My family, I love my family. I really do. But sometimes they do things that really hurt and I decided to put this up as a story because I'm sure everyone goes through these every year.
Thanksgiving, Christmas, Easter, Whatever. Special holidays where all of the family get together and pretend like nothing's ever happened. That they are all perfect and everything. Now my family knew about me being gay. And they said they accept it. But, when there are times of the holidays like Easter for instance that's coming up. I have to pretend to be something I'm not. I'm not mentioning any names in my family so I don't get sued or in trouble, but there are some people one of my aunts in the family.. I think she just tries to make everything seem like nothing is wrong. Everything is perfect. Like how I'm going to help doing multiple side jobs but one little one is working for disney cleaning up disney and everything. My aunt said to me "you know during the easter dinner i don't want you to tell my husband you're gonna be cleaning disney. Say you're going to be teaching kids how to draw or something so he doesn't think low of us." I'm like "WHAT? Why am I gonna lie?" It's like "Well you know I don't want him to know or make fun of us in our family. To put me down he always puts me down." and I'm thinking Why would you marry someone like that? and she's like When you get married you'll understand it's all about the money! I'm like "Wow, I wonder if he knows this!" I mean money is important and yeah that shouldn't be the center of your marriage. Shit...
I don't know if this happens to you on the Holidays but your family makes you pretend to be something you're not on the holidays.. They want you to be straight, they want you to pretend you have good grades, they wanna make it seem like you've never done things in your life. It's like they want you to be the perfect image of the family. Then when the holidays are over then you can be yourself. You're like Why can't I just be myself at the dinner table? Why can't I say" God, for thanksgiving I am thankful for having a welcome family and having my gay boyfriend." But they're like "OH! SHH! You can't say that at the dinner! That's inappropriate!" Yeah.. and Cheating on your wife isn't...
What the Hell..We should be allowed to be ourselves. Out of all the days of the year when the family is together Why can't we be who we are. Why hide it? From the most of people that we love. They say supposedly that they say they accept us.
You know what for all those people that don't think like that and for all my family members that just pretend to think that everything is okay and want me to be straight. You know what... Fuck you. I don't like cursing anymore but Fuck you. I'm serious I am so tired of this. For now on Easter, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, I'm gonna be myself. I'm not gonna be the perfect Joey! Cause I get Straight A's and I never took a shit in my life for all this fuck. I do everything amazing and I'm going to marry a lawyer one day! Millions of dollars.
I'm not going to do that. I'm going to be my self *** damn it.
My name is Joey. I'm a manga artist. I'm going to be cleaning Disney... AND!
I'm GAY! That's that!
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Happy Easter.
[[No matter what job you get, what you get in school or what sexuality you are... We all bleed red. Just be yourself!]]