Hey everyone, it's really nice to finally be posting this story! It's been in the works for quite some time. It's as much a relief as it is making me nervous to share this story with you. Even though it's technically being posted second it's really my first official Liley story. Many of y'all may have read my story "Under a Louisiana moon" and don't worry I haven't given up on that. Note this story is a three shot, and I have the entire story mapped out in my head. So even though seems to have a sad ending it's not the end so have no worries. Also I want to again thank Helen my amazing stenographer who took her time to correct this story. Also to a certain new friend, you know who you are, who changed my perspective on Liley stories, this story was inspired by all we've talked about. Thank you so much for being there and listening. You're an awesome writer and make my evening amazingly fun. Also I don't own Hannah Montana, because if I did Oliver and Lilly would never have dated; seriously no! So without further ado....

Let your Life Be Your Dream

Chapter 1: Remembering Lilly

Even now though two years had come and gone Miley's memory wouldn't let her forget. From her bed, she'd imagined many times; Lilly still looking at the photo by her bed. There a smiling Lilly and Miley had been captured hugging. She brushed a tear away, seeing the happiness she'd once had. The memories, served only to haunt her, as they were now as she traced the words, a younger ignorant Miley had written. The diary, the little book that held her own secret. Bigger than any before, about the love she'd never expressed. Hidden from everyone she loved as her own life passed.

Miley felt the tears, beginning as she tried to take a deep breath. Her phone lay beside her open with the text that broken her heart more. It was from her best friend Oliver, it was simple, he didn't know it would hurt her. He didn't know, only Lilly knew at least part of the truth. Oliver had just wanted to inform how excited he was about tonight.

They'd been together for 8 months and tonight Miley knew. Oliver was taking her to the expensive Restaurant on the Sea. He'd been saving for weeks for this anniversary even though technically it had been two weeks before. He'd been holding out until he had enough money. The reason made Miley cringe inside, as she remembered she'd been at that same restaurant the irony wasn't lost. Since it had been with Lilly too. Though the two had looked different. As the girls had dressed as their alter egos; as Lola Luftnagle and Miley as the famous Hannah Montana. It had been a benefit for Autism, and costly though Miley hadn't minded. It was for a good cause and she remembered sadly all the fun they'd had. As they had left, Lilly had grabbed her hand. She'd smiled shyly and told her she'd gotten her a present.

Miley brushed another tear way, but a few still fell down on the journal. Her own tear drops were still visible on the pretty flowered page where she'd cried over the words before. This simple little diary, that knew all her secrets. This little book, with different flowers on each page and ironically this page was a Lily. This little book had been Lilly's gift to her. Miley had been so surprised, but Lilly simply reached out and hugged her. Letting her warm arms hold Miley, leaving her feeling cold when she pulled back.

Now only that morning Oliver had pulled her aside to tell her about his plans for Lilly. The restaurant itself was also an Inn. He hadn't said as much but Miley knew what was on his mind. Why he'd waited until this weekend.

The whole night, this Friday night without Lilly was going to be too painful for words. Miley knew as she wondered …

Does Lilly remember two years to this day, she changed our lives? Did I mean so little that she has forgotten? Or else why would she have let Oliver take her out tonight?

Knowing the inevitable was coming, she began to read. Her voice shaking, and thick with emotion as she barely saw the page from the tears.

"Dear Diary

April 19 2008

Something strange happened today. Its raining outside, and I hear thunder, does that mean everything is changing. I am crying now remembering how mom passed away. It was raining then too. But this entry isn't about mom, its about Lilly. I can't believe how terrible the evening turned out. I wouldn't have even bothered to write now, if Lilly hadn't left in tears. We were watching her favorite movie, Moulin Rouge again. She draped her body with my bed sheet and that made me laugh. As she danced around the room to "Come what may" and her voice that had improved. Even came out shy at first but it got stronger and she came over to me singing. " But I'll love you till the end of time...come what may.." Her eyes were shinning and I was giggling. She'd never sang to me before, so I really should have realized there was something different. Or the fact that she took my hand and squeezed it. Suddenly she stopped and she smiled shyly. Just as she had at the Autism benefit last month. She bit her lip and I knew something was bothering her. So I just asked her if she was okay. She was staring at me with such intensity that I felt my cheeks turning red. She began to stutter that she was okay but when I looked into her blue eyes I saw such fear that I felt my stomach lurch like after I eat Uncle Earls soup. Lets just say the chicken wasn't really chicken. Then a lone tear began to trace down her cheek and I reached out for her. But she pulled away and said "Miley I don't want to hurt you." I looked back at her confused and she knew it. She told me she had a secret. She said she couldn't lie or hide it anymore because of how it hurt her. I tried again to hug her like I always do when she cries. She put her hand up and said she wanted me to know the truth. That maybe if I heard it I wouldn't want to hug her. I am going to write down exactly what I remember direct quotes. Not as though I'll ever forget what she said. "Miley" she said "Miley I think maybe I am bisexual!" I am reading these words again and I still don't believe she said that. She was looking at me waiting for me to get angry and tell her I hated her I guess. I wrapped my arms around her and told her it was okay. That I was here for her. Then I asked how she knew, and I guess I realized when I said those words. Looking up from in my arms she said "it's because I am in love with you Miles." My mouth dropped open and she must have taken it the wrong way. She pushed back from me and looked even more scared. I felt so confused, I am not sure why, but I opened my arms again and she cuddled up into them and wept. I love Lilly with all my heart, but I am not bi. I can't be right? I felt my own tears running down my face. I told her again I was there for her, and that nothing would ever change between us. She nodded, I know she knew that I meant I just wanted to be just friends. The movie just continued, and neither of us noticed. The sheets fallen to the floor and the mood damaged. I think I've ruined everything. After we'd both cried and were tired I wanted to go crawl into my bed. She got up as I started to clean up the room and put my bed back together. She sighed then told me she was going home, she turned and ran out and I heard her sobs fading. Now I am here and can't sleep. Lilly is my best friend but what if I've lost her. What if she doesn't want to be my friend now that I can't love her how she loves me? I am so broken inside...."

Miley could feel the emptiness with each sob that rocked her body. As the words hit their mark once again. The bitterness was in the pure irony of this stupid journal. She threw it across the room where it hit the wall. Falling back open, Miley didn't go to retrieve it. She left it sitting there forlornly. Crossing to the window she saw it was raining. Fat drops, rushing down the window as the wind picked up. Today the waves were white capped and choppy.

If it's true what they say that windows are eyes to the soul. Then does the world cry with you? Miley's mind asked her.

She couldn't bear the sight of the rain anymore. She went back and got into bed to cuddle with Beary. Her beautiful eyes closing, the memories wouldn't leave her. In the weeks that followed that entry, Lilly had come around. They'd stayed best friends, through never again did they sleep in the same bed. Whenever Lilly came to stay she'd sleep on the floor on her air mattress. Sadly, Miley recalled they'd never watched Moulin Rouge again. When they went down to the beach, Lilly was afraid to link their arms. Gradually, she'd opened a little but as Miley knew their normal life wasn't real.
"Oh my darling" Miley, murmured, her tears falling faster and her sobs returning. She buried her face in the blankets. As she thought about Lilly's once clear and gorgeous blue eyes that had dulled to a gray. Gone was her mischievous twinkle that had made her best friend. She realized the adoring, caring and sensitive friend she once had. Had lost her shine and slowly, Miley remembered. That the girl who had loved her once was the friend she loved.

How had she been so blind? It had taken two years of being Lilly's friend. Just her friend and watching her struggling. How had she not noticed her jealousy the first time Lilly got a boyfriend? She had been miserable without her best friend at her side. All through the sadness of her break ups and beginnings all over again with Jake. Lilly had been there, it must have broken her heart Miley thought. Then one day, on the Filming of her movie Indiana Joni, Miley remembered something clicked. She'd been away for month, away from Lilly's laughter and smile. Away, and that been enough to realize she had fallen in love with her best friend. Sighing inwardly, or was I always in love with her?

She had been so excited to come home but the shock that greeted her only served to destroy her dream. How could I believe she'd wait for me? How could I be that selfish! Really stupid Stewart.

Miley turned over as her phone began to buzz against her. It was Lilly and Miley's heart began to beat double time. It was a text coming over was all it said. Miley felt her stomach again begin to churn. From too much crying, how could she face Lilly looking like this? She'd be worried and ask questions! She tried whiping her face but in the mirror in the hall. She saw how red her eyes were. Before she got to the door, it burst open. A rain soaked Lilly pushed the door closed behind her.

"Wow is it ever coming down out there" she laughed. Miley waited for Lilly to get to her and the words fell from her lips. " Oh my god, Miles are you okay?"

Miley resisted throwing herself into her best friends arms. It didn't matter though because Lilly had her in her arms. Miley found her body heating up from Lilly's loving hug. Think fast Miley, why would you be crying?

Lilly drew back to look into eyes. "Spill Miley..."

"Jakkkke...jakke.." Miley moaned

"What did he do!"

"I broke up with him" Miley cried. Which was true enough in point of fact. Though not the reason for crying.

"Oh Miley, I am so so sorry" Lilly murmured. "You don't have to tell me why."

Miley looked back at Lilly with a watery smile.

"B-b-bu-t Lilly" Miley hiccuped. "I thought you had a date with Oliver?"

"I do" she said "I just had a fashion emergency."

Miley nodded. "You did need to borrow from the Hannah closet?"

"Yes please" Lilly begged.

Again Miley nodded, but before she could let Lilly by. The front door, slammed shut. As Robby Ray, came through with a wash of wind and rain.

"Hi bud, hi Lilly" he said excitedly. "I am glad you're here. I just got a call and y'all never guess from who!" He waited for that to sink in before barreling on " Ellen DeGeneres called and she wants Hannah on her show!"

Lilly squealed with excitement Miley knew she loved Ellen. "Oh my gosh Miley isn't this great!" She exclaimed as she began to jump up and down.

Her father and best friend looked at her for a happy reaction. Miley knew her face was betraying her. Never good at lying. She'd managed once today. She knew she couldn't do it a second time.

"Miles you okay?" Lilly asked "You look as though you've seen a ghost!"

"Honey" Robby Ray said "Come and sit down."

Miley could see her fathers mouth moving. She saw Lilly worried face, but she couldn't hear them. One panicked thought kept her feet nailed to the floor. If go on Ellen, I am going to cave. I am going to admit the truth. I don't know how I can say no either or I am going to hurt Lilly. She'll think it's because of her and it would be. But not for the reasons she's gonna think. We've never talked again about her being bi.

"Miley!" as from far away her name was being called. She felt like the day she'd discovered Oliver and Lilly were dating and hadn't told her. Instead, she'd saw them kiss and she felt her heart shatter into a million pieces. Only that morning, on the plan on the way home from the movie she'd been prepared to tell Lilly.

Now standing her in front, of her father and Lilly she felt utter confusion mixed with something like anger. At her inability to just tell Lilly, for fear of losing her.

It wasn't fair to her to keep this hidden. But it hadn't been fair for Lilly loving her, when the feelings weren't reciprocated. She'd done what she Miley had done. Tried to move on and had with Oliver. It wouldn't be fair to tell her now. But now the Ellen thing, being with Lilly's idol and a very out women with a wife. It was going to force her hand, she knew it inside.

She felt a hand on her shoulder, like a spell being broken. She started being aware of what was going on around her. It was her father helping her to the couch.

"Miley tell me what's wrong!" he looked up set she could see that.

"I am afraid" that was the best way of putting it. With Lilly right here beside her.

"Afraid of what?" Lilly asked.

"You've done tons of Hannah interviews." Her father said finishing Lilly's thought.

"I am just afraid is all" Miley said getting frustrated. "I don't know if I can do it."

Suddenly Lilly got up, "Don't know if you can Miley or don't know if you want too? Nevermind I am gonna go" she said.

"Lilly wait, it's not what you think..." Miley railed off. She's taking it wrong, she thinks it's because I don't support her being bi.

"Miley I have to meet Oliver"

Miley felt fresh tears on her face.

"I'll see you on Monday" Lilly said as she turned in the doorway. "Bye Miley and I am sorry about Jake."

Then like the wind she was gone.

"What about Jake?" Robby asked her daughter. When Lilly had left. She didn't even remember about her fashion emergency.

"I broke up with him daddy" Miley said.

"You wait, I thought you really..."

"I was lying to myself, it's nothing he did. He just wasn't right for me. My heart wasn't in it anymore"

"I am sorry bud, you want me to make you some coco?"

Miley smiled faintly. "No it's okay daddy, I am just gonna go upstairs."

Climbing the stairs, she again wondered if she should have just told her dad. The true reason why she broke up with Jake.

Back in her room she saw her phone buzzing and vibrating on the bed. It was another text from Lilly.

Its ok Miles I am not mad. I am just nervous about being with Oliver 2night.

Miley felt relief wash through her for the first time all night. Lilly doesn't hate me.

Maybe everything would be fine. Still she couldn't deny her broken heart. Lilly was with Oliver they possibly would take the next step. Miley was sure if that happened she'd truly lost the only person she'd truly loved. Looking back out the window, she saw the rain had finally stopped. She opened the balcony door, and stepped out into the warm muggy night.

Looking toward the sky, she saw the stars. Slowly and into the night, she whispered the words she'd never spoken. "I love you Lilly"

It wasn't enough to mend her heart, but it was a beginning.