AN: Sooo this is my first attempt at a Twilight Fanfiction (first attempt at fanfiction period actually) so I hope that the first chapter came out okay. I'm open to criticism and I sort of want to put out a request. I need a beta! Anyone up to the challenge? *wriggles eyebrows* Let me know how this chapter went, please leave me a review with your opinions and suggestions. This is an eventual M/M fanfiction meaning that there will be yaoi or boy lovin' up in here (oh geez, did I just say that?) Either way you can read and review or click that back button.
Disclaimer: Ah and I almost forgot to mention that I don't own these characters...If I did, Breaking Dawn would have ended a lot differently ;)
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Renesme leaned back on the russet werewolves shoulder and frowned at her parents. They sat on either side of the room simply glowering at one another, low warning growls emitting from the depths of their throats. The young girl had come to notice how frequently their arguments had become, over the span of six years; it was blatantly obvious that they simply weren't getting along. Things had been going sour between them and Renesme could feel them pulling away from each other. It was a constant game of tug of war and both sides were too fed up with one another to continue tugging on that rope. Sometimes, Renesme felt as if she were the only thing keeping them together. She was still young but her knowledge spanned far beyond her years. She was well aware of the fact that neither one of her parents tried to fight in her presence but when her back was turned they would speak in a variety of hushed hisses and growls. Jacob was the only one aside from Renesme that was worried. He was the comfort she needed when she couldn't get any affection from her parents. They were too busy being upset with one another to notice that their own daughter felt deprived of the love they had promised to give her when she was younger.
She sighed and burrowed her face into the coarse fur upon Jacobs's side and felt him snort as she exhaled an unnecessary breath. Her pale hand gripped at his fur as he leaned against her, silently offering her a place to relax while his large inquisitive brown eyes focused on the hissing pair of vampires before him. Renesme skimmed her fingers over his nose and closed her eyes, shutting out the muttered words her that parents continued to snap at one another.
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Jacob had had enough of all this shit. He loved Renesme with all his heart but he'd be damned if he'd let her sit here and listen to her parents go at each other's necks. So they weren't getting along? Big fucking deal. Alice had seen their break up happening weeks ago so it wasn't news to anyone. He just wished it was over already. Having to sit in this large, cold, house to be with his nonblood related niece was driving him insane. To top it off, Renesme preferred for him to be her constant lap dog for lack of a better word.
But he knew that being a werewolf made her happy, she felt protected with him like this. Who was he to deprive her of some form of happiness? Jacob stood, stretching out his cramped four legs, nudging the girls' hand with the soft side of his snout. Renesme blinked up at him and let out yet another sigh, grasping onto his fur with her small right hand as he led her out of the living room and down the hallway to where Alice sat waiting in the kitchen.
Together the pair walked in a comfortable silence, keeping their gazes locked on anything but each other. The Cullen's new home was settled even further away from Forks then the first one. It didn't cross the territory lines so the pack didn't mind and there was still enough room for each couple to have their own little separate cottage in the acres of land that were up for grabs. Jacob wanted to joke and say that Bella and Edward wouldn't be needing their cottage much longer but he knew that no matter how mature Renesme was, she was never supposed to hear those kind of words coming from Jacobs lips. Jacob supposed it was a good thing that he was still in his werewolf form, or something sarcastic may have fallen past his tongue and into the hallway they walked through.
As they crossed the threshold, Jacob remained in the archway, allowing Renesme to drag herself to a bar stool, watching as she hoisted herself up to sit and rest her head on the white marble counter top. Her curls had grown far longer as the years passed by and they pooled in her lap and over the countertop as she closed her eyes, resting her head in the fold of her arms. Bella wanted to cut the locks short but Edward was adamant on keeping them long. Jacob agreed that Renesme's hair was quite beautiful when it was long, even he didn't have the will power to cut it when Bella had asked him to.
Jacob glanced over towards where Alice sat, elbow deep in a pile of magazines and an array of fabrics. She was redesigning the kitchen for the second time and was looking for the right image to reflect her ideas upon. She offered Jacob an absent smile over the edge of her magazine as the bright bay window reflected dazzling sparkles over her moon kissed skin. "Good morning Jacob" her high lilted voice filled Jacobs ears and he angled his head away from her, nodding as he did so. She scrunched up her delicate nose but refrained from remarking on the wet dog smell everyone except -Edward and Renesme- insisted Jacob carried around. Instead, her attention went towards Renesme and the frown deepened on her face. Jacob huffed, laying down on the white tiled floor as he watched Renesme kick her feet back and forth as they barely touched the ground below where she sat.
Part of him smiled inwardly, she was still the little kid he loved. Always would be, and he could stay young with her if he imprinted. But he never saw her in any way but as a lost puppy that needed protecting. He was twenty two now, Sam was surprised that he hadn't imprinted yet. But Billy always joked that he was a bit of a late bloomer. Jacob had been the last to get his growth spurt although it was safe to say he was the tallest out of any of his pack members, he was the last to obtain that sexy low voice every girl simply swooned over and he was the last to imprint. Everyone had his or her mate already, and the werewolves were getting younger and younger with each passing year although there was really no need for any new members. The vampires and werewolves of Forks had reached an agreement after Renesme was born and yet everyone was still keeping their eyes out for anymore danger. Bella still attracted a lot of negative attention from the bad guys of Forks and even though she could hold her own, she never did seem to learn that crushing a humans skull because they looked at her wrong wasn't a way to solve every problem.
She was becoming more violent with each passing year. Edward was worried about how it would affect Renesme and Jacob just didn't want those ancient Italian vampires coming back to Forks to cause anymore tension then there already was. They sent Jane or Alec every once in a while to check up on Renesme's growth but other then that, Jacob didn't want anyone coming near his precious little pup.
"You can change Jake" Renesme topaz eyes were resting on the russet wolf, "Esme has some clothes set out for you upstairs I think"
"Wonder where she disappeared to" Alice input her question raising her perfectly groomed eyebrows over the brim of her magazine. Jacob stood yet again, backing his way out of the kitchen, making sure to be careful as he hefted his large frame through the hallway alone. He was a big werewolf, muscles and fur made for a bad combination with all these priceless statues and furniture pieces that the Cullen's had insisted on buying. Already Jacob had broken two vases and accidentally knocked over Bella's priceless stone-carved statue of herself that she so simply adored. The woman had become a stranger to Jacob. She was pompous, worse then Rosalie at times and that alone frightened the hell out of Jacob.
Wherever that beautiful clumsy girl had gone, Jacob wanted her back and Renesme needed her…The old Bella would have made a great Mom, the new Bella was just like the iconic step mother everyone wished would just disappear.
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When Jacob reached the top of the spiral staircase he veered left, nudging the first door on the right open with his snout to let himself inside. The Cullen's had been kind enough to save a room for him whenever he decided to visit. It was a decent size, much bigger then the room he still lived in on the reservation and honestly Jacob didn't really need all the space anyway. Alice had designed everything in sight, and picked out rich greens and deep blues. He had a massive bed that was often left empty and a terrace that overlooked the wild beauty that nature had on display for him. It was nice, but it wasn't exactly home. He had a feeling it never would truly be considered a home afterall, none of his pack was here although they also came to visit. Everyone was on what Jacob would call "indifferent" terms at the moment. His pack was still cautious of the lee- vampires but they respected them to some extent and Sam allowed Jacob to visit in between patrols.
Jacob thought it was ridiculous that they were still patrolling. They had gotten rid of Victoria and James, but he supposed that safety was nothing to be toyed with. He sighed as he changed forms, slipping so easily from his werewolf self back to the human skin that now felt a bit foreign to him. He shifted uneasily, feeling the absent breeze slip over his naked body as he passed by the cracked French doors that lead to the terrace. Quickly he ambled into the closet and pulled out the first pair of jeans his hands reached for.
Alice had also taken it upon herself to buy him a new wardrobe, all color coordinated of course. She claimed that she just wanted to make him as comfortable as possible but Jacob knew that she enjoyed having a male model to dress up. Emmett and Jasper always seemed to have a pretty damned good excuse whenever Alice wanted to get them to try on an outfit or two.
Slowly Jacob got dressed, pulling a white t-shirt over his head and buttoning up the flaps of his jeans. He stretched languorously and collapsed onto his bed, seemingly unaware that a pair of curious topaz eyes were settled on his every move. "What's up Pup?" Jacob asked the ceiling, cracking a grin when he heard the melodic sound of Renesme giggling. She pounced on him, flashing her pearly canines before rolling her eyes at him. "How did you know it was me?" she poked Jacobs side and he chuckled, burying his face in her hair.
"I always know when it's you" he breathed against the side of her face, letting a smile grace his frowning lips. Renesme curled against his side and Jacob flinched subtly against the coldness of her skin. "Do you think that they'll love each other again?" she asked after a moment of silence. Jacob took a moment to contemplate his answer. He wasn't sure if they would ever go back to that lovey dovey bullshit they felt when they first had Renesme. It would be hard seeing as though Bella had learned to hold grudges. She's no longer the ditzy forgivable type…. She's no longer Jacobs Hells Bells.
"I wish I knew the answer to that kiddo" Jacob sighed, placing his arms around the girl, feeling her grip onto his arm for support. He knew that this whole thing going on between the Cullens was tearing the girl apart. She may be mature for her age but she's still a child. No kid wanted their parents to separate, even if it were for the best.
"I'll talk to them okay kiddo?" Jacob whispered. He felt his beating heart constrict in pain as Renesme's topaz eyes looked up at him, brimming with tears that could never be shed.
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Jacob was going to talk to Edward once he saw Renesme looking incredibly upset but the girl insisted that he sleep first. She knew that he was exhausted and would need all of his strength when he went out on patrol the following night. She watched as Jacob had drifted off to sleep. Renesme remained at his side; her eyes studying his strong face as he dreamt. Taking in the smooth caramel colored skin that radiated with warmth underneath her fingertips. Sometimes she envied Jacob. He could go to sleep and escape life, even if it were only for a few short hours. She could sleep too but it was getting harder and harder to dream. She had nightmares more then anything else, woke up screaming. With either Jacob or her father coming to her side to sing her back to sleep. Jacob couldn't carry a tune to save his life but it did help Renesme fall back asleep with a funny smile on her face.
As for the many nights that she spent awake, she often roamed the gardens barefoot, touching the flower petals and breathing in the night air. When her parents weren't fighting with one another, she could hear her dad playing the piano in his music room, the sounds drifted out the bay window and down upon her in the quite piece of flowerbeds she walked through. Fireflies would dance above her head and she lift her chin, letting the moonbeams stroke her face gently as she smiled up at the black night sky.
Jacob shifted on the bed beside her, mumbling something under his breath as he burrowed further into the comforter Renesme had settled upon his large frame. She let out a sigh, trailing a careful finger across his nose, watching him shiver at the contact before leaning into it. "I love you Pup" Jacob murmured groggily, Renesme smiled and settled down beside the werewolf, closing her own eyes and trying to drift into a sea of hopeful dreams.
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Edward sat alone in the living room, head down, focusing on nothing but the inner sanctum of his own thoughts. He could hear the thoughts of Jacob and Renesme upstairs but he tuned them out, rubbing a hand over the cold smoothness of his own face. Bella had left close to an hour ago, insisting that she needed space to think. He hated that they continuously fought like this, especially in front of Renesme. His daughter didn't need to see all of this hell; the rest of his family didn't need to either. Edward wasn't even sure what they were fighting over anymore, he didn't know where their relationship went sour…but he knew that their marriage was beyond repairable. Often times, he entertained the idea of going to marriage counseling but Bella wouldn't go for that. She was set on leaving their relationship just the way it was, in its broken state. That hurt almost more then anything else really, the only thing really keeping Edward from falling into a mute state permanently was his daughter.
She was his light when he was enveloped in darkness, warmth in his ice covered heart, his life, his creation. He'd make sure to remain a good father if only for her sake. He wanted her to have the childhood he never really did. He was so young when his own father had-
A warm large hand clasped onto Edwards shoulder, causing him to stiffen against the blossoming heat against his cold skin. "Edward?" Jacobs voice filtered through Edwards train of thought and slowly the vampires topaz eyes met the cautious brown ones of the werewolf who spent so much time in the Cullen's family home. "What is it Jacob?" Edward kept his tone even, shaking off the hand that was settled on his shoulder just above the bare flesh of his arm. Jacobs eyes squinted for a moment and he stepped over the back of the couch, taking a seat on the cushion beside the brooding vampire.
"We need to talk" he sighed, sliding a hand over the back of his neck in a nervous gesture. Edward almost smiled in spite of himself, he always saw the werewolf do that same action when he was about to rant on about Renesmes well-being. He would never admit it, but he was glad that Jacob had taken to his daughter. At least she knew that she was loved, even if Bella barely spared her so much as a small glance every once in a while. Edward tilted his head to the side and Jacob took this as a gesture that meant to continue speaking. "I am worried about how your relationship issues are effecting Renesme" Jacob's chest expanded as he let out a mouthful of air, keeping his gaze on anything but the man sitting beside him on the couch.
Edward frowned, the amusement in his eyes now entirely gone as he studied the boyish features of the man in front of him. He took in every smooth line of the mans face carefully, eyebrows creasing with concentration as he shut out the blankness of the werewolves mind. He always hated when Jacob blocked his thoughts around him. It made Edward wonder just what Jacob was trying to keep from him and drove the vampire almost to insanity on several occasions. "-and she hasn't been sleeping either…Edward?" Jacob snapped his fingers in front of Edwards blank topaz eyes causing him to startle just a bit.
"Oh sorry, yeah I know…" Edward scratched his chin, luckily he caught a glimpse of Renesme's face in Jacobs mind so he knew where this conversation was going. "I've seen her out in the gardens late at night".
"She's really worried about what's going to happen between you and Bella" Jacob continued, staring down at his folded hands with a frown. Edward leaned back against the soft cushion of the back of the couch and let out a huff of air from his nostrils. "Me too" he replied, the hurt evident in his voice. For a long moment both men sat together in silence, lost in the webs of their own thoughts, ignoring the fact that they were sitting fairly close to one another and simply enjoying the silence if only for a few short moments.
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AN: Well how did it go? Review and let me know!