Brendan's reply to Ste's letter
Dear Steven,
I already told you too move on, I can't expect you to wait half your life for me. I'm in here for a long time and I just want you to be happy. I miss you so much but I can't let you visit cause I know that you won't move on If I do…I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything I've done; the abuse, the lies, the manipulation and everything I've done to you but there were good times weren't there? You helped me to become a better man, the man I wanted to be, the man I wanted to be for you. I want you to be happy and I want you to live your life like you deserve to. Please for me just listen for once cause I know how ignorant you can be sometimes…no offence! But I love you and I love you way too much for you to suffer, I can't let you suffer, let alone for me. You made me who I am and you made me so so happy and I didn't even know what love and happiness was in till I met you, I sound like a soppy git now after writing that but I don't care cause I know that you won't care and this letter might be the boost you need to move on…I'm letting you go whether you like it or not… I don't want you to write to me anymore cause its killing me inside so I'm sorry but I'm gonna have to send the rest of your letters straight back cause I don't want to read them so you shouldn't bother writing any more. It might all sound a bit harsh but I…I just can't…I just can't be reminded that amazing things and that one person who I have ever loved is outside this prison and I won't see them again. I love you so much… never forget that…ever. See you in the next life Steven where you will get a better me.
Brendan xxx