It had been 11 months and three days since Elliot left. Olivia was still depressed. Cragen saw that,so he gave her the day off. Olivia missed him more and more with each passing day. "I know now what it feels like to love some one.i loved Elliot stabler and i let him leave.I thought he loved me i thought he cared."she wrote in a little pink book marked there was a knock at the slowly stood up and wipes the tears for her looked though the peep-hole. "what the hell." she whispered.
she opened the door.
"Elliot...wh...wh...what the hell are you doing here."
"Liv... I" "NO! stop right there when you left you lost every right to call me liv so if you think u have the right to walk in and out of my life-like that you dead fucking wrong!"Olivia exclaimed."okay fine Olivia just let me explain I don't expect you to care but please liv.I mean Olivia can I come in please." "Like hell you can!"she exclamed as she attempted to close the door in his put his hand in just the right spot to stop the door."Olivia please hear me out." Olivia knew that Elliot was stronger than she."Olivia please."he said. Olivia knew he wanted to get something off is could tell by his eyes she stared into them for a moment."Olivia please let me in". "umm... I... sure". She closed the door behind set down on the couch next to Olivia. "Elliot why..." she could feel the tears swell in her eyes she fought with everything she had to keep them from slipping down her cheek."Olivia after the shooting i couldn't function right,I could think straight.I lived with some friends but i felt like a burden so I've been with my mom for the last six months.I tryed to call but i...through my phone and when i got a new one i lost you number.I came to see you but you were never her,and I was not about to tell you i this at the squad room.I divorced Kathy the day of the shooting i told her I loved the kids but I...I didn't love her i told her that i...i love you,and it..it was the truth Olivia Marie Benson i love you." Olivia sat in shock he had told her he loved her not once but three times."Elliot I loved you for thirteen years..."she thought for a second" No I do love you I...I...I just don't wanna be hurt again"she said still fight the tears."liv I will never in my life hurt you again" he said "i want to hold you and be there for you al..." Olivia cut him off "No,Elliot it not going to happen like this were going to start over as friends if it goes farther than that then it does if it doesn't then it doesn't understand."she said looking into his beautiful blue eyes."thats perfect thank you so much liv."he said just as he stood up and walked to the was just about to open it when Olivia called his name he turned around "yes liv" she shook her head no "Olivia remember." " oh ya sorry Olivia... I'll call you alright" "that sounds good I'll see you around" she said as she stood up and walked to the door. Elliot had opened it. "by Olivia" he said as he started to walk away she closed the put her back up against it only to feel a some one knock."Olivia" elliot said from the other side of the sigh knowing what he had grabbed a piece of paper and a pen she neatly wrote down he name and number she opened the door "ugh i forgot" Olivia cut him off" I know here" she handed him the slip of looked at it "thank you" he said flashing a smile full of was a guffy smile but Olivia loved it. Once she closed the door she wanted so badly to kiss laid down in her warm cozy bed and fell fast asleep.
Elliot pulled up into Kathy's drive way. He mad his way to the door he answered the door "What" she said a bit agitated."I want to see eli I've gotten to see marine,Kathleen,Elizabeth, and I can't see Dickie until he gets out of army training."No i have custody since you left if IF you can get a judge to give you joint custody then you see him!" "watch me" Elliot said as he turned his back to her he walked back to his herd Kathy slam the door he sat in frustration.
Olivia woke up to her phone ringing "Benson" she answered knowing that the only people calling her at eight o'clock would be either cragen or nick her new partner.
"sorry to wake you Benson but we caught a case and nicks daughter is sick so i need you here early about nine." captain donald cragen said
"ugh okay but only because poor little Zara is sick. tell nick he owes me."she said sitting up in her bed "you can tell him when he comes you in a bit " "ya see ya"she hung up. she slowly got out of bed and got dressed.
Elliot had woken up laid awake thinking of Olivia. The sweet smell of her perfume,the color of her flawless tan skin to her sparkling bid beautiful brown eyes. he stopped him self. I need to quit thinking of her like that if I am going to be her friend he said to him self in his head. He reluctantly got up and dressed for was 10:30 he was debating whether he should call her or not. He decided to wait until 2:30
When two thirty came around he called."hey" she answered. Elliot had never heard her answer the phone that way."Olivia im sorry to call you at work,but I was hoping that when you get off we could maybe go out to dinner.I know a place,and as friends of course." "oh ya ill ask my boss if i could get off at least by 8,so we can a least by 9 I'll call you back after i ask but no matter what I still want to hang out with you today" "alright..Olivia will you do me a favor "Elliot asked."ya " Olivia answered "ugh this is gonna sound bad but I don't really to want people to know that im back in town so could not tel anyone" "ugh to be honest I didn't plan to this is going to sound well weird but I would like to be able to talk to you without munch or fin well you know."she made sure to whisper this so fin didn't hear."ok thanks and ya i know what you mean".Olivia relized that fin was walking her way."hey I got go "she said."okay bye Olivia". fin was getting closer to her desk"ya ill see you later bye " she said has she hung up and placed the phone on the desk and attempted to look bussey."Baby girl if you don't mind my asking who were you taken to?"he asked with a questioning look on her face." umm .. it was a friend ill tell you some other time."she said quickly,opening to avoid any walked to cragens door before she could even knock he opened it."Oh Olivia I was just about to get you."Olivia was in bit of a shock the last time she had been in his office was three weeks ago when she nearly beat the perp to stepped aside "take your seat".she sat in the second chair,because the first one was Elliot's he had sat in it many times."okay olivia David called about three minutes ago he said he need to talk to whats going on between you two?" "What...Nothing we...do you want the truth?" "Well...yes"he answered a bit unsure "we were in a relationship we ended it because his job" "okay stop right all i need to what do you need?" "ugh...well i was hoping that i could get off a little early?"she asked this very hesitant."can i ask why."he looked a bit puzzled."Well i meet some one and we have a da.."cragen cut her off. "Say no more,but olivia the parents of the dead girl are going to want to know who raped and murdered there if you can close the case then you can leave ill get nick...or fin to do the paper work" "Okay well what if i don't close the case?" "Then when you run out of leads."
"Okay thank you." she rushed out of his office graded fin from his desk."can you be my partner today?" "okay what can i do?"
Olivia called Elliot back there was no answer she left a message. "Hey look i cant really talk now i just called to tell you i wont be able to make it ill call you when i do get of okay im sorry."