Title - The Life
Author - Ashley aka Ginger
Rating - PG 13 I guess
Disclaimer - I don't own Jake and the song is "The Life" by Alicia Keys

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Jake walked slowly up to the door of his room. He walked in slowly and turns on the radio beside his bed. Jake threw himself down on his bed. Slowly, the music consumed his thoughts........

"Everyday I realize that this might be the last day of my life
Walking down the street I find that I'm coming closer and closer to losing my mind
Isn't life worth more? I don't even know what I'm hustlin' for"

The images of all the cases he's ever done rush through his mind. He has escaped the narrowest situations, unharmed. Others he hadn't been so lucky. Jake had been to too many Agent's funeral's to think that he could dodge death for long. The question was when would lady luck not be on his side anymore. If he hadn't been able to work at the shelter and help the kids like him, Jake didn't know what he would have done. They kept him sane. It allowed him to get his tortured mind off of his own problems. He was so confused about what life was supposed to be like. Jake had thought you were supposed to lead your life for yourself. But he didn't know anymore. Who was he living for anyway?

"You've gotta do what you gotta do just to make it through
All the hard times that's going to face you
This is the life, striving to survive"

But then Jake realized he knew what he had to do. He couldn't give up. Ever. Too many counted on him. He would let too many down. Sure things get rough. But that's when he'd have to be tougher. One step ahead. Never a thought behind. He chose this walk of life and he would live it through. He would be a better man than any ever thought he would be. Then anyone ever that he could be. Life was about living another day. No one's life was perfect. His was probably the farthest off. But by living the life he did, then maybe others could have better lives themselves. With the people he took down, then mothers could sleep at night knowing those thugs were off the street.

"Living will always be a struggle looking for someone to love you"

He didn't have a real family. He never did. And deep inside Jake had always feared he never would. But something inside him told him not to fear. He did have a family. He had Father Michael, and all the others at Holy Cross. He had the kids. The kids who showed him what life really was.

Alex. Alex knew what it was like to be him. They knew each other's thoughts and what they we're going through. Alex would always be there for him and he would do the same for her. Alex and Jake had a kind of bond that just couldn't be described.

Jake smiled as he thought of Cody. Kind of like a younger brother he had never wished he had until he met Cody. He was so full of life and could make a joke out of any situation. He would never laugh if Cody hadn't been around.

Monica was still distant to him after what he had said about the whole cop case, but he knew she would do anything for him, as he would for her. And he trusted her completely. After all, she held his life in her hands with every profile she created for him.

Though Donovan was still a mystery to all of them, Jake had the kind of respect he would have a had for a father. Donovan was a great leader, even if he was distant. Jake knew despite his coldness, Donovan's door would always be open.

"Looking back at single horrors, this madness makes me want to hide"

Jake had seen more tragedy in his life than he hoped anyone would ever see. Sometimes the horrors threatened to take over his life. And he couldn't find the line. The line between work and a normal life. But in his job, there was seldom a line there. And when it was there it was blurry and hard to find. Jake wondered if he would ever find that line.

"This is the life, trying to survive"

Jake wondered what it would take to survive. Too many had already told him he wouldn't make it. There was no use. Those people's words came back to haunt him. Loser. No good. Never going to make it. Trash. Dog. He would make it. He would survive. He had too. Too many people had told him he wouldn't. So now he knew he had to.


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Ok so what do you think? I hope you liked it! You think I should do one for each of the characters? I already got a good song for Alex! Well I hope you enjoyed it and please R & R