You may have guessed I'm a huge huge huge Addison/Alex fan, I hate the spin-off & I hate Alex now but they will live on in fic, that's for sure!!
And I will still update Second Chances!!
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, Shondaland, Grey's Anatomy or anything to do with it.
Here goes hope you like…
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Addison never wanted to seriously hurt herself, she just wanted somebody to notice her. Ever since Meredith had almost drowned, everyone paid her constant attention, like she was going to jump into another icy pool of water. 'Why would she', Addison asked herself over & over again. Sure, Meredith's mother had died but they'd never been that close, & besides, she had Derek & anyone could see he was crazy about her.
Somehow, Addison had found herself alone in a supply closet, with a bottle of pills & water. She had a headache, so she took two. Staring at the floor, she sighed. Things were getting harder by the day, & she couldn't see them getting any better. Grabbing the pills, she swallowed another two, washing them down with water. She poured the rest into her hand, counting them with her fingers, wondering how much the pain would disappear if she swallowed them. There were ten, with the ones she's already taken that would be fourteen. All she had to do was summon the courage to swallow. She took a deep breath, millions of emotions running through her. She couldn't be sure if anyone would find her, even if they did would they care? She let out a long, painful breath, threw her head back & dropped the pills into her mouth. Grabbing the water, she swallowed hard.
It only took a few minutes for the effects of the pills to begin. Firsts she felt dizzy & hot, but taking off her jacket made her cold. Her breathing got faster, he breaths painful & raspy. She stood up, but immediately regretted it, feeling faint & light-headed. But she had to move. She took a step forward & came crashing down on a shelf full of medical equipment. Sure someone outside would hear, she kicked the empty pill bottle out of sight. She waited but nobody came.
Who was she trying to kid? Nobody would notice if she went missing. Alex Karev might have said he would, but where was he now? When she really needed him to notice she was missing, where was he? Addison felt a pang of jealousy when she thought about Alex, that he had time to forget about her, the friends to take his mind off of her. What made he think he even had his mind on her at all? He'd told her he wasn't interested, so why did she still feel something for him? She was guilty that she blamed him, it wasn't his fault she felt so alone, he'd just made her think he'd be there for her, but he wasn't. He was young, he deserved to be out having fun. Hell, they were surgeons they had to make the most of the little free time they had. She shook her head & buried it in her hands.
A wave of nausea suddenly came over her & she grabbed the shelf supports to stop herself collapsing. What had she done? She felt sick, she was sweating like mad but shivering too. She was terrified of what was happening to her. Attempting to stand, she felt weak & knew she would be on the floor in a crumpled heap in a matter of seconds. Reaching for the door handle, another wave of nausea came over her but she ignored it, knowing she had to get the door open. Finally, she felt the cool wood on her palm & twisted the handle frantically whilst using all her strength not to fall down. She heard a click & the door opened slightly, the bright light causing her head to spin. She let out a groan & attempted to call for help. Only a small, almost inaudible sound came out as she collapsed to the fall.
"Help me, Alex."
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Yeah, pretty bad right? Sorry it wasn't very long but I only wanted that to happen in the first chapter. Please review & I'll update as soon as I can! Next chapter: will Addie be found in time?