I've been trying to confront you for a long time, but I can't. I've lost my courage and self confidence. I've forgotten why you would want me. How could you want me?
I feel like I've lost my self. I've lost myself in my fear of being rejected by you. I see you with Lavender and you look so happy. I know you don't need me but I feel like you don't even want me around anymore, like you don't even care if I'm here or not. I see you with her or Padma or Fleur or some other random girl and it hurts. It hurts so much. It's like your killing me and when I'm suffering that much, I just snap.
I can't help it. You hurting me so much and sometimes I hate you for it. Sometimes I want to make you hurt. I just want you to know how much pain you put me through every day. It's not fair.
You used to pay attention to me. You used to love me; you used to show me you loved me. Know, I'm sitting in the corner alone (here in pieces) as you chase after those other girls. As you run for them, you stumble upon me. You stop for second and suddenly, you realize I'm falling apart. You ask if I'm okay.
Am I okay? Of course I'm not "okay"! How could you ask a crap question like that!
And now I've scared you away.
Now I'm scared that you won't come back
Now I'm going to confront you.