AU: Lily has just married James. To the outside world she seems happy, but is she really? Lily and Snape cant hide their feelings for each other and embark on a destructive relationship that can only end badly.
Just a warning to all you James lovers...I am not one. So there will be some James bashing. This is a Snape/Lily fic after all.
Told from Lily's POV. The chapters will be longer than the prologue and will be told in present tense. J.K. Rowling owns everyyyything. Enjoy! r&r please! Criticism is welcome. They help me become a better writer so feel free to honestly tell me what you think!
Prologue
It seemed like the right thing to do. James Potter was a man that every woman wanted and every man wanted to be. The times were getting darker each passing day. I kept reading about people I went to school with dying. Marrying James seemed like the right thing to do.
He was a great guy. I really did care for him. However, every time I looked in the obituaries I scanned the names for a specific one. His name had never been on the list. I did not want to see him again, but in no way did I want him to die.
Earlier that day there was a small battle between a few death eaters and the Order. We came out on top. The Death Eaters we destroyed had killed a muggle-born woman and her two-year old son. Once the Death Eaters were dead I checked to see if any were him, but thankfully they were not. It gave me chills to think of him doing what they had done to anyone. Sure, he came off like he was a heartless bastard. But I knew he was not.
As I covered my face with the sheer veil I thought about who I would be marrying if it weren't for this bloody war. I could be with the person I love, not with who I am settling for. Across the isle I saw James grinning. Everyone around my was either dabbing their watering eyes or talking about how perfect James and I were for each other. It did seem that way to the outside world.
James had grown up since Hogwarts, but there times when the old James Potter would come out. I straightened my back and smiled a bit. As soon as I reached James he mouthed the words 'I love you'. I felt a sharp pain in my chest, like some stabbed me from the inside out. It wasn't because I returned the feelings. It was because I felt guilty that he loved me and my mind kept wondering off to another man on our wedding day.
The whole wedding was a blur. It was filled with laughter, tears and trips down memory lane. As James and I entered our new home that night I looked across the street. I saw him there. James looked in the same spot but could not see him. I saw the man I had been trying for so long to forget about. I closed my eyes for a moment and when I opened them again he was gone. I silently hoped that would be the last time I would see Severus Snape.