Summary: Toshiro is forced to execute his childhood friend, Momo. The execution has left Captain Hitsugaya broken beyond repair. He absolutely cannot forgive himself for killing his best friend. He isolates himself from the world, training. The only catch is, Momo is still alive. How? You'll have to read and find out. ;D
AN: This is my first Fanfiction, ever! I've written a few stories in the past but they were always with my own character's and I didn't have to worry about them being OOC.. So I'm so sorry if my character's are way OOC I'm trying to keep them as in character as I can!
Also! This isn't a Toshiro/Momo story. This isn't a Toshiro/Rangiku story. It's not a Toshiro/anyone else story! Frankly I don't see Toshiro with anyone, so sorry! (I've always wanted Toshiro and Momo but everyone just says it's never going to happen. *Sigh*) It's really about friendship, I guess. There's not really any real romance but I guess you can pretend! :DD Well, either way, I hope you enjoy.. ^_^
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Running. Running is all I have done. I seem to be trying to run from the pain but it just doesn't work. I cringe as I feel another small pain blast inside my body. I close my eyes engulfing myself into the pain; enjoying it.
As my feet continue to stomp on the ground my sides continue to ache. I deserve it. My feet beg me to stop but I continue to go on, pushing myself past my limits. I must keep going, I must get stronger.
"Captain!" I hear my lieutenant, Rangiku Matsumoto, calls running up behind me.
"Not now Rangiku," I hiss using my flash step to leave her in the dust. I hear following me closely and as I try to use flash step once more I fall to the ground. Ouch.
"Captain," Rangiku whispers leaning down next to me. I stare up at her trying to utter for her to leave but my voice fails me and all I can do is lay there. "What's happened to you?"
I close my eyes tiredly. Everything's happened to me Rangiku, my life has fallen apart. I am a powerful captain, I always thought of it as simple as that. But now when I think of myself as the powerful captain I think of all the things wrong with that. Being a captain has brought me more harm then it will ever bring me good, and yet somehow, I cannot quit.
"Let's go home," Rangiku whispers lifting me up off the ground. There is no home anymore.
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I stare at Hyourinmaru, disgusted at my own zanpakuto. Zanpakuto's are nothing more that killers. They kill, and kill, and kill.
"Bankai," I whisper letting Hyourinmaru out to his final release. I close my eyes listening to the soft whisper of Hyourinmaru.
"Master," Hyourinmaru calls. I reach out to touch the ice dragon's face. "Why do you show me weakness? I am most powerful, I shall not stand for this."
"Then don't," I smile reeling my hand back from my zanpakuto's face. Within seconds he shatters into millions of tiny ice pieces. I open my eyes, back into my backyard. I look down on my sword wondering why Hyourinmaru is still with me.
"Captain Hitsugaya!" Rangiku calls. I turn around to see my lieutenant walking towards me. She gives me a bright smile that makes me absolutely frustrated. How can she act so normal when everything is so wrong? Everyone may see it as just one less person in the Soul Society, but that's not how it really is. It's not just one person. It's my best friend. My best friend. She's gone, and she's gone because of me.
"What is it?" I snap looking at her witch an icy stare wishing her to leave me alone. No one ever speaks with me anymore. I've lost the respect of squad, of the captains, of everyone. And I'm okay with that, I don't deserve the sympathy of these people.
"It's been three months since you've done anything productive," Rangiku says giving me a pouty look. I roll my eyes then adjust it to stare at the sky. "You know how much I hate paperwork! You know how much I hate any work! Why do you have to be so mean captain?"
"Then don't do the work," I whisper giving her a sharp look.
"Well that's the first," she laughs patting me on the back. She knocks me over and all I can do is give an aggravated sigh. "Listen captain, I know this was hard on you. I know it's unfair, but did you ever let that stop you before?"
"You don't understand the half of it."
"I don't have to. All I have to understand is that you're being weak. You are the captain of Squad 10. You're my captain. And if you don't shape up I'm going to have to beat it out of you!"
"Do you think I care Rangiku?"
"Look, if you don't want to be my captain anymore, fine, I'll find a new one. I just hope you know, I don't know who you are anymore. I don't know who you are because the Toshiro I know, he wouldn't back down without a fight, he wouldn't show weakness, he would stand up and he would fight with all his heart."
AN: ..Review? ^.^