I know I know, new story and I can't even update #POTS. I'm so so sorry about that but I lost all my info on my ipod and I finally have a laptop so I'm trying to get it all back. So if you read that please be patient.

AU Finchel.

Hope you like it, this was supposed to me a one shot but my imagination took it further.

Finn awoke from his nap and gently brushed his hand over his face. Letting out a soft sigh he turned towards the other side of the bed to see where Rachel would be laying, she wasn't. Finn quickly sat up on the bed making his head spin, you should know that Finn has a fear of Rachel leaving him.
He doesn't know why, but whenever she just dissapears like that he freaks. It has happened since he was a young boy and had first met Rachel.
Antytime another boy got close to her, just to ask her what the homework was he would star paniking thinking that she was going to choose that little boy over him. She always told him otherwise but that fear was always at the back of his head.

"Rachel?" He called out. No answer. Finn's breathing started getting heavier and his heart was beating way too fast for his liking.
He stood up off the bed and walked over to the bathroom where he thought Rachel would be. She wasn't. He tried to slow his breathing as he walked out into the living room.

"Rach?" His voice croaked.

"Finn she just went out for some coffee." He hadn't noticed his brother Kurt sitting on a kitchen stool eating some cereal.

"Are you sure? Did she tell you that?" Kurt nodded swallowing down some cereal.

"Finn, maybe its time to see the doctor about those anti-panic pills? it's getting worse." Finn shook his head.

"No Kurt, I'm not crazy o-or sick."

"I'm not saying you are but maybe they could help?" Finn wallowed over to the fridge, opening it and grabbing himself some orange juice.

"Maybe, but what if they just make whatever this is worse? The doctor said it was a possibility, Kurt, if this gets worse than it already is, she'll leave me." Kurt sighed putting his empty bowl in the sink.

"Finn, she won't Rachel loves you so much. She won't leave you, in sickness and in health remember?" Finn looked down at his bare feet thinking that maybe Kurt was right, it was time to see a doctor. Just when he finished that thought the door opened and the voice of his lovely wife filled the apartment.

"Is Finn awake y-" Before Rachel could finish Finn had tackled her into a bear hug.

"You came back." Finn said as he nuzzled his nose in her hair, the smell of strawberries (her favorite shampoo, that he accidentaly baught her one day) filled his nose.

"Of course I did, don't I always?" She said pulling away and kissing his cheek.

"Yeah, yeah you always do." He watched her go around the counter and place the coffee beans in the grinder.

"Kurt if you want you can go now." Rachel said to Kurt, Kurt nodded and took his keys off the counter walking towards the door.

"Bye lovebirds! I'll see you at the dinner on Sunday."

"Bye Kurt!" Rachel yelled across the kitchen towards the door. He walked over to her putting his arms around her, resting his chin in the crook of her neck.

"You scared me." She tensed a bit but relaxed immidiately.

"I'll never leave you, you know that."

"I do, but I think Kurt's right, I-I should go see a doctor." Rachel turned around making Finn let go of her.

"Are you sure? Its up to you." She smiled reasuringly and held his hand.

"Yes, I want to get better, for you." Rachel's smile got wider.

"You also have to do it for you Finn." Finn nodded and smiled.

"I'm doing it for us. Can you book the appointment with Doctor Barr?" Rachel gently pushed past Finn and into the living room where she had set down her purse, fishing out Dr. Barr's card from her wallet she walked over to the phone and dialed.

"Hello, yes I'm very good thank you, I was wondering if I could book an apointment with Doctor Barr?" Finn coudn't hear the other voice, but Rachel was nodding along to everything the other person was possibly saying.

"Anything this week?" Silence. "Yes, Wednesday works perfect, thank you so much, have a nice day." She hung up and turned towards him.

"Wednesday at Three in the afternoon." Finn inhaled and exhaled slowly.

"Okay, this is a good thing." Rachel took his hand and pulled him back to the kitchen.

"I believe that everything will turn out okay, it's not that bad Finn." A frown took over Finn's face.

"Are you being serious right now? Not bad? Rachel, everytime you're out of sight I freaking can't breath and I feel like I'm going to have a heart attack!" Rachel placed her soft hand on his cheek, calming him down.

"It's not like that, but you'll see the doctor will make everything better." She quickly returned to grinding the coffee beans.

"Fresh coffee's my favorite."

"I know Rach." Rachel turned around with a pout on her face.

"Finn." "I'm just worried, I need to go work, Oh! Wait, I can't because I can't be away from you, I can't give you space." His voice broke at the end, walking over to the couch. Tears started pouring from his eyes, his body shaking with sobs.

"Oh Finn." Rachel sat down next to him, wrapping her arms around him. A few tears falling from her eyes.

"I just want to be normal." "You are, you're normal Finn. It'll all turn out fine." Finn shook his head.

"This." He gestured to himslef. "This is not normal, I'm screwed up."

"You are not! You are perfect Finn! You are perfect to me, I love you and I will never leave you." Finn's breathing started to even out as he stopped crying.

"Thank you, I love you so, so much."

"I know you do Finny." He ususally had these attacks, they didn't have to be talking about his "condition" they just randomly happened.

"You're never going to finish making that coffee, I don't think you need it anyways. I'ts Five."

"Maybe something else can keep me awake for a little longer?" Finn lifted his eyebrow as a cheeky grin took over his face.

"I think it'll put you right to sleep when we finish." Rachel stood up walking over to their bedroom. Finn looked down at his would be okay. He would be fine and he could still be with Rachel. Remembering what was waiting for him in the other room, he put his worries aside and sped off to make love to his beautiful wife.