Hi :) This is my first publish to the site, I hope it's okay! I wrote this quite a while ago (just after this episode aired actually - so a long time ago!) I was a lot younger, but it's one of my better stories. Hope you enjoy! xx
The words moved around me, swirling in front of my eyes. How had I got here? 2 months ago I was fine. Now look at me. The world a constant blur, my work – gone, my marriage – ended, my life – over. Or it would be soon. The moments went so fast I felt I was wasting time. We had laughed and joked all evening. We'd had fun, just like we used to – dancing, eating, joking, and recalling the memories… the thing is, neither of them knew why I'd bought them here. 'The New Me' – that's what everyone was talking about. New, I'd hardly call it. I'm ill! I can't be cured. I'm a bundle, a burden on everyone's lives.
I remember the moment; being struck down by lightning… that's how the song goes isn't it? Well I do. The moment I met my gorgeous husband and my best friend. Okay so we weren't thinking that far ahead yet, but we had so much fun at college. We went on holidays together, enjoying ourselves immensely, not even dreaming of our futures together. 20 years on and here we are. My best friend has 2 kids and my husband. You'd think I'd have blocked her out the moment I found out about them wouldn't you? I'm pleased to be honest. They're happy together. That is all that matters. After all, that was the reason I bought them here. The last thing I promised myself I would do was to get them back together again. It wasn't fair that they were arguing. I needed to know they would be happy together before I leave.
It's time now, I know it is. 1-2-3-4… I take the tablets one by one. After every few taking a swig of vodka. 9-10-11-12… The moments of my life flash before me. The happy times in college, my marriage, my break-up, doctor's appointments, and my job and… being diagnosed. 18-19-20-21… last few now. Slowly I push all the happy memories to the back of my mind. I have to remember why I am doing this. If I keep them there I will just remember years back. Bringing the bad memories to the front and… 30-31-32-33… all gone. Every single one and now… I wait.
Everything is becoming more unrealistic, my mind is closing in on itself. But there is still time… still a few more moments in my life to remember. I was talented. Everyone had said that. They knew I could go far in life. They were all there to support me but now… I can faintly hear someone running up the stairs… I'm sure they'll do fine without me…
"Lorna! Lorna! Tom call an ambulance. Stay with me Lorna come on. Stay with me darlin'…"
Lorna Dickey, this is your life. Tragic isn't it…
Goodnight and Thank You.
Obviously the characters belong to the BBC.
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