First of all, hello :D This is my first story, so I'm just learning. And also I'm a german so my english is bad! I Hope you can read and understand the story as i had imagined! Hope you like it and please write me what you think about it!

There I stand, next to Tori and Adre, don`t listen to their conversation. I just feel tired of this all. I am this scary girl that made the most perfect boy hate me. So, I don't know why I stood up this morning, because all I get today is more pain. Not the physical way, but the heartache way.

I love Beck, I love him more than anything, I love him more than my own life but we were just fighting all the time, so we broke up a few months ago. That's the reason why I`m sure he stopped loveing me. And another reason is his new girlfriend Mandy. She`s just one of those girls like Tori, normal, without anything that need to be said.

So, I stand there, at the locker of Tori and wait for something, I don`t know. Then Mandy walks up to me, whatever. I see that she needs all of her courage to talk to me and finally said like a stupid Barbie: "Hi Jade." I look at her in a normal way, she`s so boring! But she don`t go on and just that makes me angry and annoys me, so I say: "What do you want?" now she looks afraid, good.

"I...I just wanted to say, I will ask Beck something right here at Becks locker, so if you wanna hear his answer just stay here."

I was confused now, because what could she ask Beck that means something to me. But fine, she got my interest. Also Tori and Andre in front of me looking confused.

But we don`t walk away, we want to listen to the conversation of Mandy and Beck.

So after a while standing there, waiting, Beck walks down the stairs, don`t know I am two steps away from him. I just heard the two say hi and kissing, I hate that!

After Beck says: "I just wanna let you know, I enjoyed our night"

Wait, I have to puke.

Mandy answers: " I loved it too! But I have to ask you something. You don`t have to answer if you don`t want to, but this question is a long time in my head and I can`t forget it."

"You can ask me everything you want!"

"Did you love Jade or are still in love with her?"

I am shocked, that is her question? Asking Beck about his feelings for me? I just hold my breath and wait scared. What would his answer mean to me? It will change a lot!

"I think I just thought I loved her but I was only interested in her. Nothing more. And because of we were fighting all the time, she wasn`t worth it."

No. He can`t mean that, he can`t! All this years, I was in love with a boy who just liked the different between me and other girls? That can`t be true! I love him and he… I can`t believe that.

So I turn around to face him: " Is this true?"

He looks shocked: "Jade!"

"Beck, tell me, is this true, do you mean what you are saying?"

"I...I.., yes it is."

Oh hell, please no!

"So you have to say it! Say it to me right now!"

"If you want… I have never loved you!"

And now thats it, i`m dead. I feel like somebody cut out my heart and placed a fireball in my chest. He had never loved me. All a lie, every kiss, every touch, every time he said he loves me. I just want to die, to run away from this pain, from all this memories, to run away from him!

So I do. I walk out of the school to my car but all the tears make me stop. I wipe away these stupid tears and start walking again. What have I thought? No one likes me, so how could he even love me? When I get to my car, I sit down and close the door.

Now it`s all over. I still have my dream to become famous, act and sing, but what means that, if nobody is there to make me smile? If there is no Beck. For what do I live then?

And that is the moment I break down. I let all the emotions come over me. I cry all the tears I held back since I realized Beck and I broke up.

Nothing will ever be the same.

BECK`S POV

What have I done?

I did the most stupid and worst thing in my life! How could I said to Jade I didn`t love her?

I love her so much, I love her more than anything on this world! But now, she will never let me in her heart, never! I miss her so much but now I ruin all. Just because of this stupid Mandy. This boring and annoying girl. Why she asked me this question about me and Jade and what`s wrong with me, that I answered like that? But first I have to bring things in order:

"Mandy, what the hell did you do?"

"Sorry beck, I didn`t know Jade was listening!"

But now Tori and Andre walks up to me and look really shocked. Tori join in the conversation:" Really Mandy? You said to Jade that she should listen! So don`t lie to Beck! But Beck, I think you deserve more than a lie! Somebody should be really mean to you, but you made the meanest person run away from you! I didn't know that you`re such an idiot." Perfect, now my friends hate me too.

"Tori wait! I lied, I didn`t know that Jade was listening."

Tori answered: "What do you mean with you lied?"

"I explain it later, first I need to talk to Mandy. So Mandy, I don`t like you and you`re boring. You did something that I can`t forgive you ,so, we`re over."

Before she could say anything, I walked outside, away from this problem. I need to find Jade and bring this mess back in order.

Will Beck find Jade and talk to her? What will she think about it and will she forgive him? How will the story goes on? :D please write me what you think about it!

Omg.. i just reread the chapter and i am just happy that someone reviewed this hahaha thanks for coming this far, much loove to you :D