Hello my readers!
This fic is beautiful, angst-y but beautiful. This fic was written by my best friend Abby. She wrote this one day and showed on the next. She was so shocked that she wrote something of this context, because she generally is a comical and happy person. I offered is she would like me to post this on my fan fiction account, and she basically shrieked, "YES!!" thus causing me to go temporarily deaf. I would love for most who read this to review, not for me, for my best friend. To give her encouragement. She really is a magnificent writer, and is working on her comic. Which is her, what 5-26th?
Enjoy!!
He was out for three weeks.
Three weeks of solitude I've spent wallowing in an empty household.
He left one night; as if he finally remembered his destiny and went towards it.
The next morning, I awoke, got up, and cried.
Sometimes I hate myself for being so delicate, so fragile. My heart, like and Orchid, needed special attention. Any neglecting or carelessness could lead to my wilting.
Ultimately death…
Extreme sadness is death to my heart. To me…
A heart without love can suffer, harden, or fail. No matter how many times I try to harden…it always fails.
At times I wonder, "Does he really love me?" It's silly, I thought, how I'm so pessimistic at times. Truth is, I really want to be optimistic. I would really love too…
But no, the sadness wrenches my heart my heart away from optimism and pins it to the place of utmost defeat.
"Where the hell am I getting to?" I asked myself,
"He'll be back. He always comes back." I mutter,
Stinging, stinging pain.
I've tried so many times to put a band aid over my often bleeding heart, but it's never the same.
It's never been the same as when someone else puts the band aid on and places it just right. Then they level off the pain with the right amount of care.
Care. Attention. Love.
To be cared for is a wondrous thing. To have affection is another. But to be actually LOVED is almost entirely different. The devotion, the loyalty, and the tenderness all combined into one or more feelings.
That's love…
Or is it all the same?
Is it the same as care and affection?
Who can tell?
The tears flow again…
Review please!
-Akinasori14