Journey Beyond the Moon Chapter 1: Straight Forward, a degrassi fanfic

A/N: Hey guys! I'm back. I know, I've been like fighting writer's block for awhile, but I've recovered from my relapse and wrote this. This is my first Palex fic and first songfic, so please. Be gentle.

As for the disclaimer, I don't own Degrassi:TNG, Palex, or anything associated with it. And I don't own the song. That belongs to Faith Hill. Though I will admit, I'd love to own both. But sadly, I don't... Enough with that. On with the fic.

You were always the smart one, Paige.

These words are on an endless loop inside my head as I sit at this lonesome table inside The Dot. I really don't know how long I've been sitting here. Could've been minutes, could've been hours, but judging from the sun slowly making it's way to the other side of the earth, I'd say that it's been hours.

I've tried with all my might,

but still don't understand why

we ever let it get so out of hand

My arms are reaching out and holding on tight

to what has always felt so right

It's hard to figure out the answers to the questions

when both the lives are going in seperate directions

I kinda find it amazing how time works. How sometimes it can go by so fast, and other times.. so slow. Take today for instance. In the hours, weeks, even months leading up to Alex breaking up with me, everything's been going by so fast. It's like I haven't had any time to grasp any thing. Any single piece of it. Of our relationship. Of Alex. And that's the one thing I've hated since day one: time, and how it just flies by.

But now, now when time should be speeding up, speeding up the healing, is it? No. No, it's dragging on.

Making every second seem like a minute. Every minute like an hour. Every hour like a day. And every day like a year.

One is breaking into two
and my heart is turning blue
and you still don't get it, do you, do you
I thought we had all the love to go it for the long run
So before the damage is done
Let's start back over at one

Another thing I hate about time? Foreshadowing. Like with time, it'll start telling you things. Things about the future. It'll start dropping little hints that things'll get better, or as of the moment, worse. I used to like this little characteristic about time. I used to like when it would tell me things. Like when I first met Alex.

The love to hate relationship.

Working at the theather.

Alex getting my job back.

All those things? Yeah. That was time talking. Foreshadowing my soon-to-be future. Our soon-to-be future. The relationship blossoming before my eyes. Before our eyes.

Time started talking again when me and Alex started hanging out more.

Dumping Spinner.

The college fair.

Premiere night.

Oh my god, premiere night. Time was practically screaming in my face that night.

Alex not letting me stay home with Ben & Jerry.

"Looking hot" and "making Kevin regret."

Alex pushing the hair out of my eyes.

The heated dancing.

Being drunk on water.

Jay.

Going back to Alex's and talking to her mom.

Chad pushing Alex off the end table.

Bringing her back home.

"I'm in trouble, Paige."

Kissing.

Kissing back.

Lights out, when every evening used to get so hot now

We got so damned distracted, we forgot how

to lock the world away and just get lost in

where you end and where I begin

Love is strong but it's so easy to divide

So girl, let's think about how much is on the line

I know for a fact that time lost it's voice that night, since time wouldn't talk to me the next day. No, it refused to talk to me. Refused to foreshadow. Refused to help. It wouldn't help me figure out what I wanted. Instead, time left that to myself and Kevin Smith, and boy, do I love Kevin Smith.

See, it was moments like those where I liked time. Liked that it would talk to me. Give me little spoilers on how my life was going to turn out, like some television show based messageboard on the internet. But when I think back on it now, think back to the past couple of days, couple of weeks.. I realize one thing: I hate time. I hate it's foreshadowing. I hate it's bluntness.

"It's called living in the now."

"Banting's like the Harvard of the North."

"It's your future Paige, not mine."

And lastly, "You were always the smart one, Paige."

Yes, the same words that have been playing on loop inside my head. And yes, the same exact reason I hate time.

Suddenly a voice brings me out of my thoughts and loathing, "Hot date with your course calendar?"

Spinner.

I look around the small cafe, instantly noticing that I'm the only customer left. Well now, isn't this awkward?

"Um... Alex and I broke up. I just needed to be alone," I'm not fooling anyone tonight. Straight forward is exactly what I need to be.

"Welcome to Splitsville. You're in the right place," Wow. Him and Darcy too? Wonder if Spinner talked to time as well. If he did, wonder if he's loathing it just as much as I am.

"You too?"

"Yeah. I wish I was getting out of here like you," Is he envying me? Me? Usually I'd enjoy it, but now's really the not the time.

"Mmm, do not envy me. Sure, I got into Banting, but.." Here comes the moment of truth. The thing that's been swimming around my head for weeks, for months, years, "..what if I blow it? What if everyone sees that I'm just this big faker who doesn't belong there?" Yep. Straight forward is exactly what I'm being tonight.

"Paige, you totally belong there. Take it from someone who knows, kay? You're amazing. You always have been."

Okay, so, I'll admit that being calling amazing by an ex-boyfriend after breaking up with my girlfriend was hard to hear, but I'll still appreciate his efforts.

"Thanks," I start to roam for some spare cash to pay for my order, when Spinner speaks up, "No extra charge," I smile gratefully, "Oh man, the time. Um, can I drive you home?"

I nod. I know I'm in no condition to drive, "Sure. That'd be great Spin."

He smiles and walks behind the counter to grab his keys when I speak up again, suddenly changing my mind, "Actually Spin, could you maybe.. drive me to Alex's?"

Yeah, straight forward is exactly what I'm being tonight.

Start back over at one.

A/N: Hah! Yeah, that's right. I took out the Spinner/Paige kiss! I had to. It made me cringe really bad during the episode. So yeah, what'd ya guys think? I'm currently working on a second parter for this and i'll probably be posting it tomorrow. Please R&R!

Peace&Love- bohemianxx.