I do not own the characters of Twilight, New Moon, or any of Stephenie Meyer's wonderful world of Forks and beyond. This is my interpretation of situation through the eyes of a family always getting left out during the editing process. This is my first fanfic ever so when you read and review don't be too cruel to be kind. Thank you.

Chapter One

I stared out into the sky, oblivious to everything. Tanya and the others were off somewhere still hunting and I just got back. I was spent, yet I don't know why. Today's feeding was quite successful, so I think I'm going to be fine for at least a couple of weeks. Earlier I caught the eye of some of the townsmen when I was coming back from hunting, and I was attracted to one of them. His name was Jay and I think I'll get back to him after my ennui has passed. Is it possible for an almost millennium aged vampire to get ennui? I guffawed inwardly at the thought, wishing I can tell someone…Tanya was always the favorite but I rather tell Eleazar. With his vision of the future and my knack for conveying my thoughts to him would liven the mood. It was a perfect January day here in Denali and here I was, sitting on the lawn, waiting for something while acting depressed for some unknown reason. I was being foolish, Rina said as much to me today while hunting; I could hear her now,

"Kate, you haven't had male company in a few weeks so why don't you stroll over to that cute guy Jay and just go for coffee or something. And I hope it's the latter 'cause I don't want to see you hacking out coffee and croissants later on today. Shake off whatever you got and live as well as you can dammit. We're here for a long stay", she smirked at me with her little joke. Tanya and the others smiled and I managed one to save face. But I couldn't shake off that feeling of something being amiss. I was sitting at the stoop of the porch as I realized that Eleazar was right there beside me, worried.

"What's the matter?" I looked at Eleazar quizzically. His gift was similar to our friend Alice Cullen, who is currently residing in a town in Washington; while her gift is seeing the future and its possible outcomes Eleazar sees as it's happening at the very moment, even if he's miles away and he sees the aftermath. I looked at him, curious and worried.

"Edward Cullen was about to feed off of a human."

I stared at Eleazar, horrified. He closed his eyes, obviously still immersed in Edward's turmoil. I was in shock; out of all of the Cullen's it was Edward that was about to crack. I couldn't believe it. I felt as I had gone numb, if even possible. I continued to look at Eleazar, who was as still as a statue of Atlas. He opened his eyes.

"He was close, and it seemed as if he was about to do it. He stared at her in hunger, eyes black as night. I could tell from his face he was so close. But he somehow resisted."

I breathed, startled to realize I was holding it in. I tried to think when I stopped my breathing, not that it really matter. But usually it would get uncomfortable and its something I'm used to since I still acted as a human. But alas, I don't think I can pinpoint the answer since I was still awaiting Eleazar's response.

"What stopped him?"

"That's something for you to ask. He's coming here. He's leaving Forks and the Cullens." He looked anxious and I was fully aware why. Esme. She regarded Edward as her own son, as if he was from her flesh and blood. Although she loved Emmett, Alice, Rosalie, and Jasper it was Edward she treasured above all; typical first-born favorite, so to speak. If he were leaving it must be drastic since leaving his family behind is not even heard of. He loved them too much and for him to leave…I wondered.

"How long will he stay here?"

"I'm not sure…but he's coming here to stay for awhile. I'm going to find the others and I'll keep them busy while you speak to him. You connect better with him than Tanya or even Irina", and he rolled his eyes. Irina had a huge crush on Edward when he first came here, so I can only imagine what she'll do when she finds out he's coming here. I need to talk to him and find out why he almost killed a human…then I remembered something.

"Was it a woman?" I looked at Eleazar and he turned around.

"She was a girl. Looked to be his 'age'", he quietly said. And with that he left, looking for the others. I'm sure he'll tell Tanya first; she was sort of the matriarch of the family and she loved the Cullens as much as I did. She and Carmen were the equivalent of Esme; both loved to be the maternal figures and loved watching over our family. Knowing how Rina was fascinated by him, she'll partner up with Eleazar to distract her. Carmen might suggest that they initiate a plan to get me the cute man from the town since she was aware of my attraction and knowing that I was uncharacteristically down, it will be a means of a distraction. I knew it would be at least 12 hours before Edward's arrival so I decided to go on another hunt; he was hungry for blood and desperate enough to feed off a human…no a girl…that I wonder what on earth is he doing for his food source. I know him and Emmett love to hunt for the bears in the mountains so I was more confused than ever. My cell phone rang and I answered before it even finished ringing. It was Alice.

"Edward is on his way. But I'm sure you already knew that. How much did Eleazar see?" Her tone was worried, as if he or I would be angry or disappointed with her…I wonder how much she hadn't seen.

"He saw his eyes black with hunger, and murder in his expression. I wonder how he got close and resisted in the end…" I left the sentence open-ended, hoping Alice would finish the thought.

"I feel wretched. I didn't even see that in his future, I wasn't paying attention to what was going on. I was too concerned with Jasper…" I felt a surge of sympathy and understanding; Jasper was still adjusting but sometimes the thirst was too strong for him. After many years of feeding off of humans, the new regime of our diet was torturing him. Alice continued.

"We were driving home and Edward seemed agitated. That's when I saw him plotting the poor girl's death and eventually I saw him leaving. He decided to leave Forks and head back to you and the others. But he's only staying for a few days…two days at the most." Alice's voice was sad and she must've been thinking of Esme and Carlisle.

"How did Esme react? Will I be able to speak to her?"

"Edward didn't come home. He dropped all of us off somewhere near the house and he went to the hospital to trade cars with Carlisle. Esme is beside herself, and I don't know what to do or say. She's comforted that he's coming back in a few days but she's distraught with what almost happened. I wish I can assure her that he wasn't going to kill the girl but I'm still unsure myself. It took a lot for him to leave and I'm not sure what we'll do when he comes back." Alice was resigned, but she was also distracted. I could sense it in her voice. I decided to ask her later since I was concerned of the why factor. After almost 80 years of not feeding off a human why would Edward think of killing a human, a girl nonetheless.

"Alice…" I didn't know how to ask.

"Yes?" Alice also seemed to be hedging.

"Why this girl?"

"Her blood. He was thrown off by her blood." And it clicked. Her blood…it must have been some heck of a girl to have blood that nearly drove one of the most sensible and self-righteous of our kind. Devout to his way of life…his acceptance of his eternity and fate, and years of abstaining would have been thrown off all because of a girl's blood; a girl who really was seventeen. It made me chortle and I realized a bit too late it was loud enough for Alice to hear, who I immediately knew was livid with me.

"Kate…you find it humorous that my brother was about to kill an innocent!? Something that he didn't even do when he did feed off of humans in his rebellion days?" She was definitely livid…I could swear her tone was almost murderous.

"Ally, the situation isn't funny. I can't explain now but as soon as I talk to Edward I'll have more of an idea on why I was…not laughing as hard." I felt pretty foolish but this incident certainly got rid of my ennui. And I realized something…I knew this was happening but at the same time unaware as to why. Deep down I knew this day was going to bring something extraordinary…and it wasn't over. I had to help Edward not only get through this ordeal but get him home to his family, to Esme who was probably lost without her "son". I said my goodbye and my promise to call once I had my talk with him. I stepped outside, and waited on the porch. He'll most likely be here by sunrise, and I haven't slept in almost 1,000 years so I can wait. And when he gets here we will hunt…and I will know why he almost killed a girl whose blood he thirsted for and what stopped him. And how. This week was going to be interesting and with that thought my ennui disappeared and replaced with agitation and…something else. Not dread, but as if it was something…almost positive. Oh yes, I thought to myself. This was going to be one interesting week.