I'm Eliza Cullen and I'm a vampire.

Yes, we do exist but you see, my family and I are different; we don't drink human blood being the reason as to why our eye color is different, bright gold eyes, opposite as the vampires who drink human blood, red eyes.

I'm one of the two members of my family that still doesn't get used to this diet, the other one is my brother Jasper. We aren't blood related, he was turned at least twenty years later than me, he's younger and even if we aren't blood related we still treat each other as family, we all were changed in different times.

The one who started our family is Carlisle, the leader of our coven which we don't call coven but family, I don't know exactly his age but that he's older than all of us. He changed almost everyone in this family by Carlisle, my brother Edward, our mother Esme, my sister Rosalie and my brother Emmett.

Carlisle started his family with Edward changing him first in 1918 in Chicago because he was dying from the Spanish influenza. He realized later Edward's telepathic abilities when he started answering his questions when he had not said them out loud.

Then in 1921, Edward gained a mother, Esme when Carlisle changed her into a vampire to save her life after her suicide attempt. They both were the first members of Carlisle's clan but for him it wasn't a clan but a family

A year later, in 1922 I joined their family when Carlisle offered me his help, I had four months of being vampire calling myself a newborn and I had no control of my thirst and gift as much would call it. I used to kill a lot of people but then regretted it and was not able to control myself not having no one to teach me. The man who changed me left me to deal with the consequences of the change alone but the positive about that was that he never found out about my gift.

When Carlisle found me he promised me to help me control my thirst and gift but only after seeing the pain in my eyes after what I did. He offered me a home and a family as I couldn't remember mine. I was hesitant but he always showed me those kind eyes of his. He convinced me to became a Cullen, much to dismay of Edward and Esme.

Having and newborn without control of her thirst and abilities wasn't something they were keen to but Carlisle ignored them and helped me and with time Esme was the first one of them to accept me after finding out I hadn't family or I didn't remember it at all; She was sympathetic and accepted me as her daughter in less than my first year with them. Edward wasn't my number one fan back then, I guess he hated me.

In my first 5 years with them I never talked to Edward, only if Carlisle made us. We were never in speaking terms and in 1927 he entered in a rebellious period and left us, I never knew what he did for those years but he did come back in 1931 and we were worried about him. I was too, he was my brother after all and even if I didn't talk to him that didn't mean I wasn't worried. When he returned, his eyes were Crimson red surprising us, my eyes were still between red and gold, the red leaving slowly but sadly my urges were still there, Carlisle helped me with everything he could as he promised.

When Edward came back, he apologized with me for being rude, I avoided eye contact as I always did when he did so because I didn't want to order anyone. Every time I closed my eyes even if I don't sleep, those people were in my mind, I was afraid I would do something like that to my new family. At first Edward thought I was mad at him but then along with his mind reading and Carlisle's explications he understood and gave me space but still tried to talk to me I was glad he did so, and with time in 1932 I finally could make eye contact with them, but I was still hesitant.

In 1933, when we were living in New York, Carlisle brought a nearly dying human girl with him. She was covered with blood and Edward had to take me out of the room, I know he could easily overpower his thirst and could stay but he took me out of the room away from the house. Esme along with me were confused and concerned for the safety of that human girl, who Carlisle couldn't let die and wanted to change, Edward was angry about it and the both of us let the house so Carlisle could end the change

When we returned a couple of days later, Edward accompanied me all along as he knew I wasn't ready to deal with bleeding humans, he stood by me the three days it lasted the girl's change. Her name after she woke up told us was Rosalie Hale, she was 18 when she died at the hands of a group of men including her fiancé, we accepted her as our family even if Edward was against the idea.

Two years later, in 1935 Rosalie brought a dying man with her and told us she found him being mauled by a bear, she begged Carlisle to turn him which he did as he saw Rosalie's eyes, his name was Emmett McCarty, who easily accepted his new state quickly. He also became a Cullen and fell in love with Rosalie making them the second couple of mates in our family.

We moved to Forks in 1936 where we ran into a pack of shape-shifters.

I still remember that day as if it were yesterday, we were hunting out in the area and one of them almost ripped off my head of my body. Carlisle and our family signed a treaty agreeing to a truce as long as we lived there. Let's say I went afraid from shape-shifters after that. We spent some time in Forks after the treaty and then moved away

Around the 1950's, we met two young vampires by the names of Jasper Whitlock and Mary Alice Brandon. She knew almost everything from us telling us that she had seen us in a vision, her gift being able to see the future. In that vision she saw us together as family including her and Jasper, who she had met in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania in 1948.

We weren't sure about it until Edward read her thoughts confirming what she was saying was true. Even after he confirmed it, we still were hesitant but then we felt a wave of trust to them coming from Jasper, who quickly explained his gift.

The entire time I couldn't meet their eyes even me being close with my family they wouldn't make me look at their eyes, I wasn't sure if I could compel vampires but I wouldn't test that theory with them and since then, Alice and Jasper joined our family. Jasper posing as Rosalie's twin because of their similarities taking the surname 'Hale' for our time in Forks and Alice changing her name to Cullen.

Much time later, we returned to Forks, Washington and because of our treaty we could live in peace but I was still afraid of the shape-shifters.

In our different lifetimes, we'll have to move because people started to note we wouldn't age, we met a lot of vampire covens but when we moved to Alaska we met the Denali Coven, who shared the same dietary of animal blood. We stayed with them for awhile becoming great friends, they did respect my wish of not talk or look at them at their eyes when Carlisle told them the reason saying it was okay and that some gifts were meant to be dangerous.

We had to leave the Denali's because we began to attract too much attention due to our similarities and the amount of numbers, we left them and returned to Forks, where we were aware that the shapeshifter we made a deal with, Ephraim Black and his pack were dead but we still respected the treaty by staying away from their lands and not hurting humans.

Two years after living in Forks, Edward fell in love with a 17 year old human named Isabella Swan who shared his feelings. Edward found Bella interesting in two ways: first, she was completely immune to his power of telepathy and second, her blood appealed to him in a way no human had ever had.

We all were worried about the safety of our secret especially me since I was closer with Edward than everyone else and then Edward saved Bella from being crushed by a van which inadvertently exposed his inhuman strength and invulnerability. But most of us learned to cope when Edward and Bella become romantically involved. Bella found out about us being vampires and accepted us in stride. Though she wasn't part of the family, everyone but Rosalie accepted her as one of us and me being me, I couldn't stand her near me as I didn't want to hurt her.

Another vampire coven came to Forks soon after and the leader, James decided to hunt Bella for sport with help from his mate, Victoria. After a hectic chase and close call, our family including me killed James and saved her.

Since that, I figured it out that my gift didn't hurt Bella at all as Edward, i couldn't compel her and that made me feel better starting to make a good friendship with her. Jasper as me got used to Bella's scent, I was still struggling but now I could control myself.

Bella's birthday was coming and the only ones excited were me and Alice. I was ecstatic about it because she was the first friend I had outside of my family that I wasn't the afraid to hurt and Alice being Alice she liked it, so we were going to make a birthday party in our home.

That's so far my family story, I couldn't tell my own story because I can't remember it at all. There are blank spaces in my human life but I hope I can remember at least my birth name, surname and family but I'm happy with this family.

I didn't tell our entire story because it could take a lot of time which I do have but I'm not so sure as the ones are reading this journal will.

I'm doing this journal because as Esme says, memories are important. So I will try to remember everything since I was changed in Mach, 1920 until now, September 12, 2005.

So... Until later dear reader, peace and out...

*~ Eliza Cullen ~*