Dream a Little Dream

By: Goingthroughchanges

A/N

So this is me goingthroughchanges:D i don't own man unfortunately im not that ingeniousXD but this is centered around Lavi and Allen so please enjoy. Oh and btw it is Yaoi if you guys don't know...but please comment and enjoy:) :)

Part One

His last outtake of breath hung in the balance for several precious seconds before disappearing into the clouded grey sky. He watched it go with eyes that flickered with laughter and a hint of remorse. I wondered why he looked so sad. He was so beautiful with his flaming orange hair and a crooked smile that made you think you were in on an inside joke. Even his eye patch was something that only added to his character. Lavi, was by far the greatest guy I had ever known. He suddenly turned to me his lips drawn up into a playful smile.

"Hey Allen race you home."

Before I could even respond he was off running, howling and jumping up to the point his fingers nearly touched the sky.

"Hey! No fair!" I cried as I took off after him.

He only turned to laugh and the sound spiraled delightfully to the heavens where God was able to hear the beautiful music. I wanted it all for myself, because what was more special then hearing Lavi's laughter crash through your brain. But…when I looked up all I could see was Lavi's back racing away from me and I couldn't help but wonder…if I would ever catch up.

I finally reached home out of breath and ready to pass out on the floor from exhaustion.

"Allen come on get out of the way you're blocking the doorway." Lavi said.

He smacked me playfully on the head before jogging to the kitchen. He of course dumped his school bag wherever he pleased and his shoes were kicked off at opposite sides of the room. I inwardly groaned; it was only the beginning of the cleanup I would have to partake in.

"I'll make some food okay Allen?" Lavi called amid the sound of pans dropping, and dishes clattering.

"Okay." I called back.

I looked around the small foyer of our home and set my school bag down next to the door before going over to pick up Lavi's discarded school bag. I carefully picked it up and with a small smile and dusted off the corners. I examined my work then placed it next to mine at the door.

"WOAH!" Lavi cried.

The exclamation of his surprise was soon followed by the exploding sound of pots and pans. I quickly ran to the kitchen to find a pan on Lavi's head and flour was strewn across the floor like a thin layer of snow. I couldn't hold back the laughter that bubbled in my throat and exploded into the air. Lavi scowled and lifted the pan so he could see my face.

"It's not funny." He mumbled pouting cutely.

"Your right sorry, sorry." I said as I leaned down to help him off the floor.

However I still couldn't stop the laughter that was insistent on being known. Lavi scowled again and turned away from my laughter.

"Oh come on Lavi you have to admit it is funny." I said trying to coax at least a smile out of him.

He remained turned away from me and soon my laughter died on my lips. All that filled the room now was silence.

"Lavi?" I asked tentatively.

I reached out my hand to touch his shoulder but what ended up happening was something I didn't expect. I ended up on the floor amidst the pile of flour. Lavi had successfully turned around and tackled me to the ground getting my school uniform caked with the white flour. He smiled down at me in his usual joking manner and said "Gotcha."

I pouted as I tried to push Lavi off me but he didn't budge.

"Get off me you're heavy!" I whined hitting at his hands that were keeping me trapped where I was.

Lavi's once playful expression suddenly turned serious and his green eyes captivated me with their intensity. He leaned closer until I could feel his warmth breath brush my skin, then closer still until I could almost feel the softness of his lips. I closed my eyes awaiting the angel soft touch that would come next. It never came and when I slowly opened my eyes again Lavi was across the room his face in his hands.

"Lavi?" I whispered.

I felt a pain in my chest when he didn't answer and even more so when he looked at me with pained eyes.

"I should clean this up…Allen you should probably change your clothes." He said.

Without another word he walked out of the room leaving me alone in the artificial snow. The only reminder of what took place his imprints on the floor.

Lavi sat across from me his eyes never leaving the book he was reading. I was supposed to be working on my homework but I couldn't bring myself to concentrate. Images of what happened earlier made it impossible to think about anything other than the warmth of Lavi's breath and the close proximity we shared for those electrifying few moments. Those few moments that I wished had been prolonged for days; possibly even centuries. However the possibility that it was a mistake was too much to ignore. It was possible Lavi was just playing around and what meant something to me meant absolutely nothing to him. Lavi suddenly looked up and met my gaze with puzzled eyes.

"Do you need something Allen?" He asked.

I started and quickly shook my head while waving my arms frantically. Lavi smiled and slowly closed his book.

"Are you sure there is nothing?" He asked.

His smile was intoxicating and his eyes held an inkling of the intensity that I had seen moments before.

"I-I-I…I just wanted to know…" I stopped, twiddling with my fingers before beginning again. "I was just wondering about before…" My sentence trailed off and I peeked up at Lavi to read his expression and immediately wished I hadn't. His expression was blank and his fingers curled around his closed book until they turned white. I gulped and quickly stood. I grabbed all my books and pencils and ran to the stairs.

At the top I called down "Just forget I mentioned it Lavi."

I ran into my room and shut the door. His expression had destroyed any confidence I had in our shared moment actually being something more than an illusion of interest. I wished it was something more but I couldn't bring myself to believe that anymore. I sunk to the floor and buried my head in my hands. Tears trickled through the cracks in my fingers and sobs shook my back. If I had known it would hurt this much to love Lavi I wouldn't have fallen for him in the first place.

Morning sunlight flittered through my curtains alerting me to yet another new day. I slowly opened my eyes and rubbed them sleepily before stretching.

"Morning already." I mumbled to myself.

"Allen! Hurry up we are going to be late!" Lavi called up the stairs.

His voice startled me and the memories of last night assaulted me with harsh emotions. I gripped my chest and doubled over my knees in attempts to hold in the pain.

"Allen!" Lavi called again sending another sharp bout of pain.

"Allen! Allen!"

"STOP!" I suddenly screamed startling myself and silencing Lavi.

Nothing could be heard for several moments other than my harsh breathing then Lavi's heavy footsteps could be heard coming up the stairs. He burst through the door his face set in an expression of anger.

"What's wrong with you Allen?" He hissed.

I didn't dare look at him and instead buried my face into my knees.

"Just leave me alone Lavi." I whispered.

"No! Why would I leave you when you're obviously in so much pain?!" He yelled.

He ran to my side and put his arms around my hunched frame.

"Allen tell me what's wrong." He whispered into my hair.

I couldn't take it, his warm breath on my hair, his strong arms wrapped around me. I couldn't take it anymore.

"JUST LEAVE!" I shouted pushing him away from me.

He stared at me his eyes wide with shock.

"Allen…what's wrong?" He said his voice wavering.

I shook my head vigorously as I felt the tears roll down my cheeks in rapid torrents.

"I can't take this anymore! Lavi I love you! That's what is wrong with me! I love you so much I can't take it!" I shouted and the tears still came.

Lavi stared at me his mouth opening and closing as words formed in his heart and his mind discarded them. Finally he just got up and left closing the door silently behind him. I didn't know what I expected but I did not expect him to leave and the tears still came. Down my cheeks staining my skin and tearing my soul.

I stared up at the house that I had been living in with Lavi for as long as I could remember and gave a tired sigh. It was time that I left and found my own way in life. Loving Lavi was too much and I didn't think I could survive another day with him without breaking. I left a note…hoping he would somehow understand. And if he couldn't understand I hoped he would let me go and not look for me at least because I knew if he found me and asked for me to come back I would go.

"Bye Lavi." I whispered.

As I walked away my farewell danced upon the night breeze then…faded into nothing.

A/N

it's me goingthroughchanges for all of you who are new to me i write mostly naruto fan fiction so this is my first time branching out so be kind to me hahaXD and all of you who have read my other stories and know that i have Naruto fan fiction i have not finished writing i apologize! i am in the process of writing the next chapter i actually just got out of a writers block:o i know i hate those and they hit me quite frequently so please be patient with me:3 anywho i hope you guys liked this chapter and i hope you guys comment because that would mean so much to me since i don't get many hahaXD but yeah please comment and i will thank you and i will reply as well:D so yeah that would be great! anywho i hope to hear from you guys soon:D 'till next time;)

~goingthroughchanges