"Sakura, I don't know if I write this with hopes of you finding it or it being lost forever, but I really need to get this thoughts out of my head and it really seems that tainting this white paper with my dark ink as my thoughts flow along the empty paper helps with my state of my mind. If you ever find this, please forgive that it's such a mess, I'm writing as I think and thinking as I write, I honestly wonder what I'm even doing… It's been too long since we last spoke, it may have been merely a few days but it feels like ages to me, I can't help but wonder what you're doing, who you're with, if you're happy or sad if you have someone by your side, as much as I hate it, it might be my cute little descendant who's there for you when I can not… I know that I have no right to complain, after all, I decided that I would step away and let him take you, I would merely orchestrate little details so you could remain happy, innocent and cheerful, the same bright Sakura I saw all the way back when I, or rather Clow, decided that the cards would be yours, I have loved you so dearly for so long, you just have no idea… but I don't trust myself to be enough, to be what you deserve or maybe just not what you want, I know this are all excuses created by my insecurity, I may have once been the most powerful sorcerer alive but that doesn't mean I'm exempt from this fears. You are both my weakness and my strength, I created everything perfectly for you, I made Yue perfect night and Yukito kind to help you, be there for you and while having the calm stillness of night also having somewhat cheerfulness of the sun, he truly is like a cute little bunny, hence his name. I made sure there would be people to support you, I made sure somebody (other than me) would love you and be able of keeping you safe, I couldn't entrust a precious gem like you to just anyone, but, somehow my perfect plan just wasn't perfect, you fell for the moon bunny and not the ethereal Yue, sure it was partially out of the attraction you had to his magic but I know there was more to it than that, then came my cute little descendant, he was a proper rival, though I often worried that he might do something rash and hurt you, and yet, look at this ironic turn of events, the most imperfect and unplanned, Li Syaoran, was the one you found to make you happy… I guess… I wasn't expecting it. It's amusing, and so long as you're happy, then so am I, however, if he ever does anything to hurt you he won't see the end of a living hell. Sakura, my Sakura how I wish I could call you that… but you are not mine, I let you go… no, I never had the courage to have you be mine, I never took the chance, I wanted to, but I never thought of myself as enough… and even so, I can't help but notice the slight problems that have begun in your relationship with him and feel the tiniest bit of hope, I truly am twisted and hopeless aren't I? I hope you forgive me, I won't interfere, and for once, I almost slightly wish for you to have that one moment of sadness, if only for my selfish self to be able to steal you, captivate you, show you wonders and never ever let you go. My Sakura, I have loved you since forever and I'll love you for longer than eternity, If only I could have the chance to be by your side, if only I could be the one, could you ever find it in yourself to give this fool a chance? A chance to make you happy, a chance to be there for and with you, a chance to be yours and have you be mine… to be my sweet cherry blossom forever… though, I know, forever is an unrealistic ideal, but for this once I want to believe, that it'll somehow come to be… our forever"