Disclaimer: I don't own VA and probably never will.
Rose POV
They come first. It was a saying grilled into me practically since I was born. And it was getting old.
For Lissa's sake I was keeping quiet. I wanted to scream. I wanted to carry on. I wanted to go kick some ass. Preferably some Russian ass. Most of all, I wanted to cry. Cry and never come out. But as I said, I was keeping quiet.
She didn't need anything else on top of all the royal games she had to deal with. I'd be fine. Eventually. Because I always am.
I laid down in my bed and let the tears come. The always came. Every time I was alone, the tears came and fell down my cheeks until my eyes would finally dry. I was always thinking about the day he left me.
~flashback~
It was three days after the attack on the school. Things hadn't gone back to normal yet so I didn't have classes or practice. I was on my way to Dimitri's room. I was going to ask him to come spar with me.
I didn't feel the need to knock. "Hey comrade. I thought we could…" I'd looked down on the bed and found him… with Tasha. And when I say with I mean with.
He got up and his gorgeous naked body distracted me. Only for about three seconds though. My anger burned through any desire I had at the moment. I stormed out of the room. Tears were already trying to flow. I pushed them back. I couldn't let him see me cry.
Dimitri put his hand on my shoulder and turned me around to face him. He was wearing a pair of pajama bottoms. "Don't touch me." I meant to shout it, but it came out like a whisper.
He didn't remove his hand. "Rose, we knew this wouldn't work out. It was just fun until you graduate."
"You knew! I didn't! You promised you'd stay! You came up with a plan so we could be together!"
"Roza. As I said, it was just fun. I took Tasha's offer and I'm leaving in about three hours."
I blinked back tears from my eyes. "Don't call me Roza! You don't have that right anymore." I let the tears finally come as I ran away from his room.
My room wasn't much better. There were pictures of Dimitri everywhere. All the reminders made me want to cry some more. I ran to Adrian's room. When he opened the door I jumped right into his arms and sobbed.
~end of flashback~
It's been two months since then. Every day's been hell. But at least it's been better than that first week.
Suddenly I didn't feel very good. I tried to make it to the trashcan but ended up puking on the floor. Again. This was like the fifty billionth time I'd puked this month.
I grabbed a towel and tried to clean it up. But the smell made me just puke again. I gaveup on trying to clean it. I went to the bathroom down the hall to wash my mouth out and call Adrian. Did I mention we were dating?
He picked up on the third ring. "What do you need little dhampir?"
"A maid, a cook, thirty trillion dollars. But since I can't have that, I need someone to come and clean something up."
"Puke again?"
"Maybe"
"I'll be there in a minute." Somehow Adrian had gotted a maid. He really couldn't do any cleaning or anything so he got one. By default she cleaned up my puke. I felt sorry for her. But I tried to to do it myself and it just made it worse.
I walked toward my room and waited outside the door until Adrian came. I was sitting on the floor with my eyes closed when someone picked me up. I opened my eyes and saw Adrian's face. He looked down at me worried. I smiled and closed my eyes. The rocking motion was making it easy to fall asleep. But he put me down and made me walk. Haha. Weakling.
Adrian's room in the guest housing wasn't far from my dorm. When we got there I went straight to his bed and laid down. I closed my eyes and started to fall asleep. About five minutes later, I felt him get in bed beside me. He ws only in his boxers and a t-shirt. I figured he'd ask about sex. God knows he'd asked many times before. But he didn't and I quickly fell asleep.
_Well that was chapter 1. This is my first fanfic so please be nice. Review please! ^-^