A/N: I know I had said that this story's timeline was in episode 13 of season 1, but I changed my mind! Thinking it out, I could have more fun playing with Marcus in this story and the triangle on him, Blair and Chuck than a triangle of Nate, Blair and Chuck. So this story will be set in the current timeline of season 2. I'm going to say that in episode 3, The Dark Night, that instead of just making out with Chuck, Blair actually has sex with him. But Marcus doesn't catch them together. And in the show, I don't think Blair and Marcus have had sex yet, but I'm going to say they have for the sake of the story.
I hope I don't lose any readers with this decision! I know this new idea will make the story move better, and it will be a lot more interesting in the end.
For those who picked up on it already, this story is going to be very dark. I've read a lot of stories where Chuck gets Blair pregnant and Blair is almost happy to be pregnant, and Chuck immediately adapts well to the idea of being a teenage father. And while those are nice, cute and adorable stories to read, I felt like there was a need for a dark one. One where all Blair's demons come out, and she wants absolutely nothing to do with the baby/pregnancy. She fears it so much that it brings out the darkest side of Blair that no one has ever seen, not even Serena.
Disclaimer: I do not own Gossip girl or any characters, all owned by the CW.
Oh, also, anything in italics are characters thoughts
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CHAPTER 1: I Command Myself to not be Pregnant
"B just take the test. You need to know if you and Chuck are going to have a baby."
The words Serena uttered were not the ones Blair Waldorf wanted to hear. Blair's little game of pretending things didn't exist or weren't happening worked well for her, and as far as she was concerned, she was perfect. Her relationship with Nate was perfect, she had never had sex with Chuck, and Serena had never left. Well, she could pretend…at least.
Oh please. I am not pregnant. I'm not. I swear if I'm carrying the spawn of Chuck Bass...no, I'm not. Why am I even thinking this? I AM NOT PREGNANT
Blair shoved the test in her bag and turned around to her group of friends awaiting her on the steps, smiling as if nothing out of the ordinary was crossing her mind.
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As Nate begged Blair to come visit his dad with him at the rehab center, she couldn't shake the thought of actually being pregnant.
Everything Nate Archibald was saying never quite made it to Blair's ears as soon as she noticed Chuck Bass lurking around the corner blowing out puffs of smoke from his mouth and looking some poor innocent blonde freshman up and down. B rolled her eyes, and Chuck noticed she was looking his way. The slightest appearance of smile slid across his face, but quickly disappeared before B could have any reaction.
"So," Nate began, cutting in on her thoughts. "Will you come or not? It's okay if you say no."
"I um, I'll text you and let you know, k baby," Blair quickly said, kissing Nate and hurrying away.
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As soon as she was away from Nate she was on her bright orange enV texting S to immediately come over after school.
When Blair walked through her front door she tried to start playing her game again. Serena put it on pause when she shook one of the 3 different tests she brought in front of Blair's face.
"Ugh get that out of here, Serena!" Blair huffed, slightly giggling, and still partially in her little game world.
"You know B you can't ignore this. I'm not trying to sound like a pushy school counselor or something but you need to get into reality about-"
Serena was cut off by B's immediate defended response.
"I am not, not, not pregnant! I'm stressed. That's all Serena. Pregnant teenagers are girls that shop at Hot Topic and have pick plastic cell phone cases for their Razors with gross little sparkly hearts. They're trashy and Myspace whores and…not Blair Waldorf."
B began to walk up the beautiful spiraled staircase in her penthouse, and Serena stayed planted down at the bottom, unsure of how to react to her best friends continuing denial.
This is so typical Blair!
"B please don't ignore this. If you are pregnant you have choices. And the sooner you find out the more options you have. You know," Serena questioned, tying her blonde waves back into a ponytail and seeing Blair's confused facial expression.
"I'm Blair Waldorf. I will never be pregnant unless it's planned. I am perfect and I always have been, and I don't plan on that changing."
"I know you're not a fan of hearing this B, and it will probably go in one ear and out the other…because I can tell that's how everything is going through your head right now, but mistakes can happen to anyone. Even perfect little you."
"God S it sounds like you want me to be pregnant. What's wrong with you," Blair screeched, looking completely horrified.
I command myself to not be pregnant. Chuck sleezy disgusting piggish Bass did so not knock me up! Ugh just the thought…
"No B of course I don't want you to be pregnant. And the fact that it would be Chuck's makes it ten times worse."
There were a few moments of…awkward silence between B and S, soon broken by Serena, who made a point of doing so, despite her best friends stubborn attempts to push away the subject that was on both their minds.
"Do you want me to stay, B?"
For just a second, it looked like Blair Waldorf was showing something no one knew she had…fear. But because it is the perfect flawless B, that was quickly erased and covered with her quick wit and snappy remarks.
"Well duh! I want you to see the negative results! And then we can go for celebratory drinks of course."
Serena laughed, and they both headed upstairs. After 5 long minutes, the only thing that could be heard throughout the lavish Waldorf residence were B's shrieking cries.
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A/N: I know this chapter was very short, but I promise they will only get way longer and more exciting, this was just a chapter to introduce the story! Please review, thanks!