My Darling Daughter,
I don't know how to say the words that you have longed to here, words that for your whole life I have longed to say to you, they are not so much words as the feelings that I have kept buried inside of me for so very very long and I have never been good with expressing my feelings not since the day that you were born, but that my sweet beautiful little girl is not your fault because if you were able to stay with me then all of the love that I have locked within me would have been because of you and only for you... my heart has been yours since the moment I found out I was pregnant, I have loved you from that very moment, to when I first felt you move inside of me, to when they placed you in my arms, to when he took you away and every single day since and everyday until I die I will always love you.
I hope that you know that all of the things the hurtful nasty things I said to you I didn't mean them, it's just when I feel people getting close I push them away I have done since you were taken away from me, but it's no excuse nobody deserves to be treated that way especially not you who did nothing to deserve that, all you did was try and get to know me. I hope that one day you will forgive me and I hope that one day I will be at least half of the mother that you deserve because even that will be better than the person I am the person I am trying not to be.
I am so proud of you, you are the kindest purest soul that I have ever met, you don't judge people you give everybody a chance, hell you have given me chance after chance and you just don't give up and I'm thankful because I will never stop trying to be the mother that you deserve.
So my darling daughter, I am sat here righting this because I want you to understand my feelings and I hope that when you read this that maybe you will even just a little bit.
And now I can hear Roxy calling me telling me the car has arrived and I can hear you next door chatting away to Stacy and Amy, SO now I'm not only your mother but the MOTHER of the most beautiful bride and I couldn't be any prouder of you, you are going to make a wonderful wife and in time when you are both ready are amazing mother hey maybe you may have even learnt a few things of me just maybe.
You go and make me even prouder than I already am and enjoy the rest of your life my darling.
Love you forever and always.
Mum xxx