I was always one to distance myself from the world from friends and to anyone who try's to get to close. I turned off all my real emotion they where always to dangerous to show but the only once that are showing that can't be easily swept away are anger and hatred these are once that I can not hide, I just wish I could feel happiness even joy feel like its something out of my reach. I want to laugh with my friends give them a smile that means something instead of the forced one that they see so they think I'm normal.
Solitude it something I'm use to it not all bad it just…lonely. I sit in my dark room feeling empty that's the way I prefer, I can't let them get to close they would only get hurt if they knew what type of person I really am and even though I don't want that they just keep smiling at me making me feel welcomed as if I was a true friend to them, even though they know how much trouble I am.
I sometime can't resist in saying what if, what if thing where different, what if I where normal, what if I wasn't cursed to live a life in fear of my power and what they can do. But that's when the darkness deep inside me laughs and tells me to stop been naïve and I know its just saying it to hurt me but in fact it true I am destined to destroy those that I dare call friends, HA some friend I am I'm going to be the reason they're world is destroyed everything they love here won't exist after the prophecy comes true and that include myself.
And yet even though I know all of this I still want them to accept me I still want them to… never mind just forget that, I don't want them to care it will only make it harder for them and me when the time comes. The only thing I wish now is that is that MY FRIEND WONT HATE ME TO MUCH.