Authors note: I do not own anything from the Vampire Diaries at all. This is my first fanfic, so tell me what you think. Next chapter should be up shortly.
Chapter One:
Elena hung on to every word Damon said. "Please, no more".
"Elena, what happened last night, it was the best night in my existence. But for you, I suppose it isn't real." he whispered not able to meet her eyes.
Elena turned away holding back her sob. She wasn't sired to Damon. She couldn't be, it wasn't possible. Her feelings for him there real. She knows it. "So are you telling me when I was a human, my love for you was SIRED to?"
"Elena, what you feel for me, is only heightened by the sire bond. Because my blood turned you.. we're connected in some weird freaky vampire way". he added with a fake half smile.
"It was real for me!" She cried turning around. Damon froze with mock horror. "Why are you so blind? I know it's real Damon, I feel it. Every bone in my body screams for you. I love you Damon. It's you, it's always been you. I was just to blind and shallow minded. I know what I have for you is real."
"Elena, I'm sorry. " He chocked out taking her hand. She ripped her hand away. "Don't be".
"Elena, we're going to fix this okay? When we find out how to break the bond, we can work on us. I want to know what you feel is real."
"Fix the bond or fix me?" Elena snapped glaring at Damon.
"Elena .. I didn't mean it that way..Please".
"No Damon. I get it. Fix me. The same thing Stefan said. Everyone wants to fix me. What if I don't want to be fixed? What if I'm happy the way I am? But sure go ahead and FIX me because you know thats what everyone thinks they should do".
"Elena.."
"No Damon." She cried cutting him off. "The one moment, I found happiness in my new vampire life. The one moment I actually enjoy what I am, everyone thinks I'm different. That I need to be saved. That I'm a monster." she spat out.
"Elena you know your not a monster."
"My own brother tried to kill me Damon."
"Elena, he loves you.."
"Just leave" She snapped cutting him off.
"What? Elena?"
"LEAVE!" She screamed throwing him against her bedroom wall.
Her face was full on vampire as Damon sat up. "Leave" She whispered through her fangs.
They wanted a monster she could be one. In a flash Damon was gone, and she could hear her front door slam behind downstairs. She felt her face go back to normal as she sat on her bed.
They didn't need her anymore. Her friends, her brother. She knew with her new vampire emotions, that she would feel this way. But the guilt, it was consuming her. She caused them all this pain, all this hurt. Everyone around her walks on egg shells around her thinking she would randomly explode one day.
They wanted to fix her. Jeremy wanted to kill her. Maybe they were right. The Elena they once knew died on that bridge. All she knew was that she needed to find herself, she needed to feel alive once more. Staying here, in the town where everyone thought something was wrong with her seemed like the wrong place to start. The memories, of when she was alive and breathing surrounded her in her nightmares every night. Staying here in this town wasn't good for anyone. Where would she go though? Who would be there to help her through everything? Everyone she knew wanted to fix her, not help her. All she could think about was the one person, who in her human life who respected her. Treated her like she was equal and could handle her own.