Why?

Jocelyn D. Hoover

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Joce: Rewriting chapters 1 through 3. I don't own Final Fantasy 8 or any of the characters, I just own own the OCs. Laughs evilly. Rape, Yaoi, Yuri, Angst, Violence, etc cetera, Humor… Uh..

Mixen: Enjoy reading!

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Zell still remembered when he was around 4, how could he not? Even using the Guardian Forces as much as he did didn't get rid of those horrid memories. How his father had lied and told him he'd enjoy it. But it was a big fuckin' lie, so much pain and blood, and his screams filled the air. How his mom came home and dropped the groceries on the floor and screamed. She took a kitchen knife and waved it at his father, threatening to leave his half-conscious body alone.

"You leave my baby alone Leonard! Leave Zell alone! Now!"

"Elaine, he's got to know how it feels."

"You're a sick twisted monster you bastard! Go to hell! He's only 4!!"

Elaine bent down and picked up her sobbing son, his big baby blue eyes squeezed shut in pain, blonde hair stained with blood. She walked into the living room and picked up the phone, calling the police. They got to the house in a matter of minutes and brought an ambulance with them. Leonard Zabac was arrested for rape and Zell Zabac, soon to be Dincht, was sent to the hospital in his mothers' arms.

Zell shuddered at the memory, and he went back to thinking, remembering what happened after that.

"Matron, could you take care of my son? I... I can't keep him with me, sister, Leonard has done a terrible thing to him."

"It's alright, Elaine. Of course I'll take care of my nephew."

"Don't tell him about me, Leonard, Ward or you... He doesn't need to know."

"Mommy! Daddy he-"

"I know, baby, but he's never going to get you again, I promise, you won't even have to remember him, if you don't want to."

"Ellone."

"Yes Matron?"

"Zell."

Ellone nodded and took Zell, who clung to her like a lifeline, "It's OK, I'm Ellone, or as all the kids call me, big sister."

Zell stared at her, "I want mommy."

Ellone hugged him, "I'm sorry, Zell, but you have to stay here, OK?"

Zell started to cry as Ellone took him out back. Elaine turned to Matron, and started to cry. Matron moved up to her and wrapped her arms around her sister.

"It's alright, nothing bad will happen to Zell, we'll make sure he gets the best home he can get, nothing bad will happen to my nephew. Your husband is a sick twisted man, you and Zell aren't, you two are two of the most precious things to Ellone and I."

Elaine looked up at her sister, using the words Ward had used, "He is no husband of mine."

Matron looked down at her sister, "Nor is he any brother-in-law of mine."

Zell let out a sob and stated bitterly, "He is no father of mine."

"Huh? Say somethin' Zell?" Irvine asked, spinning around in his chair again.

Zell looked up, "No, nothing."

"You're lying." Seifer stated.

Zell glowered at him, "Who said I was lying?"

"You're crying, and bitter."

Zell blinked, and began to reach up to wipe his tears when Squall reached out and cleaned his face off with a handkerchief, causing Zell to flinch.

"And you're flinchy." Squall stated quietly.

"I... I... it's nothing, I don't want to talk about it." Zell stated.

"YEEEEEEEEEEEEE HA-WOAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!" Irvine yelled, spinning the chair really fast this time and literally flying out of it and on top of a surprised Seifer.

"Ouch..." both boys muttered.

"Grrr...Would you get offa' me? Damned moron." Seifer muttered throwing Irvine off.

"Ow! Hey, that's mean."

"Bite me." Seifer said, sticking his tongue out and pulling down his eye lid.

Zell burst out laughing, startling everyone. Zell stopped laughing, smiling, he said, "Thanks for cheering me up guys, by the way Seifer, what were ya' thinkin' about before Irvine flew on top of you?"

Seifer grinned, "Thinkin' about the first time the gang and I met you, you were four and so small and frail, with those big baby blue eyes and bright blond hair."

Ellone walked into the room, smiling sadly. Three 4 year-olds and two 5 year-olds ran up to her, eager to see what she had this time.

A chibi Seifer, climbed on top of a chair and poked at the boy in Ellone's arms, "Who's zat?"

"This is Zell, Zell, this is Seifer, Squall, Irvine, Quistis and Selphie." Ellone said, setting him down.

Zell instantly started to cry again, "I want mommy!"

Ellone sighed, this was going to take a while.

Seifer frowned, "But you were so scared, and even up to today we don't know why, you know how long it took you to atleast give ANY of us a grain of trust?"

"Um, a whole damn year?"

"Exactly."

Irvine grinned, "I was the first one out of the group to be trusted."

"Hey, Zell! Zellllllllllllllllll!!! Where are you?" a five year old Irvine walked around the front of the orphanage, spotting a monster reaching into one of the buildings. He pulled out his wooden stake and ran up, stabbing it in its only eye. It screeched and squirmed for a few minutes before it died, falling flat down. He went inside the building and found Zell.

"Why WERE you in there anyway?"

"I wanted to be left alone for awhile, and you guys wouldn't stop irritating me. Hey guys, I'ma gonna go hit the sack." Zell said. Everyone nodded and Zell began to walk to the dormitories. He spotted a frail women in her late 30s, she spotted him, and both stopped for a moment.

"Zell..."

"Mom..."

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Joce: Ok, I fixed up chapter one. Now for number two. Ja ne!