I told her not to do anything reckless, to be careful. God only knows if she kept her promise. A deep, dark part of me wishes she would do something reckless. Then I would have an excuse to kill myself. But I can't now—I have my family to think about. Carlisle, Esme, Alice...Bella.
when i said good morning / i was lying / i was truly thinking of / how i might quit waking up / he pointed out how selfish / it would be to kill myself / so i keep waking up / feels so much like falling / dying while i wait to die / the fear of something or nothing / only empty lie / i don't want to be a liar / i don't want to be selfish anymore / what's supposed to change / don't think your love ever did / there's still so much left to learn / you grip my wrists, i let go / feels so much like falling / separated from the fear / aware of a destination / far away from here / feels so much like falling / separated from the fear / aware of a destination / far away from here / far away from here