Author's Note: So this is a Lea/Jon story, because they are just so cute together and they just need to get married lol… Anyway, I know this will never happen, but I just had to write it. I intended to make this a one-shot, but if you guys really like it, I might continue.

A/N Revised: I decided I needed to differentiate between the two diaries, so Lea's diary is in italics and Jon's is bold.

Dear Diary,

I, Lea Michele, have a problem. I'm a little bit in love with my best friend.

I know, I know, it's the oldest teen movie cliché in the book, the girl falls in love with her best friend, he's oblivious to the fact, he likes someone else, blah blah blah, hijinks ensue. But they always get together in the end. There's just one hitch in my story. My best friend is gay.

I'm not sure exactly when I fell in love with Jonathan. I mean, I thought he was attractive the second I met him, but I think my feelings for him really started to grow when I heard him sing. He has the most beautiful voice I've ever heard. And to top off his looks and his voice, he's like the sweetest guy in the world. He never fails to make me smile. But being attracted to someone doesn't equal love. So how did I get here?

When we started working on Spring Awakening it was awkward, to say the least. I was just a kid and here I was making out with a boy I had just met, letting him undress me. It was a very unnerving experience. And yet, we grew closer because of it. I was more comfortable with him than any other boy. I never thought twice about holding his hand, kissing his cheek, or hugging him as tight as possible. It was just the way things were between us. We had been so intimate in Spring Awakening, all that PDA seemed like nothing in comparison. Before he came out, there were tons of rumors that we were dating, but I always assured everyone that we were simply best friends and that my feelings for him were in no way romantic.

When did that become a lie?

I might not be able to pinpoint when I fell in love with Jon, but I can tell you exactly when I realized I was in love with him. It was at the airport. He was about to leave for London to be in Deathtrap. We were going to be nearly 6,000 miles apart for four months. So as he was giving me a hug before he boarded his plane I buried my face in the crook of his neck and breathed in, inhaling the scent of his cologne and trying my best not to cry. He kissed the top of my head and whispered, "I'll miss you," and that was when it hit me: I love him. Oh God, I love him. And then he just left. Now I'm stuck here without him, dealing with these… feelings.

Because, now that I realized I'm in love with him, I can't stop thinking about being in love with him. I mean it's completely ridiculous to have feelings that Jonathan can't reciprocate. But I can't help it. I can't stop thinking about what it would feel like to kiss him, and not be acting. I keep imagining us going on dates, and getting married and having kids. It's crazy, I know, but I just love him so so very much.

What do I do?

Dear Diary,

Yo, it's Jon, what's up?

Just kidding, I know you can't answer me. But the few times I've sneaked a peek at Lea's diary, she always asks it questions like it can answer her. Speaking of Lea, I have a bit of a situation.

I think I might be in love with her.

I know what you're thinking (er, rather, what you would be thinking if you could think), 'But Jon aren't you gay?' Well the answer to that, sweet Diary is: Yes.No. I don't know.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm confused. I mean I've never been romantically attracted to girls, so that makes me gay, right? But then there's Lea. She's the most amazing person I've ever known. I trust her with everything, she makes me happy, and I can't imagine my life without her. And I'm pretty sure that means I'm in love with her. So I'm not gay? And now I'm just as bad as Lea, asking you questions like you can answer. Gosh, I just don't know what to do. And I'm stuck here in London so I can't even talk to Lea about it. But even if she were here, I don't know what I would say. 'Hey Lea, I know I said I was gay but now I'm not so sure, cuz, well I'm in love with you. Wanna make out?' Nope, that would not go well. Great, now I can't get the image of me making out with Lea out of my head. This is just a huge mess. Is it January yet? I miss my best friend. (Maybe more? I don't know)

*I hope nobody gets offended for me making Groff semi-straight. I just love the idea of them together. This is just for fun. Please review and let me know what you think!*