AN: This is my first fanfiction so... Oh also I own nothing but the plot. Stephanie Meyer has everything else. Also Pink owns her song. ^^

I'll be the first person to admit this I'm not the type of girl you'd want to bring home to mom. I've been drinking and smoking various things since I was at least ten years old… Young isn't it? You want to know the reason why I started all that shit? You won't find out for a while or, maybe you never will. But anyway, my name is Isabella Swan but I prefer Bella…Isabella sounds so old. I just recently turned eighteen and I live in Forks, Washington with my biological father, Charlie-who's the police chief of this hick town. I guess life is supposed to be better here, though, I honestly don't think it is. Back in Phoenix I...You know what...Never mind. Let's just say I moved to Forks because of...Differences...with my mother and her new husband. I'll admit though life has been changing ever since I met him - He's this tall maybe around 6' 3" broad shoulders guy with more muscles than should be allowed. He's got this dark curly hair that he keeps cut short and bright golden eyes on his gorgeous face. The only reason I know this is because for one its hard to NOT look at him…and plus I sit next to him in Biology. Though I guess I should back up and start my story to when I actually met this god of a man.

First day of School - Biology

"Hey Arizona. How you likin' the rain girl?" I couldn't help but let out a little giggle and shaking my head as Mike Newton flipped his hat towards me in an attempt to get me even wetter than I already was. After our little scene, I turned around to face the class tucking some of my hair behind my ear so it would blow to wildly in the fan as I handed the teacher my new student slip. It was then that I saw him. He was sitting beside the window, looking as if someone had just stabbed him with his rigid posture and the strained look on his face. He oddly reminded me of a bear once I got a better look at him. I got my book from our biology teacher and sat down next to the bear man after being instructed to. After our teacher handed us our equipment for our lab and instructed us to arrange them in the correct order from Interphase through Prophase. I frowned quietly watched every muscle in his arm when he pushed the small glass and microscope towards me after looking in briefly himself. 'Guess he isn't much of a talker.' I thought to myself going through the class, finishing the experiment in good time, and taking notes when that was over. A second before the bell rang, the bear like man was already out the door and gone as if the building was on fire.

I started to walk to my ancient beaten up red truck listening to my iPod. Earlier this evening during lunch Jessica Stanley – an annoyingly preppy girl who used 'like' to fucking much in my opinion- had told me who all of the Cullen kids were at lunch. I had sat there at the table my eyes never leaving the group but my thoughts where only centered on the bear of a man. Emmett Cullen was apparently his name and Jessica said he was the joker out of the group of siblings. 'Maybe that's a good thing. The rest of them look so serious or bitchy. Well...except for Alice.' I thought about the pixie like woman causing me to smiling without meaning to. I jumped when the object of my thoughts popped up next to me seemingly out of nowhere. "Hey. Your Isabella Swan right? I'm Alice. I wanted to come invite you to eat with us tomorrow at lunch." She said her voice sounding like wind chimes as she spoke.

I blinked dumbly looking at the nearly vibrating Pixie and nodded dumbly only managing out a "Bella." In regards to my name.

"Great. You know where we sit. I'll be waiting" She said eagerly bounced away to Edward holding his arm smiling in both of hers. I noticed that almost all of the other Cullens looked ticked off at the pixie though I think she could probably care less.

I shrugged getting into my truck listening to the pink song that blasted through my headphones drowning out the groans of protest my truck let out. "Keep your dreams just give me the money! It's just you and your hand tonight" I sang along to the song on the way home at a slugs pace due to my ancient trucks lack of speed. Once I pulled up I saw that Charlie's police car wasn't there yet and for that I was kind of glade. Forgoing my umbrella I ran inside of the house and magically didn't slip on the pavement or the stairs and add something else to my long list of injuries and inside of my room lying on the bed quietly. My thoughts were centered around the two beautiful Cullens and how they might prove to be good fri-

"Bella. You can't keep doing this to yourself. You know better then to make friends. James will find out and hurt them. Is that what you want?" I mumbled talking to myself effectively cutting my thought short. Sighing dejectedly I closed my eyes my dreams quickly turning into a nightmare I've had for months on end.

Inside of an abandoned warehouse in Phoenix Arizona close to the suburbs where I lived, a man with long blonde hair and a livid look in his bright blue eyes. I was frightened like a dear in the headlights as I gazed at him. My back was pressed against the uncomfortable wall of the warehouse tears streaming down my face as he walked closer to me. "Stupid fucking Bella. You think that I didn't know you were fucking this idiot?" James sneered out angrily as he pulled a young teenaged boy closer towards me In-between both of us.

I recognized the guy as my friend I had been hanging out with a lot in the past few weeks. I nearly collapsed as I took in the sight of him. His eyes where blood shot and he had grime all over his face probably from being drug across the dirty warehouse floor so much by James. His clothes where nearly torn to shreds and he was bleeding badly from a wound on his chest and had various bruises forming around his chest legs and face where James had struck him repeatedly the butt of the gun he held close to my friends head. "I wasn't James! He's just a friend! Please let him go!" I cried out as his evil eyes narrowed at me.

"Friend? Heh, you don't have friends you fucking slut..." James said angrily tossing my roughly to the side and pointed the guns straight at the boys chest." Remember Isabella…. If I can't have you then no one can" He shouted at me a crazed look in his eye. All I could do was scream and shake as he pulled the trigger to the gun and shot my friend repeatedly in his head causing his blood to splatter out on me. I continued to scream loudly holding myself and shaking whimpering at the sight of the body.

James smiled sadistically and came closer to me "your fucking mine understand bitch?" He put the gun to my left shoulder and shot me smirking watching my blood poor out of me and then kissed my lips possessively and all I could do was cry and try to move away despite the pain. After only a bit more struggling I became dizzy and light headed and passed out his evil laughter echoing in my head.

I barely muffled my scream opening my eyes my breathing was labored. "Its okay, Bella calm down. He's not here he's gone." I mumbled to myself getting up and grabbed a bag, a lighter, and some paper and sneaked past Charlie's room. Quietly I went to Charlie's liquor cabinet opening it and getting out some vodka. I silently debated on how to drink it before I just grumbled deciding to do it straight and went outside. Quickly I rolled up the weed like the expert I was and lit it up taking a long drag and held in the smoke for a while before letting it out with a sigh. After reducing the blunt to about half its original size I open the vodka bottle and look at it "Bottoms up…" I mumble to myself and drank straight from the bottle not even feeling the burning sensation of it anymore. I continued doing this and smoking my blunt until I was had passed out with the burnt out end of my blunt in my hand and the bottle of vodka in my lap.

A/N: Please Review? Thank My beta reader for this new and better chapter lol. Love you babe ^^