I do not own these characters; I just borrow them and let my mind roam free. First FanFic, hope you like it, Enjoy!
After replaying everything that Nick had confessed to her at the party, something deep inside of Olivia's unconscious awakened. The vulnerable look that were in his eyes had a longing there. Although his words said "I'm leaving" his eyes were begging her to stop him. She wondered had the surprise of the news set off certain emotions or had they been there all alone. Olivia knew the answer to that rhetorical question but was uncertain of how to proceed. She was feeling vulnerable so she let her true emotions come to the surface, which she rarely did.
Neither Olivia nor Nick ever spoke about the chemistry between them but deep down, they both felt a stronger connection than just a regular co-worker or friend situation. The obvious reason why neither acted upon the feelings were clear. He was married when they were partners, and then came Cassidy and now she is his boss. Olivia always thought there was more to him not liking Cassidy but she didn't want to rock the boat. This night, however, would be the night to break old habits. The thought of Nick leaving without knowing how she truly felt wasn't an option. "If he's leaving, then he's going to have all of the facts before he goes," said Liv to herself.
Later that night when she was all alone and Noah was sound asleep, she picked up her phone to make a call. She dialed and hung up three times before placing the phone on the table. "I can't do this, this is insane" she thought to herself. She debated for what seemed like an eternity before she finally made the call without incident.
"Hey what's up, are you guys alright?" asked an alarmed Nick.
"Yes, nothing is wrong we're both good," replied Olivia. "Sorry to call so late, hope I didn't wake you."
Laughing at her statement Nick said, "No you didn't wake me, insomnia and I are having our nightly fling. What's up?"
Liv nervously laughed at his joke as she tried to keep her cool. "I really would prefer to talk about this in person, would you mind coming over?" inquired Liv.
"I'm on my way, you're scaring me. I will be there in fifteen," answered Nick.
"Don't be worried, I'm fine just something we should talk about. See you soon," Liv said as she ended the call.
Seriously second guessing her decision to invite Nick over, Liv tried to calm her racing mind and turbulent stomach. She walked over to the mirror and took a good look at the woman standing before her. She silently encouraged herself with her infamous 'get your shit together' look that is uniquely hers. After her silent pep talk, Liv made sure she looked presentable but she didn't overdo it seeing that it was after midnight. Satisfied with what she saw, Liv then went to the kitchen where she grabbed two glasses and a bottle of red. She poured herself a glass and embraced the bittersweet liquid as it helped calm her rattled nerves.
"Hey it's me Nick," she heard followed by two knocks.
"Coming," said Liv as she opened the door to find a confused looking Nick standing there. "Stop scowling, you're going to get frown lines," joked Liv.
"Ha-ha very funny. You sure you're alright? You're not the most forthcoming person that I know," said Nick with a smirk on his handsome face.
Amused by his accurate analysis Liv replied saying, "I'm fine, Noah's fine. Stop worrying. I uhm…I actually was just thinking about our talk and the news that you shared with me earlier."
Visibly relieved that Liv and Noah were fine, Nick pointed at the wine bottle and said, "I see you started the party without me."
Amused by his joke, "Please join me, friends don't let friends drink alone," said Liv smiling at her longtime friend and current object of her affection.
"And we both know how much I value friendship so make it a double," quipped Nick.
Laughing at his wit, Liv poured his drink and took a long gulp of her own as she began to speak. "Well," started Liv in her most sincere tone. "I've been thinking about you telling me about your decision to leave the unit. As excited as I am for you to experience your next chapter; I feel that your chapter here is incomplete."
Nick looked confused as he replied, "Look Liv, I'm going to miss you. You were the reason why I almost decided to stay here but you know that I'm viewed as damaged goods. I can't work without any possibility of growth in the department whatsoever. I feel stuck here."
"I wasn't talking professionally, this is on a personal level," said Liv in a hushed toned that was full of emotion, as she looked at him in a way that told him everything without saying anything.
Knowing exactly where she was going with this Nick stopped her, "Wait…" he said. His heart was beating rapidly, while his scrambled brain tried to catch up. "Let me stop you there, I think I know where you are going with this and there is something you should know," said Nick as he sipped for some liquid courage. "I've been seeing Amanda."
Silence clung to the room and shock was etched into Liv's pretty face. She finished her wine in one long setting as she tried to process the blow that she just received. Still trying to recover, Olivia poured herself another drink before she said, "Oh…I'm uh, I'm sorry, I didn't know. I certainly wouldn't have tried to…"
"No, no, no stop," interrupted Nick. "You did nothing wrong, in fact I'm the one who is wrong. If I weren't so afraid of rejection I might not even be in this predicament."
Confused, Liv sat up a little straighter and tilted her head as she asked, "And what predicament are you in?"
Nick finished his wine and looked her straight into those chocolate colored eyes and said, "I'm in a situation where I can't be with the woman of my dreams because I'm spending time with a woman just to fill a void."
Taken back by his brutal honesty, Liv asked in a vulnerable whisper, "I-I'm the woman of your dreams?"
"Yes!" exclaimed Nick. "I just knew that you couldn't possibly want me and then there was that jackass Cassidy, so I kept it all inside. Now as I sit here and look into those beautiful eyes and see that you feel the same way…well I think you feel the same way since I cut you off before you got started."
A small smile stretched across her pretty face as she responded, "Yes I feel the same way, and we've always shared a special bond. Then when you told me that you were leaving, something inside of me clicked. I felt all of these emotions rushing inside of me that I usually keep at bay but I just couldn't anymore."
Nick couldn't believe his ears; everything that he wanted to hear from the woman that he wanted to hear it from had his head spinning. He always felt that Liv was out of his league. Her beauty, intelligence, resilience and toughness was a combo that set her aside from other women and Nick had admired all of those qualities plus more for a while now.
Jarring Nick from his rapid thoughts Liv said, "I'm sorry to just dump all of this on you. I didn't know about you and Rollins. I'm not a home wrecker and I respect you both; I would never want to come between you two. So, let's just pretend that this conversation nev…"
"Shhhhh," whispered Nick as he placed his index fingers gently on Olivia's lips. "I could never forget this conversation even if I wanted to and trust me, I don't want to," expressed Nick.
As Nick removed his finger from her lips, he grabbed both of Liv's hands and placed them into his. He looked her directly into those swoon-worthy eyes and inched closer to her. Her sweet smell of lavender and vanilla intoxicated him like a drug. His visual assault continued as he looked at her mouth, longing to know what her lips would feel like against his; this had him inching even closer. As he leaned in to what he wanted more than his next breath, Ray Charles' voice singing "Georgia on My Mind" slammed him back into reality. With a look of pure disappointment and sorrow on his face Nick said, "It's Amanda."
Thanks for reading! If you're interested in part two leave a comment. My wheels are already turning on what will happen next! Love me some Liv.