~Wish I could go back~

I wish I could go back

To the way things used to be

I wish I could go back

To before I became me

Back when I was so innocent

And I wasn't afraid to care

Back when life was just so simple

Before people had a reason to stare

To before that fateful day

The day I lost my friends

The day I lost my faith

The day my happiness would end

Because when I lost my friends

I thought I could live no more

In such a lonely life

Wondering what I was living for

And I guess that's when I changed

Became what I am now

Became the girl no one knows

And lived through it all somehow

But I distanced myself

From the ones that I loved most

And from that day on

Wouldn't let anyone get close

Because of all this pain

Lying forever in my heart

Because all of that pain

Kept tearing me apart

And making me feel

So completely alone

And into this hateful life

I was seemingly thrown

And now my greatest enemy

Is none other then me

And so it took me so long

Before I could finally see

That I was in such denial

Didn't know what to do

Afraid of what was to come

And what I'd go through

Cause now I have them back

Yet so distant I have been

Cause I'm just so terrified

That I'll lose them again

And if I did

I don't think I could survive

And so from all of them

My feelings I will hide

And I'm just so confused

Wishing it was all just a bad dream

And I'd wake up as that little girl

As a member of the team

And I wish I could go back in time

So that I could fix it all

Wish I could go back in time

Back to when I was small

Cause then things would be different

I just know that they would be

If only that sweet little girl

Hadn't turned into me.