She doesn't get it. He likes Jade. He loves her.
He stays with Jade.
She knows it's for Jade's own good. She gets that Jade needs Beck to function.
But she does too.
She likes to pretend that someday, Beck will dump Jade and she will be waiting. She likes to think about all the times he's smiled at her, and then kissed Jade. She likes to remember all the times they've talked for hours about nothing. She likes to remember the time he told her he loved her. She likes to think he meant it.
She lies down on the grass outside Hollywood Arts and closes her eyes. She does the cheesy 'he loves me, he loves me not' flower thing and the 'maybe someday...' daydream routine. She knows it's hopeless- she pretends not to care.
She bumps into him on the hallway sometimes. She especially likes to do it when he has coffee- she gets to help clean it up.
When Jade comes into the picture it ruins everything. Jade screams pointlessly at Beck, for either no reason at all or for 'fraternizing with the enemy' whenever he looks or talks to Tori. Jade interrupts their conversations with stupid, irrelevant comments about herself and what she wants. Jade tells Beck she loves him. Jade likes to think she means it.
Jade sits on the grass outside Hollywood Arts and texts. She flirts with other guys and sends Beck an 'i kno ur with another girl; stop it' text every 5 minutes- no, seconds- even though he usually isn't. She ignores his replies. She knows she can't have full and total control over every aspect of his life- she pretends not to care.
Jade doesn't really love Beck; but Tori does.
Jade loves the way their popular together. She loves the way people look at them together. She loves the way he is sort-of like Jade's glue and whenever she is upset over something he'll somehow calm her down.
Jade doesn't love a bit of him- he's annoying, and he has a really optimistic personality that makes her wanna throw up. She loves what he does, not who he is.
Any boy could give her that.
Tori loves Beck's optimism and humor. She loves the way he can take a bad day and made it good again because he doesn't care about a million bad things; one good thing can fix everything.
That one good thing in Beck's day is always Tori Vega.
Tori likes to pretend that someday they'll grow old together. She likes to pretend they'll have 3 kids named Beck, Marie, and Kate- and a dog, Rock n' Roll (Rocky for short). She likes to pretend they'll die in each other's arms; like that movie they watched together, 'The Notebook.'
She honestly can't have everything she imagines; maybe she can have some.