Bella's POV
Being a nanny is stressful, people don't believe it but it is. It's not the kids so much as the parents. I love the kids, Anna 6 and Kyle 3. It's just that their mom signs them up for a billion different activities and they nave have time to just be kids. My life's goal was not to be a nanny. I went to school to be a teacher but the year I graduated was the worst teacher layoff of in the last 20 years so it was daycare or nannying. The job pays well and I only have to keep 4 people happy.
Then I get to come home to no one but my cat Wendy.
All my friends live about 3 hours away and I only get to see them on the weekends. But since I go down almost every weekend I don't really have friends here. Wendy's not a good friend. I'm only 25 and already on my way to being the crazy cat lady.
I make some dinner and sit down to watch Criminal Minds, I don't know why I watch this show, it almost always keeps me up at night when I watch it.
Half way through a really creepy episode I start hearing things and I call Sam, one of my friends from home.
We stay on the phone for a while with him catching me up on everyone, mainly our two other friends Jacob and Leah who have finally realized they like each other. It was one of those they were the last to see it things. We make plans for my upcoming week vacation I will be spending with him. I tell him Wendy has to come and he pretends to be annoyed but he's not. He loves me, in a completely non-romantic way.
I've known Sam and Jake and Leah since I was just a baby. All three of their moms took turns taking care of me while my dad worked because my mom walked out on us when I was just a baby. Jake's mom died when we were 8. So I am very close to Sam's mom Alison and Leah's mom Sue. I think my dad is secretly dating Sue, not sure why it's in secret but I'm not going to say anything about it.
Sam tells me to turn the show off and go to bed, I make him talk to me until I'm about to fall asleep. Growing up Sam and I always stuck together while Jake and Leah stuck together, strange really since Sam and Leah are both 3 years older than Jake and I but we're all good friends. Leah and I have each other for the girl stuff and Sam and Jake have each other for the guy stuff.
I wake up and have a text message from Sam asking if I slept good, he's so sweet. I text him back and tell him yes, have a good day.
I'm so glad this is Friday and then next week is my last week before vacation. I love my job and I love the kids but I really miss everyone. All three of them had family businesses to take over. No such luck for me, my dad's a cop.
I get ready and as soon as I get to work their mom rushes out leaving me to take Anna to school and Kyle to his karate lesson. 3 years olds in karate is completely pointless. Once we get there this amazingly hot man introduces himself as the new instructor.
"I'm Josh." He shakes my hand.
"I'm Bella, the nanny."
He smiles a killer smile and then teaches the class.
After class he stops me before I can leave.
"It was nice to meet you Bella, and I don't usually do this but do you want to go out tonight? I don't know, there is just something about you." I blush and tell him OK.
"We could meet at the coffee shop down the street from here?" He suggests and I tell him yeah that sounds good. We agree on a time and then it's off to grocery shopping before Kyle needs a nap.
The rest of the day drags on because I can't wait for tonight. I haven't been on a date in forever. I broke up with my last boyfriend over a year ago and I haven't dated since. Once I'm finally off I rush home and call Leah to figure out what to wear.
I get to the coffee shop and he's waiting for me. He's so hot; he looks a lot older than me though. I order a drink and sit down next to him. I'm suddenly nervous and have nothing to say so he asks me about my job and talks about his. From there we talk about everything.
We sit there for hours just talking and when it's time for the coffee shop to close we make plans to meet tomorrow to go hiking. I used to hike with my dad when I was little but I haven't been in forever.
I hardly sleep so I spend hours on the phone with Sam telling him about Josh, how amazing he is and he's so freaking hot he is. I leave out the part where he's 46.
The next day I get up early to get ready. Luckily I do have the right clothes for hiking. He picks me up and the whole day is pretty much amazing. I just met him but I feel like I've known him forever.
After hiking we head back to his house to shower and order take out.
After dinner I freak out a bit and hide in the bathroom to call Leah. I've never slept with anyone I wasn't in a serious relationship with. I want to and I'm pretty sure he wants to but I feel kind of slutty since I just met him.
Leah says go for it as long as it's my idea and not his. It is definitely my idea and it was a good one.
We spend most of Sunday in bed until sadly I have to get back to real life.
He calls me every day and we meet up for dinner twice over the next week. He begs me to spend my vacation with him but I'm not bailing on my friends for a man I've just met.
Saturday morning we meet for coffee before I drive home.
"So what's your last name?" I ask him and he tells me Uley.
I spit coffee out all over him. He laughs.
"Your name is Josh Uley?" I ask him slowly and he gives me a funny look and says yes. "You're Sam's father." I whisper.
"Oh shit Bella, how would you know that? I mean how do you even know Sam?"
"Sam is kind of my best friend, since I was like I don't know, old enough to walk. Holy shit Josh I've told him everything about you and us and oh this is bad. I mean I left out how old you are because he's kind of over-protective but eww. I told him things he should never have heard about his father! And you walked out on him and his mom. Alison is like a mother to me. Oh, this is so bad. Her and Sue and Sarah practically raised me. So um, as much as I've enjoyed this week this obviously has to be over." I start to get up but he grabs my arm and gently pushes me back down.
"Let me explain Bella…" Then it clicks. "Bella Swan. Shit they will kill me."
"No one finds out about this." I demand. This would freaking kill Sam. Not to mention Josh would so be dead.
"So this is messed up Bella but I like you, maybe we can work it out." He tries and I laugh bitterly.
"Even if I thought you wouldn't be walking right into death if anyone found about this I have no interest in a man that walks out on his family. Sam was just a little boy. My mom walked out on me and I could never forgive her. I wouldn't do that to Sam. Good bye Josh." I'm trying not to cry but this really sucks. I know he's a lot older than me but we actually have tons in common and for the first time since I moved I've had fun and haven't felt so alone. But like I told him I could never do that to Sam.
I let him kiss me good bye because honestly I want the one last kiss to hold on too. He gets more and more intense until I finally use all my inner strength to push him away.
"Bella…" He says as I get into my car.
"Just don't." I whisper and I drive off. As soon as I know I'm out of his sight and not in a place he will pass to go home I pull over and cry.
I know it's only been a week but I'm pretty sure I just walked away from the only man I've ever loved.
A/N OK I got the idea for this story from Mrstrentreznor's story I'll Be Home For Christmas. I even asked her if she minding me posting my story because I never would have thought about Josh/Bella without reading that one. My story will be different though. You should read all of her stuff if you don't already, she is amazing. Most of it is M rated unlike mine so be aware if you are under 18.
Also I wasn't going to post this until I worked on some of my other stories so more but I couldn't resist. I will finish all of them, some may just take a little longer.