A/N:

I always thought there was more Yukeru fics than this...?

And yes, I just made up the word 'Yukeru'. How awesome am I? XD

It's set just before their scene in book 14. Or, it's supposed to be. XD I wrote it really late at night. Hope it came out okay. Sorry that it's so short.

"Leader!"

I walked through the halls of our somewhat plain highschool, searching for the one-and-only Yuki Sohma, leader of the School Defense Force. Well, the Student Council, but only non-club-members call it that. Us real guys know our true purpose. And we live for it.

Or, at least, I do.

"Leader..." I repeat, a small frown appearing on my face. I turn a corner, and find Yun-Yun talking to Tohru Honda, another somewhat plain girl at our somewhat plain highschool. Damn, life can be pretty somewhat plain when you're not on the School Defense Force. Good thing I am.

I go to run up to Yuki, but suddenly, I stop. I feel an odd tug at where my heart is supposed to be (Kimi has called me heartless so much, I question whether or not I really am on occasion), and suddenly, a weird thought pops into my head.

But I have a girlfriend.

I frown, and tilt my head slightly to the left. Now, why on Earth would that pop into my head? I ask myself, lightly tapping my head with my fist. I mean...it's not like I--

My train of thought crashes violently when I see him turn more my way.

Just his face has slightly now; he's facing me more than he was before. His eyes are closed, his cheeks raised into a kind, caring smile. A light, silvery whisp of his hair is blowing in the light breeze. I don't really feel it. No, that place is being tugged at again. Pulled at, really. And suddenly my stomach feels like it's dropping. That I'm dropping. I'm falling, faster and faster, until I hit the ground, oh, the ground, I completely forgot about how painful it would be once I hit the ground--

I'm not really falling, I remind myself, chuckling lightly, though I felt there was nothing funny about my sudden wave of terror and confusion.

But my stomach still feels queasy, and suddenly my shoulders are heavy. I squint my eyes, though it's a cloudy day. The sudden wave of heat toward my eyes makes everything all the more difficult. I feel as though I should be throwing up. Or falling over. Or dead. Whichever one was easiest. And right now, dead felt pretty right.

I read his lips, though only for a moment. "Honda-san," he's saying. Honda-san. Tohru Honda. Tohru. And I feel a sudden wave of rage. I frown.

What the hell is all this? I almost blurt the question out, but I don't want Yuki to find me in such a weird state. He's still smiling. Smiling that soft, almost carefree smile, as though he is looking down upon someone he lo--

Oh.

Well...crap.

I swallow, the urge to cry becoming very, very great. The thought of me having a girlfriend keeps repeating in my head, but the image of his smile is overpowering it. That soft smile that he'll never look down on me with.

I'm walking away now. Forgetting everything that just happened. Forgetting Tohru, forgetting Yuki's loving smile he had as he looked at her. Forgetting that entire scene. And most of all, forgetting every feeling I just felt concerning my beloved leader.