I always thought she was the one…

Driving up the I-5 going well above the speed limit was Dr. Arizona Robbins. It was a gorgeous, unusually warm September day in Washington so she decided to drop the top down of her Mustang GT. Flo Rider's "Good Feeling" started to play on the station she was listening to so she turned up the volume. For some reason, this song hit home with her, she did have a really good feeling about this big move in her life. She began to sing along loudly even though her ex said it was one of her most annoying traits. "Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, sometimes I get a good feeling, yeah I get a feeling that I never never, never had before, no no I get a good feeling, yeah" she blared at the top of her lungs. "F U, Joanna" she thought to herself. She felt pathetic thinking to herself that she couldn't even swear in her head. She made it a point not to use bad language because of her profession as a Pediatric Surgeon.

However, today was a fresh start for her. She would start her new job as Head of the Pediatrics department of Seattle Grace Mercy West Hospital in just 3 days time. It was a step down from her old position as chief of surgery at Cedars-Sinai in Los Angeles, but she needed to get the hell out of LA and fast. Her friend Teddy Altman was head of the Cardio department at SGMW hospital and had told her of the job opportunity just a week ago. She had flown up to Seattle just 4 days ago for what she thought was an interview, needless to say it was odd since basically she walked into the Chief Richard Webber's office and he had a contract all ready made up for her, just requiring her signature.

She was excited to work with kids again though, get back to the reason she became a surgeon in the first place. Being chief was all paper work and not enough cutting for her taste. She had only agreed to take the promotion in LA because her ex complained that she was never home enough. "So ironic" she thought, considering the events that lead her to this point in her life.

Upon exiting the freeway, she turned left onto Mercer Street. Minutes later, she drove past the Space Needle and her new home away from home, Seattle Grace Mercy West Hospital. She made a right onto 3rd Avenue, were her new apartment was located just a ten minute walk from the hospital.

She grabbed her two suitcases from the trunk and hoped on the elevator pressing the 'four' button. She made it to apartment 402 and slipped the key in and entered the apartment. Thank goodness she had decided to rent a furnished apartment she thought. Moving all her stuff from LA was something she did not want deal with, along with her ex. Her best friend Kristyn, offered to help her, by going to the apartment she had shared with Joanna and gathered all of her personal belongings and clothes for her. She really didn't care about all the furniture and other stuff she left behind. She wanted to start fresh.

After unpacking some of her things, she decided to get some takeout from the Chinese restaurant just down the street. She pulled up a chair to the window and ate silently as she looked outside at what was now her new home. Exhausted from the car ride and unpacking, she went to bed earlier than usual. Unfortunately her mind could not rest and she recalled the events that lead her here.

I wanted to surprise her. She was upset with me because I told her I could not get her birthday off. I had only half lied to her. I had to go to a staff meeting that morning to make sure everything was in order for my time off. Joanna and I were getting married in just 14 days and then it was off to Costa Rica for two weeks for our honeymoon. I was on cloud 9. I was finally able to marry the woman of my dreams! We had been dating for just 3 months when I popped the question. I knew it I was moving too fast, but heck why wait for happiness. I had picked up some flowers on the way home for her. I got off the elevator on our floor and heard Elton John's "Benny and the Jets" coming from our apartment. I thought it was odd considering Joanna hated Elton John. I opened the door and looked for Joanna. The music was coming from the bedroom so I headed there. Stepping over some clothes on the floor, I stopped at the door and froze when I heard moans coming from behind it. I knew before I opened it what I was about to see. I pushed it open still. There was Joanna naked straddling Rick, her ex-boyfriend. They saw me and immediately separated, Rick trying to cover himself up and Joanna asking what I was doing home so early. I just threw the flowers at her and said "Happy F-ing Birthday" and ran. I went back to the hospital and locked myself in my office and started to cry. I woke up the next morning on the couch in my office and looked down at my phone and saw 3 new messages from Joanna. I played them. "Arizona please talk to me…I have an explanation." Delete. "Arizona…don't make me do this over the phone, talk to me." Delete. "Fine, here it goes, I was going to end it with you before the wedding. I have been sleeping with Rick for the last month. Sex with him has made me realize that, well; I'm not really a lesbian. You were such a good friend to me when Rick broke up with me and I knew you liked me so when you made a pass, I just went with it because I wanted to try something different, you know. I was just going through the motions with you. It was fun and exciting at first, but I just didn't want to hurt you. But, I did and I'm sorry and…" I hit the delete button before hearing the rest of her message. I scrolled through my phone and saw Teddy's number and called it.

Never, ever, ever would I go near a 'newborn' I thought to myself….