Broken Scars
A/N - Just a little depressing one shot, sorry if I bring a downer on your day D:
Remus looked in the mirror, his body was a mess of bright red cuts to faded sliver scars. His eyes a usual caramel colour, were a bright gold. Glowing back at him. He bowed his head, tears leaking from those twisted eyes that didn't belong to him. His body shook with so much force as he sobbed into his hands, falling to the floor with such grace. He curled up into a ball, his long bony limbs awkwardly wrapped around his thin body. He laid there, for what seemed like forever, until he stopped sobbing. He slowly pushed himself up from the ground, again looking into the long mirror in front of him. He looked even worse, his eyes were now not only glowing, but were red and puffy. His pale body was red from where he laid awkwardly. He didn't dare smile at the evil reflection, since the person in that mirror wasn't him.
He stood up quickly, holding a hand to his head as the rush hit him. Walking over to the little wooden desk was one filled with pain. He sat himself down, crying out as his fresh cuts ripped against the faded fabric chair. He picked up an old parchment and his quill, ready to send the most important letters.
"Dear, Sirius.
Please don't hate me for this, I know you will but please... I can't do it anymore Paddy, I can't wake up every morning counting down the days until the full moon. Wishing I would just die instead of go through that pain, feel that lost. I hate the wolf, I hate it so much. But it's part of me now, it's inside me.. Hell it is me. I can't live with myself, knowing I'm nothing but a shell to this monster, a cosy home which it kills every month. I hate my body, the way it's a constant reminder of that thing in me. I almost killed someone last night, you know what would of happened if James hadn't of saved Severus? You know? He would of been killed, ripped to pieces.. or worse, became me. I can't risk something like that again. I don't know how Severus found me, but he did. Just know Sirius Orion Black, just know that I love you. Not even the monster inside me can steal that. Please look after my mum, she needs it.
All my love, Remus"
He put down his quill and wiped away some stray tears that had fallen, he walked over to his bed and placed the letter on top of his pillow. Putting on his clothes he quietly left the dorm and went into the bathroom. He locked the door behind him and let out another chocking sob, falling to the ground and clutching his ash blonde hair. He pulled out the knife that was in his pocket, and stared at it. The silver burnt his hands, but he didn't care.. He stared at his reflection one last time before plunging the knife into his wrists, watching as the ruby red blood ran from his weakening veins.
"I love you Sirius Black"... then it was black.
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A/N - I hope you liked it, I know it's really short and I actually made myself cry writing this :'( 97 xp