Gone Without Out A Trace chapter 1
'I can't ignore it anymore. Not even Jake can help me now. I'm to far gone. I knew this pain would come back, but I tried to prevent it for as long as I could. He's gone and I'm never going to see him again. Why did he do this to me? How could he do this to me? He knew how much I loved him.'
The bitterness began to wash over me as I fell to my knees. I opened my eyes as the hot, angry tears flowed freely down my face, creating a little puddle on the grass. Grass? Why is their grass? I slowly lifted my head and took in my surroundings. I was in our meadow. Edwards and mine. The tears came harder now, obscuring my vision. Over my quiet sobbing, I heard a small laugh somewhere in my right. I jerked my head in that direction and searched for the source of the noise through my blurred vision. I froze as I caught a glimpse of red that seemed only a few feet away. I quickly rubbed at my eyes for a better look and sure enough, it was red hair. It was the red hair of a beautiful monster that I had seen so many times in my nightmares.
After the initial shock wore off, I realized that I wasn't as horrified as I should have been. Instead, I immediately thought of Rosalie. Victoria and Rosalie didn't look much different from each other. They were both beautiful but deadly. I sighed and looked back towards the ground, fixating on the grass in my meadow. I sat there for a minute thinking about Rosalie, which then turned my thoughts to Alice. She had left without so much as a good-bye. Not even a warning. She didn't come back, either. I began to wonder what she was doing. Does she even miss me? I mean, she went along with Edward's plan to leave me. They all did.
I was so deep in my thoughts that I didn't even notice when she took a step towards me. Nor did I see her sneering face or her eyes alight with cruel amusement.
"Where's your boyfriend?" Her tone was laced with amusement that matched her eyes. I hiccupped and shook my head while trying to block out the memories that can flooding back to me. "Aww. Poor, weak human. Did he leave you? Does he not love you anymore? Well, he mustn't if he left you here by yourself knowing that I wanted you dead. He left you know you had no chance against me, once I found you." Her tone went from mocking to a cruel snarl as she spat those words at me.
I could feel the hysteria beginning to bubble up and pointed my gaze onto my lap, trying to hide my panic. I heard her growl behind me before wrapping a fistful of my hair in her hand and jerking my head up. I whimpered from the pain as her face came into view. Her eyes still lit up with amusement. I closed my eyes to escape her gaze.
Nothing. That's what happened next. Nothing. I slowly opened my eyes to find her staring at me. She had a look on her face that I couldn't decipher. I began to feel the numbness creeping up my legs. Soon, my whole body ached from it. But, in that moment my tears has subsided and I had made a choice. I found, that I didn't care. Life wasn't worth living if it felt like this all the time. I didn't want to feel the pain ripping up my heart piece by piece, any longer. I looked her in the eyes and began to speak.
"Are you going to kill me or not?" I demanded. She looked shocked at my words. I had rendered her speechless. I felt my lips form a scowl as I opened my mouth again. "What? Did you think that I would want to live? After the love of my life left? What would you do if James told you that he didn't want you anymore? Would you want to live in this agony that I've experienced in the past few months? Huh? NO! A life without Edward is no life at all! To continue living like this would be torture!" By the time I had finished my rant, I was screaming. I had yanked my head out of her grasp and scrambled to a standing position. The tears were back. I could feel them stinging my already tight face.
Victoria's mouth dropped in shock. I had stood up to her, something she didn't think I would do. I could hear Edward's voice in my head telling me that I had just made the biggest mistake of my life, but I just shook it off. I didn't care anymore. I continued to stare her dead in the eyes, almost challenging her. Last thing I remember after seeing her cruel eyes was the small smirk that had formed on her life, then something collided with my head. Everything went black before I had even touched the ground.