggie to respond, or not, in her own time and in her own way.

Alex pulled out her phone and began to type:

"Hey Maggie," no, to informal.

"Dear Maggie," to formal.

"Maggie,

I spoke to Jack Johnson after a joint DEO/NCPD op today. He told me you were back in town. He also told me what happened to you in Gotham. Please don't be angry with him. He's worried about you and he knows I still care about you.

I'm so sorry you went through that Maggie. I want you to know that I am here for you if you need or want someone to talk to. I understand if you don't want that or if it's still too painful to be around me. Please know that just because we aren't together anymore doesn't mean I don't care about you or want to help you when you're going through a difficult time.

I don't know if you want to know about it or not but just in case you do, I adopted a

little boy a couple of months ago. I named him JJ, short for Jeremiah J'onn. I'd love for you to meet him some time but, again, I'll understand if you don't want to.

I'm here for you Maggie, whether or not you want to meet my son, all you have to do is call and I'll be there.

Always,

Alex"

Without giving herself time to reconsider, Alex hit the send button. She looked down at the infant in her arms, he had beautiful brown eyes and the wispy hair on his head was dark brown as well. When he smiled at her he had the most adorable dimples she'd ever seen. "Well little man, it's done. Now all we can do is wait and see if she responds. I hope she will and I hope she'll want to meet you. I think she'd fall in love with you." She tickled his tummy and kissed his head. "How could she not? You are the best, most handsome, sweetest baby boy on the planet. Yes you are! Why your Auntie Kara was saying so just this morning. Speaking of, she's going to be here soon. You'd better save some of your baby snuggles for her or she'll be horribly disappointed."

Alex sat with JJ and just rocked for a while, she was still heartsick over what had happened to Maggie and terribly worried about her but holding her son made even the worst day better. He gave her a sense of optimism she'd not felt since her breakup with Maggie. That optimism let her hope that Maggie would reach out to her and she would be able to help her through this terrible time.