This is my new story :). I have been playing with this idea for a while now and thought i would upload it and see what people thought of it. I would like to thank babyCullen060596 for reading this and giving me the boost i needed to upload it. I am English so 'Mom' won't be used and 'mum' will. If you don't like it I am sorry but I don't really now American slang worlds or pronunciations. I hope you all like this story and if anyone has any questions i will try my best and answer them. Please review. Thanks a lot.

On with the story ;).

FULL SUM: Bella has Terminal breast cancer and was given a year to live. Six months ago. She has half a year left to live, and has a list of things she wants to complete before she dies. Only her dad knows she is dying and won't tell anyone else. However she has one dream she wants the most to come true before she dies. Have her best friend, Edward Cullen, tell her he loves her. If her list is completed and Edward says that one thing, she will die happy. This is how Seventeen year old Bella Swan deals with dying.

Tell me you love me.

Prologue.

Fighting a battle you will never win is hard. But when your life is on the line, it's even harder.

I was diagnosed with terminal breast cancer three days after my seventeenth birthday and was given one year to live. That was six months ago. They offered me chemo therapy to prolong my life, but I would lose my hair and I would be ill for a while. Also it wouldn't cure me, it would just prolong my life by about six months.

I would rather die with my own hair and be active for the best part of twelve months then die with no hair and be ill for that twelve months. If I did have chemo everyone would know what is going on and I can't have that happen.

Nobody other than my dad knows. I can't tell anyone. I have always been told I am self-less, telling people would hurt them, and I wasn't going to hurt anyone. When I first found out it was a shock, but I dealt with it.

I didn't cry when I was told, but my dad did. I held him whilst he cried and drove home because he couldn't seer the road through his tears. You see my mum died when I was fourteen due to breast cancer, and her mum before that. I guess it runs in the family.

My dad took losing my mum hard and I think losing me will be too. However we didn't know mum had cancer until as collapsed one day shopping. She died a week later in hospital.

We didn't have time to prepare for it. But for this we do. I told my dad he isn't lout to cry when I go. Nobody is even going to know. When I do go, my dad is going to tell everyone I have gone abroad to stay with his mum. I can hear him crying every night. It breaks my heart.

Knowing I have little time to live is hard. There are so many things I want to do but can't. When I was little I wanted children and to get married, live in a big house with a dog and some fish. Never going to happen.

I want to say goodbye to my friends but seeing their faces when I tell them is something I can't cope with. Since I found out I have been telling them all daily that I love them all. They all think I'm emotional, or as Emmett says, 'It's the time of the month, just everyday.' I think they are used to it now.

I'm still going to school, but I don't do gym. I can feel myself getting weaker. To be truthful, I'm scared. I'm scared to leave my dad on his own. I'm scared I will never be loved. I'm scared to die a virgin.

I want to see my eighteenth birthday, and my twenty first. If I'm lucky I will see my eighteenth but defiantly not my twenty first. But I don't voice my fears or worries. I only cry at night when I'm alone and I know my dad can't hear me.

My dad is the best dad ever. He doesn't baby me like most parents would if they knew their only child was going to die. He is very respected as he is the police chief of my hometown, Forks. Everybody knows him ad they only say good things about him.

I know he doesn't do the washing or cook every night, but he is still the best in the world. Leaving him when he can't do anything is hard, but I have no choice.

His name is Charlie Swan. His brown eyes once shined, but after losing my mum and knowing he is losing me, they have lost there shine. His brown mass of curls sit on the top of his head and he has a porn 'tache.

I also have the best friends ever. They are Emmett, Alice, Jasper and Edward. Rosalie is also in our little group but she doesn't talk to me much, why I don't know. We only stick to our group, but are friends with everyone.

Although they are all adopted 'siblings' they are all couples. Alice and Jasper are a couple and so are Emmett and Rose. Rose and Jasper are twins, both tall and blond. Rose has the body anyone woman would die for and is great with anything to so with cars. Boys literally drop at her feet. Jasper has a muscular body and is an expert with anything to do with war. They both don't talk to me as much as the other Cullens.

Emmett is big. I mean huge. He could pass for a body builder and is very intimidating if you don't know him. But I do. To me he is they big brother I never had. He acts like a kid constantly and is a big teddy bear.

Alice is very small. At first glance you would think she is a pixie, she is that small. She loves anything to do with shopping and dressing me up. Her short black bob flicks out at the ends and her golden eyes are stunning. She also has a curvy body and the boy drool over her, much to Japers annoyance.

Edward is a Greek god. He is literally breath taking. That is why I don't understand how he is single. His has weird bronze hair that is always messy, but he makes it look sexy. His face is perfectly angled and I always get lost in his golden eyes. His body is muscular but not to much. It is perfect.

They are all adopted siblings as well. They were all adopted at young ages by Dr. Cullen and his wife, Esme. They are like my second parents. Carlisle was my doctor, but when I found the lump in my breast I went to the hospital in Port Angeles.

Dr Cullen or Carlisle had blond hair and is muscular like all the Cullen boys. Esme has caramel coloured hair and is also curvy. Her and Carlisle make the perfect couple. I always wanted a marriage like theirs.

It has been my personal mission to complete a list I wrote the night I found out. It ad several thing on it I wrote for fun, like ride a horse, and other things that I need to do or hear. Like get my crush to tell me he loves me. Edward Cullen.

When the Cullens moved here two years ago I instantly fell head over heels for Edward. He is the only single Cullen. I asked him why and he said he just hasn't found the right girl yet. Many beautiful girls come up to him, but he just turns them all down.

At school the Cullens are the centre of attention everyday, but they don't care. They keep to themselves and don't listen to any gossip. that's what I love about them. They don't take anyone's crap.

They freak out if I get a paper cut, telling them I have cancer and am dying, it would kill them. Some people may say I am selfish by keeping something like this from them. If they do say that then I will agree. I am selfish.

I don't want to tell them because them knowing will hurt them, which would hurt me. So, yes, I am selfish. I'm selfish and I'm proud of it.

They way I think of it is I am joining my mum. I like to think she is in heaven and I will go there too. I haven't done anything wrong in my life to not go to heaven.

People have told me I am pretty. Alice tells me that everyday. I don't think I am though. I'm plain and boring and tell Alice that everyday. I have brown eyes and mahogany coloured hair that goes to my waist. It has a slight curl to it and t has a red tinge to it in the sun.

Alice says I have an amazing body and great boobs. I do have curves and a waist so I do agree with her there, but I would say it's amazing. I used to like my breasts. They aren't small but they aren't to big either. They were perfect until I fund out they are killing me. Making me suffer a slow and painful death.

My name is Isabella Swan and I have six months to live.

Please tell me what you think. I do want criticism as it tells me what I need to improve on. I hope you like what you have read and I will update as soon as possible.

Thanks for reading.

Twi-girl09

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