Torn – Prologue

Oh. My. God. Sirius Black is in love with me. What should I do? I mean he obviously isn't going to e open about it because he's friends with Potter and he usually scares any bloke off who likes me. I mean I used to like Black in first year before I knew what he was like. The there was the kiss. Yes, last year when I was shouting at him after pulling a prank he kissed me. It felt so good and I forgot who I was kissing for a moment and deepened it, when I remembered it was him. I pushed him away and shouted at him asking what he was thinking. All he did was ask me not to tell Potter.

Argh! Potter, the arrogant bigheaded bully. The pathetic guy has been after since first year. The first time I saw him he sat next to me saying 'how's my future wife doing?' As if I'd marry that prat, he's so conceited its unbelievable. He thinks because he's good at quidditch and has his little fan club. Ok so he's good looking with messy black hair, hazel eyes and being very muscular. In the whole school he was on a par with Black. Oh what should I do? Black's a ladies man. Wrong WAS a ladies man, now he has a one track mind like Potter.

Chapter One

I can't believe im doing this, Prongs is my best friend but I love Lily. Which loyalty is more important, the one to my best friend or the one to my heart?

"Please don't go we have to talk. You know how I feel about you." Sirius said with a pleading look in his eyes.

"I can't, you know that, he's your best friend it would break him. I love him, im sorry." She said walking away from him and towards her friends.

Sirius stood there watching the love of his life walk away. Her fiery red hair bouncing elegantly on her shoulders, her green eyes sparkling with excitement as she chatted with her friends. This was Lily Evans, his best friend's girlfriend and the love of his life.

"What's up with you mate?" James asked him.

"Nothing Prongs, nothing" he replied, "Why don't we go and bother Snivellus, eh? It's about time we did something to that greasy git." He said with a smirk.

"Actually I was going to see Lily, do you wanna come?"

"And watch you two lovebirds have a snogfest? Nah I'll see what Mooney's up to."

"Okay but you're gonna miss out cause Rose is there and you keep saying you like her." James said informingly.

I only told you I liked Rose so you wouldn't realise I was in love with your girlfriend, Sirius thought.

"You know what they say absence makes the heart grow fonder and everything. Just trying to maker her like me more than she already does."

"Don't think that's possible Padfoot"

"Im off to see Mooney then. Bye mate."

Sirius walked away in deep thought. Lily had known for months that he loved, even before she was with James. I should have tried harder; if I had maybe she would be mine. Sirius had revealed to his fellow marauder and friend Remus Lupin that he had feelings for Lily and although shocked at first pointed out the same thing she had, it would break James to see them together. But Lily loved James, she had told him that many times. A distant voice shook him from his thoughts.

"Padfoot, you still in this world?" Mooney said

"Yeah, sorry I was just thinking." Sirius said with a dull tone.

"Let me guess you've tried talking to Lily again?"

Sirius nodded.

"I don't see why you just don't give up. She's with James and has made it perfectly clear that she doesn't want to be with you. Just try and get over her, of course it will be hard, im not saying that it won't be. But just try." Mooney said. He really wanted to help his friend but Sirius had to help himself first.

"I've tried, you know I have, but I just can't get her out of my head. It's like she's haunting me and do you know she's the only girl EVER to say no to me?" Sirius said exasperatedly.

"I know and it was the only time I've seen you really upset over a girl but –"

"But she's not just a girl Mooney," cutting him off in mid-sentence. "She's the love of my life, the one I want to be with forever, the one I want to hold when she's upset, the one I want to kiss goodnight and the one I eventually want to have my children with."

Remus sat there stunned, he had known that Sirius had strong feelings for Lily but never knew they had grown to this. If he had closed his eyes it could have easily have been James a few months ago.

They heard thumps on the stairs and their dorm door burst open to reveal a very happy James. Unbeknown to the 2 marauders in front of him Lily had just told him that she loved him for the very first time, and to top it all he heard the way Sirius felt for Rose. He thought it was best to sneak back down the staircase and come bouncing up so they wouldn't suspect that he had overheard their conversation.