Oh, Annie. You'll always be the little boy I knew on Tatooine.
I was wrong.
His eyes. so piercing, as if they could see right through my very soul, read my every thought. I had been told Jedi were not allowed to love, but the look in his gaze as he stared at me said otherwise. When I laughed at him, I must have taken a piece of his heart and crushed it beneath my heel. My laugh hadn't been one of contempt, but one of fear. I was afraid, am afraid, of what he does to me.
Oh, little Annie. no. I can't call you that anymore, Anakin. You are a young Jedi, full of dreams. You have your whole life to look forward to. Don't let your love for me-if I can even admit it to be love-ruin you as a man, as a Jedi. I can never understand why you chose me. But after I felt your touch, the kiss we should not have shared, I feel myself beginning to submit to you.
I can't do that. I can't let my emotions come before my duty. I am a Senator, and am not encouraged to love as Jedi are. In fact, I had never even thought about Anakin Skywalker before he walked into that door-and into my life. I had just remembered the nine-year-old who had raced his pod for our freedom. Even then, I knew something was special about him. But I couldn't admit it to myself.
Then he was assigned to accompany me to my homeworld. I feared what might happen between us, and at the same time, I was slightly pleased to finally be alone with him. At the lake. I found myself pressing my lips up against his, and for a minute everything seemed serene, peaceful. Then I broke the moment, slipping away from the comfort and the warmth that was Anakin Skywalker.
My heart is beating, hoping that kiss will not become a scar. You are in my very soul, tormenting me. What can I do? I will do anything you ask...
Anything I ask.
I can't ask what you can't give, Anakin. I have more important things to do than fall in love. Our love. it would destroy us. My love for you is a puzzle, Annie, for which I have no answers. I can't control it... and now I don't care. Now that we are husband and wife, I cannot deny the feelings I have for you.
You're not the little boy I once knew on Tatooine, Anakin.
You're much, much more.
I was wrong.
His eyes. so piercing, as if they could see right through my very soul, read my every thought. I had been told Jedi were not allowed to love, but the look in his gaze as he stared at me said otherwise. When I laughed at him, I must have taken a piece of his heart and crushed it beneath my heel. My laugh hadn't been one of contempt, but one of fear. I was afraid, am afraid, of what he does to me.
Oh, little Annie. no. I can't call you that anymore, Anakin. You are a young Jedi, full of dreams. You have your whole life to look forward to. Don't let your love for me-if I can even admit it to be love-ruin you as a man, as a Jedi. I can never understand why you chose me. But after I felt your touch, the kiss we should not have shared, I feel myself beginning to submit to you.
I can't do that. I can't let my emotions come before my duty. I am a Senator, and am not encouraged to love as Jedi are. In fact, I had never even thought about Anakin Skywalker before he walked into that door-and into my life. I had just remembered the nine-year-old who had raced his pod for our freedom. Even then, I knew something was special about him. But I couldn't admit it to myself.
Then he was assigned to accompany me to my homeworld. I feared what might happen between us, and at the same time, I was slightly pleased to finally be alone with him. At the lake. I found myself pressing my lips up against his, and for a minute everything seemed serene, peaceful. Then I broke the moment, slipping away from the comfort and the warmth that was Anakin Skywalker.
My heart is beating, hoping that kiss will not become a scar. You are in my very soul, tormenting me. What can I do? I will do anything you ask...
Anything I ask.
I can't ask what you can't give, Anakin. I have more important things to do than fall in love. Our love. it would destroy us. My love for you is a puzzle, Annie, for which I have no answers. I can't control it... and now I don't care. Now that we are husband and wife, I cannot deny the feelings I have for you.
You're not the little boy I once knew on Tatooine, Anakin.
You're much, much more.