A/N: This is a (sorta) continuation of Azshara's flippin' sweet fanfic called 'This Love', and I recommend you read it, or else you won't get it. Well, you will but you'll wonder where I got it from.
Like her, I don't know if I'll make full length chapters. Let's see if you guys can get into the idea first.
(A Beautiful Mistake)
I gave birth to him seventeen years ago.
And I didn't sleep.
I don't know whether it was my motherly
Or biological
Instinct
That drove me to stay awake
For him.
But
It was torture
Because the thought that
I couldn't be a mother
killed me
Because
Because
I didn't deserve him.
Because
Because
I didn't want him.
Because
Because
He's not the monster
I am.
I thought
For one moment
I could feel human
And I fell into his father's
(Beautiful words)
arms
And came out
(a beautiful mistake)
An un prepared mother
And a willing father.
I broke Haji's heart
When I told him
He left
For two weeks
And I thought this baby
Was the worst thing
To ever happen to me.
Julia told me
That
Haji
Needed some time to think
And that I shouldn't think of this baby
As a mistake
But an extension of myself
But I told her I
Can't keep it.
She told me she understood,
But told me not to kill it,
Because it could be just as human
As Riku.
I carried him
For six months
He wasn't in a cocoon
Like Diva's daughters
I carried him like a regular baby
He came out of me
And it was painful
He was alone
He was a boy
With blond hair
And red eyes
He was beautiful
And he didn't look like
He could possibly be mine.
Comments would be flippin' sweet.