Full Sum: Proprius Mutatio Femina; Is a permanent spell leaving the man as a woman, it is a desired magic that is also very dark in taste. Every last bit of you becomes a woman. It was said that this magic was used by abused witches that would leave their husbands cursed as a female as well.
That isn't the case for our Harry. Harry is confused and lost and is not sure about himself. Ever since he defeated the dark lord in his fifth year he's been very confused and left wondering. Not by wondering if the Dark Lord is truly dead, but if he is truly suppose to a male.
The story begins where Harry finds the spell.
He stared at the page before him in this Dark Arts book that he'd found in the Black Library over the summer. It wasn't as if he had gone looking for it. It was as if the book knew his darkest desire, was to be a girl.
Harry had always toyed with the idea of wondering what it would be like to be a female. He had always looked up to Hermione she was brilliant witch, powerful too for a muggleborn. He always watched her curves as she walked and admired her figure, as he did other girls as well.
Harry didn't know where the desire to become a woman had came from, for all he knew was that it had been lingering there all along. Just he was to frightened to do anything with a mad man after him. It had been over six months since the defeat of Voldemort and he had been hiding away in Grimmauld Place.
It was because every time he set foot outside of it, he was mobbed by people and reporters. Harry also felt like letting Harry Potter disappear. The world no longer needed him, not in the way he thought they needed him. There were no threats, at least none that he was made aware of.
He was sixteen and had taken down Voldemort at fifteen and a half years old, at least so he thought at the Ministry of Magic. Even though he lost his godfather, he still had Lupin. But if he did this spell and made Harry disappear he would also lose everyone that he loved as Harry because they wouldn't know it was him.
Harry wanted to be someone that wasn't the boy who lived. How could he if that meant losing all his loved ones just to become someone new. He slumped back against the couch looking at the ceiling having already closed the book holding it against his chest. What was he going to do?
As much as he didn't want to be Harry Potter or the boy who lived. He didnt want to abandon his friends and family. He was at a cross path, either he could tell them all, and allow them to choose to stand by him or find a confident someone he could trust to tell and know they'd be at his side if he needed them.
It would mean he would need to tell three people, Ron, Hermione, and Remus. He could obliterate Ron should he react badly, but Harry hoped it would not come to it. Harry hoped that everyone would stand by him, but he knew that may not be true.
It was then that he heard the door knob turn. He hid the book under a pillow on the couch in the library. He sighed when it was just Remus walking in looking for him. Harry had paled, figuring this was a best time as any to say something to at least him. "There you are Harry, everyone's looking for you." He watched as the only father figure person he would know now sit down next to him. "Everything alright, Harry?" He nodded trying to find the courage to say what he needed but only paled further. "You look pale, that's why I asked?" Harry nodded again meaning that he was fine.
It was there that he just blurted it out. "Iwanttobeawoman." There he had said it, was it able to understand probably not. Remus looked at him confused, and unsure what was said, "Harry, that sounded like you want to be a woman?" Remus asked looking confused as he watched Harry blush under his gaze. "Harry, why?" Harry didn't trust his words, but why he didn't even understand it himself.
Why did he want to be a female besides the fact of running away from the boy who lived title? Harry didn't know, he just knew. Just felt this need inside of him to be a she instead of a he. "I-I truly don't know. I just know and feel like I should be a female instead of a male." He said staring down at his hands. "Would my parents be disappointed? You think?" Harry asked he had to ask because he'd never truly known about his parents.
Remus was shocked that was an understatement by what Harry had confessed, but he didn't love him any less than as he did as a boy. When Harry asked his other question, Remus didn't know how Lily and James react to their only son and the last heir to the Potter's fortune. "Harry, I believe Lily would love you no matter how you wanted to be. As for your father well it's easy to say he could be pigheaded. Even with that if it wasn't Lily that made him come around Im sure Sirius or myself would get him to see that you were still his child he raised, just a different gender." Remus watched as Harry relaxed but still rather nervous.
"What else is bothering you Harry?" There was so much, so very much. He was worried about Ron's reaction the most, but he knew that Hermione grew up in the muggle world. He also knew not many people were open minded about transgendered people male or female getting or having sex changes.
So really he didn't know how Hermione would react any better than what he did with Ron. He was worried about losing his best friends. The people that had stuck by him through everything so far. He was scared-no he was terrified that they wouldn't stick through it with him if he became a her.
"Ron and Hermione... If I tell them I'm worried about their reactions to the news, should I do it." Harry watched as Remus nodded, "I understand Harry, I felt the same when I tried to keep being a werewolf to myself from James and the others." He pulled Harry into a hug. "Everything will work out in the end." Harry nodded into the older mans chest.
"Come on, birthday boy! Everyone is waiting on us- you." He smiled, "Just find them and tell them. If you want me there for moral support I will be." Harry nodded with a light smile forming on his lips. "As I said every thing works out in the end." Pulling Harry out of the library and down stairs with everyone for his birthday party.
Next Chapter; Harry's 16th party. Pulling Ron and Hermione off into the backyard to tell them. Will they be supportive or will their memory be obliterated.
Proprius- permanent
Mutatio- transform
Femina- woman/female