Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters. I don't own South of Nowhere.

Summary: Okay so I wanted to try and work on something that has to do with a break up so... this is what I'm going with right now... Ashley and Spencer dated for 3 years before Spencer broke it off at the beginning of their sophomore year in college. And they have been broken up for about 10 days and Ashley is having a really hard time with it... It will get better you can't keep spashly apart.

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Author notes: I hope everyone that reads this story likes it. And I hope you review and tell me what you think... THANKS

The Life With In You

Chapter 1

babygirl2006

(Ashley's P.O.V)

I find myself always searching these same lonely halls. As my heart is broken yet again. I thought she was different. I thought she could make me happy for the rest of my life. But yet again I was wrong. My heart can't take this anymore. Too much pain to keep going through. People walking in and out of my life like it's nothing. Like giving someone this much pain is funny. Why are people so damn selfish. Why can't they understand the pain they cause. I would wish I could make her feel the pain I feel right now but then I wouldn't want anyone to feel the pain she caused. I loved her. I would have died for her. Yet she still pulled my heart right out and stomped on it like it was what she meant to do along. Something for the whole world to laugh at me about. I could feel everything inside of me crumble at the sight of her. Remembering everything she said. Remembering every promise she broke. Remembering every touch she made. Remembering every secret she told. Remembering how I felt when I held her or how it felt when she held me. I watch her walk by me like I'm not ever there. I feel tears build in my eyes for the fourth time that day and it's only 10:30 am. I can't take being around her not with the way I feel. My heart feels hollow. My eyes ache to look into hers once again. My mind longs to think about the happy time we had together and wants more. But all thats in my mind is the day she walked out the door and said her goodbyes. We had to make sure we had every class together. Didn't we. Make sure that we spent every waking day together. Like was was going to be together forever. After dating two years in high school and a year in college. 3 years total. Shes gonna act like we were nothing to her. Like I was nothing to her. I can't take being in the same class as her right now. I can't stand being the same dorm building as her. I can't stand being in the same college as her. I can't even stand being in the same state as her. I want to take everything back. Make her see that I still love her. Make her see that all I ever want is her. Make her see that that... I can't be in here. I got up and walked right out of the class. In the middle of the professors biggest discussion of the semester.

"What do you think you're doing?" I heard a familiar voice come from behind me. I stop died in my tracks. The sound of her voice just makes me freeze in time.

(Flashback)

"I can't do this anymore Ashley. I need space. I need to figure out what it is I'm going to do. I lo..."

"You don't love me Spence... Cause if you did you wouldn't be doing this right now. You wouldn't be breaking my heart in a million pieces than walking out that door 5 minutes later. If you loved me you would... we wouldn't be having this conversation." I screamed at her. I know its wrong for me to do. But how are you supposed to feel when the one person you love is trying to walk out of you're life like it's nothing. Like it's just something I would understand and let her go.

"Ash... It's not about breaking your heart. I just need to figure out if you are who I'm supposed to be with the rest of my life. I just need time. I need space. From you. From us." She told me. From us is what really made me break down. I didn't know what to say or what to do. Was I supposed to just let her go or say something to try and make her stay. Was I really sure she was going to stay if I said something. No I wasn't. Nothing was going to make her stay with me. Nothing could make her change her mind. Nothing and I mean nothing. So I said nothing and just watched her walk out the door.

(End of Flashback)

That day my world crumbled. That day my world went black. I stayed on my bed for days and cried after that. I didn't know what else to do. My body failed to make any movements. My heart wanting to stop beating from the pain it felt.

"What is it you think you are doing?" I heard her say again.

"What is it to you?" I screamed at her. I didn't even turn around. I couldn't look at her. I knew I wouldn't be able to say anything if I did. I would just cry.

"You just walked out of class. This is going to mess you up so bad. What do you think you're doing?" Why does she keep repeating herself.

"I can't stand to be around you. It hurts to even look at you."

"Ashley..." She started.

"Lady... I need you to come back into class and stop yelling in my halls or leave and have this conversation else where." Professor Head told us. I walked torwes the doors at the end of the hall. I don't know if Spencer following or if she went back into class and I didn't care. I need to get out of here and thats what I'm going to do.