Disclaimer- No, I don't own them. Duh
Rating- T
Spoilers- Major Twilight spoilers.
Pairing- Tate
Note- One of the million post-ep stories that will be coming out. Read, review, enjoy- This is my first NCIS fic, so beware.
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I can't not be with her... I can't live. Seeing Kate lying there in a pool of her own blood, right after we celebrated her being alive, I couldn't take it. She looked so peaceful... the single gunshot wound through her forehead, her open, glazed eyes marred the version of beautiful Kate in my mind. Kate wouldn't be there to tease, to laugh with. She wasn't around to make fun of Gibbs with me. And Gibbs... I'm not sure he can make it either. We were both so shocked... She was gone, dead forever. And I'd never see her again. I remember that morning, when I came back, and she joked about how she would marry a man like me someday. There are no more somedays for her. Everything she wanted to accomplish, everything she hoped for. Gone, forever. I'll never know if she really did like me. Because, I know, I will always know, that I loved her. I would do anything for her. And I'm not so sure I can pull through this.
The funeral was horrible. I finally met her family, crying much like I was. Abby, Ducky, McGee, and Gibbs were there, along with almost the entire NCIS. She was cremated, and there was a beautiful urn lying on the altar. How I wish I could see her one last time. Her ashes were burried, in the cemetery near a cherry tree. I knew her spirit could be happy there.
But my spirit could never be happy. What could I do? My Kate was gone. The office had a somber mood, her desk sat empty. But the area still spoke of Kate. She would always be in my heart. The next person they bring in to fill her place could never shine as bright as she did. Kate was pure, strong... perfect. I would have given up anything to spend my life with her. But now I know I will never have a life.
I pick up the gun, stare at the gleam of the soft light against the barrel. I bring it to my lips. But then I think of all the fun times I've spent with Kate- with everyone. And I put it down. I can't do it. Kate would never forgive me if I did something like this. I just can't. I know I need to be strong, live her dreams. I know somewhere she's watching me, and she wants me to be happy. I feel it in my soul.
Kate Todd was a perfect person... and her memory will be in my heart forever.
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Well, there's my little drabble. I spent about half an hour after that episode crying, then cursing the writers of NCIS. My friend and I love this show, and I'm not sure I can watch it without Kate there! She and Tony were so close to getting together, too. Alas, I don't write it. So my opinion counts not. Hope you enjoyed this, and please review.