It was all quiet, late at night, she opened her eyes. Darkness. It was all dark. What had happened? Had it all been just a bad nightmare? She put a hand on her face, dry tears, and new starting to form, sadness suddenly invaded her body.
She turned on the light next to her. She was in her bedroom. It was all real. It was the real world. As soon as she woke up, she wanted to escape reality again and go back to sleep, to dream, to go somewhere better, even if it was all just a fantasy, but her thoughts wouldn't let her. Going back and forth over things. She closed her eyes once more, tried harder to stop thinking. It was pointless; He was already in her mind. His voice, his words, the conversation from last night was playing in her head over and over…
-"I want YOU on my side. We can do this together. You are going to be my First Lady" He sounded so sure of their plan, why couldn't she feel the same way?
-"I can't leave them. They need me. I am their Gladiator"
Excuses. She could always find an excuse. But this time it was different. She knew the truth; she knew something that he couldn't. It was so big that it had the power to change it all, it could make everything go wrong and she couldn´t allow it. She had to keep her secret with her. Safe. She wanted some normal, even if she knew it was not really possible, she wanted the house in the country, the jam, everything.
She couldn't be so selfish. She wanted him, she really did, but he was not hers to have. Not for now at least.
She knew this was not going to be an easy road, but she would do her best. There was still a bit of hope very deep in her heart, everything would work out, maybe not now, tomorrow, or next year, but someday. And with last thought she could go back to sleep, to dream, to a place where everything was perfect, until she wakes up again...
Okay, i am going to try once more. This time i will try to finish it and i hope this time my computer doesn't break :)
Please tell me if you like it and if I should keep writing.
I really love u all Gladiator! i love reading your craziness, you are all great! Can Not wait until October 3rd!
Love. Sophie.