I wanted to try a tear-jerker and when I heard this song the other night I instantly thought of this. It insanely sad and I nearly cried just thinking about it.
Disclaimer: I don't own Over You that's owned by Miranda Lambert and owns KND
Weather man said it's gonna snow
By now I should be used to the cold
"And today grab your sleds and snow boots! It's gonna snow! At least a foot by tomorrow morning!"
I missed being happy like that. Being able to enjoy the snow and stuff. I'm use to being cold, alone at night, alone in this house that use to belong to both of us. That all ended when that letter came.
Mid-February shouldn't be so scary
It was only December
I still remember the presents, the tree, you and me
That Christmas before he was shipped out was amazing! His mom and sister had gone to Poland but he decided to stay here with me and it was just us the whole evening. All the presents under the tree were from us to each other. Even though we didn't have much money it was the thought that counted.
We spent the whole evening talking about us and when he proposed, I attacked him with kisses! I was so happy that I would soon be Mrs. Fanny Drilovsky! But it was too good to last.
But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be ok
But I'm not going to ever get over you
How dare he leave me! I don't even care if he sacrificed himself! He is supposed to be here with me! Not gone and leaving me alone here on earth! Rachel and Kuki keep saying that in time I'll meet another guy and fall in love but that ain't gonna happen because I love Patton and I ain't ever gonna get over him.
Living alone here in this place
I think of you, and I'm not afraid
This house was so big. It always scared me a little but whenever that happened Patton would carry me to the bedroom and we'd make out 'till dawn. Now I just think of him and I feel better, I imagine him behind me, hugging me and telling me that if a ghost did live in this house that I probably scared it away every time I yelled at him.
Your favorite records make me feel better
Cause you sing along
With every song
I know you didn't mean to give them to me
The thing I don't think anyone but me, Natalie and the rest of the Drilovsky's knew was that Patton liked records. He loved country and rock music and those records were his pride and joy. I'd come home one day from work and as soon as I stepped in the door he would grab me and start dancing with me. He wasn't an excellent dancer but it didn't matter.
It makes me sad to look at them now. I know he didn't mean to give them to me no matter what Rachel may say.
But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be ok
But I'm not going to ever get over you
It's really sinks in when I see it in stone
Cause you went away, how dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be ok
But I'm not going to ever get over you
I go to the graveyard almost every day. It's the only place I can feel close to him now that he's dead. I just sit at his grave and cry, sometimes Natalie is there. I think it hit her harder then it even did me. She never thought her big strong brother would end up being killed in war, even when he joined the army, I don't think anyone believed it would ever happen.
I know he would want me to be happy but there is no way I can without him. I try not too but I always think back to that little Polish boy who could barely speak English that kicked me in the side of the head on the playground.
I'll never ever get over him.
Okay, that was sad. Review please!
P.S. This never actually happens but I had to try it.