Starting from page 529 of Eclipse when Bella is kissing Jacob before the fight and sees a life she could have with him.

Losing Control

Bella's POV

I saw the bobbing heads of two small, black haired children, running away from me into a familiar forest. At that moment, a small sound touched my weak ears, silencing the accusing voices, along with cutting through the vision.

It sounded like gagging, or rather the choking back of sobs. Jacob stiffened in my arms. I should have known exactly what it, or who, had made the sound, but my mind refused to absorb anything. I pulled away, mechanically turning in the direction of the noise. My eyes caught sight of Edward slowly turning away from me, crouching, ready to sprint.

"Edward wait!" I begged. He froze. After a few agonizing seconds, he straightened out of his crouch, only to hunch his shoulders and hang is head. I took a step forward; Jacob didn't try to stop me.

Edward's POV

I didn't turn around. I just stood there, staring at my feet. Numbness had engulfed me as soon as I had stifled the sobs.

"Bella, its fine, I understand, you've made your decision." The words were forced.

"But…..it's…I'm…." she stumbled over her worlds. "I'm sorry Edward!" I still hadn't turned to meet the beautiful, loving brown eyes that called to my very being, so I cringed at her raised voice. I could hear her approaching me, only now she was the one sobbing.

My back still turned "Bella stop. Don't be upset. It will be fine. I won't stand in your way. I want nothing more than for you to be happy. I….." I squeezed my eyes shut as a sigh escaped my lungs. I love you. I desperately wanted to tell her exactly how much I loved her. "I wish you the best of luck."

"Edward," she whispered. "I need you, I love you."

I couldn't help myself. The pain in her voice tore at my chest and I turn slightly, a reflex to comfort her. I felt her warm, un-bandaged hand wrap around my cold wrist. Up until that point Jacob had been standing there with a blank expression on his face. He had been reciting something in the Quileute language. And Seth had been blocking him out completely. I had no idea of what Jacob was thinking, or trying not to think. But, as soon as Bella's skin made contact with my own, Jacob faltered.

He was imaging a different life: he imagined Bella in a white, laced wedding gown, walking towards him, her lovely blush creeping to her cheeks. He saw himself in his wolf form standing in front of her: her protector. He saw his arms holding her tight, comforting her. He saw Charlie and Renée mixed with his Quileute family. And last, he saw two black haired children running down the beach away for him and their loving mother.

Something began to stir in me. I couldn't tell what it was. I kept trying to put a name to it but my mind was coming up short. For the first time in all my years I began to feel true heat. My skin began to burn and my vision began to turn red.

It wasn't fair. He should not be the one to protect her and hold her in his arms. His family shouldn't be the ones to be tied with hers. And the children, the two beautiful children, their hair should have been a dark copper instead of jet black, their eyes green instead of dark brown. They should have been running from me, their loving father. Their adoring mother's hand clutching mine.

I could feel the tears filling my eyes, refusing to spill over.

"Edward" Her voice was now far away, quieter than before.

I no longer wanted to feel her touch. She wasn't mine and I felt wretched for ever having involved myself with her. None of this would have happened. Neither of us would be hurting right now if I had just left her alone. I gently slipped my wrist out of her grasp.

This time she grabbed at my forearm both hands. Probably using all of her might. I spun around to face her

"NO!" I roared. My arms leaving my side, ripping out of her clutches and extending towards her. I saw nothing but blurs of red.

And then, she was on the ground. I stared down at her, uncomprehending. She staring back at me. Her eyes filled with tears of shock and pain.

Bella's POV

"NO!" He roared. And then, I was on the ground. Pain shooting up my already injured arm.

He had shoved me away.

He hadn't used all of his strength, or else I probably would have been dead. But, He had still used his strength against me. He had intentionally hurt me.

I heard Jacob's growl build into a roar of pure fury and pain. It was unlike anything I had ever heard before. Out of the corner of my eye I could see he was still in his human form, but the sound escaping his lips was that of an animal.

I couldn't think. All I could do was stare up at him from the wet ground. His eyes were pitch black and filled with hate and torment. And also unshed tears.

Edward's POV

I stood there in shock, loathing myself. I couldn't seem to move. I managed to choke out her name. That seemed to bring her out of her own shock. She looked down at her arm and collapsed. She curled into a ball, shutting her eyes and lips as tight as they would go. A very loud noise rang right in my ears but I couldn't make sense of it.

I reached out to her, unsure of what to do.

"Bella I….."

"BELLA! DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH HER YOU MONSTER!" I ignored Jacob and leaned closer to Bella. In a blur of motion Jacob was crouching in front of her, angled so he could wrap an arm around her and block me from her at the same time.

"I said, Do. Not. Touch her. Leave now. Don't come back you filthy leech. Or I will kill you."

I shifted my weight so that I could see around Jacob, see Bella's face. "Bella" was all I managed to say. What seemed like a life time of pure torture passed in just a few moments.

"Just leave, please." She whimpered. She didn't look up. Jacob's form was now shaking uncontrollably. His eyes burned with pure fury.

I told myself I had to leave before he exploded into a wolf and injured Bella, but that was just a numbing device. I turned and stumbled into the forest, wishing that darkness would engulf me. I began to run.

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