BUFFY
"I don't understand theology or dimensions or any of that really…but I think I was in heaven…" she didn't think she was in heaven she knew she was…everything was peaceful…she didn't have to fight to live or suffer the heartache of love anymore…Riley was gone and Angel left her…but she didn't care…white light, that's all she saw…that's all she wanted to see…she was talking with her mom, living a normal life and then it happened…there was noise…chanting…'Osiris, keeper of the gate, master of all fate, hear us. Before time, and after. Before knowing and nothing. Accept our offering. Know our prayer.' Buffy was happy…she fought it…she didn't want to go back to that hell…the chanting increased… 'Osiris, let her cross over!' Buffy knew that voice…Willow…time stopped her mothers grip was loosened and she was torn out…the next thing she knew, after a year or two, her hazel eyes opened. Her breath was slow and shallow, she couldn't breathe, she was back…Buffy couldn't rest anymore…she had to fight…like she would for the rest of her life for the second time…she beat at the oak casket they had sealed her in and climbed out of the grave…she couldn't feel the pain on her knuckles or the raw blood smeared onto her dirty hands…there was nowhere to go except back to the place where it started…the tower…she was about to jump and reenact the movement when she heard a noise… 'Buffy?" A pause. "Is it really you?" She closed her eyes and ignored it…feeling the shaking beneath her…"WE HAVE TO GET OFF THIS TOWER!" Searching her brain for the memories. "Dawn…" she whispered, tears sparkling in her eyes…Once again she saved the day...Spike saw her and she could feel his emotions…he knew she was at peace…after all you can't rest anymore than when you're dead…she told him…SPIKE of all people her secret…oh well there's nothing she could do now except try again…every night she sobbed about things and then Sweet came…the demon…she was done… 'Life's a show, you don't get to rehearse…and every single verse…can make it that much worse.' No she couldn't tell them…yet the words seemed to leak out… 'still my friends don't know why I ignore the million things or more I should be dancing for…all the joy life sends…family and friends…all the twists and bends…knowing that it ends…well that depends…on if they let you go…on if they know enough to know…that when you've bowed…you leave the crowd…' she stared into the eyes of that demon and then at her friends…tears glistening in her eyes… 'there was no pain…no fear no doubt…till they pulled me out…of heaven…' damn it she told… 'so that's my refrain…I live in hell 'cause I've been expelled from heaven…I think I was in heaven…' she looked around and then caught the eye of the demon… 'SO GIVE ME SOMETHING TO SING ABOUT! PLEASE GIVE ME SOMETHING…' this was it…she was gonna see her mom again…she would see everybody…she danced…she didn't care what she did…she couldn't feel the pain…numb relief filled her spirit…but of course once again spike had to save her…damn spike…