Olivia walked in the bar and looked around. Good she said to herself she wasn't in this one. She hated nights like tonight. Tonight was Alex's night out on the town. They had been together for close to four years now when Alex came to her with the idea that one night a month they went out. Not together but separately. Hit the clubs, go on a date with other people. It's the one night a week they could sleep with another person and there could be no repercussions.
"Am I not enough for you? Do I know longer make you happy?" Olivia had asked when Alex came to her with the idea.
"You do Liv. More than you will ever know."
"Then why Alex?"
"I don't know really. It's something I want to do." Alex had told her with what looked like fear and uncertainty in those stone cold blue eyes. The blue eyes that warmed at the sight of Olivia.
"Baby if you want it you know you have. When do you want to start?"
"I was thinking next week."
"Fine" Was all Olivia could answer her. It was tearing her up inside to know that Alex needed other women to be happy. Guess I will never be enough.
Olivia walked to the bar and order a margarita. She sat there nursing it until she heard a song that peaked her interest. It was George Strait Baby Blue.
She looked so much like a lady, but she was so much like a child
A devil when she held me close, an angel when she smiled.
She always held it deep inside, but somehow I always knew
She'd go away when the grass turned green
and the sky turned baby blue
How true Olivia thought to herself. Every word fit Alex to a tee. She always knew she would leave. What could a woman of her standing see in adown to earth detective who had to work hard for everything her whole life.
Baby blue was the color of her eyes.
Baby blue like the Colorado skies.
Like a breath of spring she acme and left,
And I still don't know whySo here's to you and whoever holds my baby blue tonight
Her eyes were so blue. That's what attracted Liv to her to begin with. Their color. She had never seen eyes that blue. Eyes that were so cold and hard one minute and warm and loving the next. She didn't get the title ice princess for nothing. I just pray that whoever holds her tonight doesn't hurt her.
She brought colors to my life that my eyes had never touched
And when she taught me how to care, I never cared so much
I try not to think of her, but I fall asleep and do
And drift off to where the grass is green and the sky is baby blue.
Alex did bring color to Olivia's life. After a rough day she could go home and simply hold her and everything would be ok. There was no pushing to talk if Olivia didn't want to. She made Olivia believe that someone would want too be with her. Half her genes were alcoholic and the other was that of a rapist. She was so sure she would turn into either parent. Alex had shown her that she was neither.
Baby blue was the color of her eyes.
Baby blue like the Colorado skies.
Like a breath of spring she acme and left,
And I still don't know whySo here's to you and whoever holds my baby blue tonight
Baby blue was the color of her eyes.
Baby blue like the Colorado skies.
Like a breath of spring she acme and left,
And I still don't know whySo here's to you and whoever holds my baby blue tonight
Olivia raised her glass and sang along to the last line "So here's to you and whoever holds my baby blue tonight." Olivia brought her glass to her lips when she felt arms go around her waist and a familiar voice whisper in her ear
"I want you to hold me tonight and every night here after. I love you Olivia Benson and I only want to be with you."
Olivia turned in her seat and saw the blue eyes that she loved so much dark with desire, want and need. "Forever baby?"
"Forever"